Assistance reading chart - sun gemini - mars and moon in 12th

In recent times I have sought assistance through therapy, careers counselling etc. And I have grown increasingly frustrated with the half measures these supposed experts are telling me to implement.

I this would be the first time I delved into the esoteric, and I must say it's aided me vmuch more than I would think.

So my own research has cast light into the seperate houses, and how the planets influence them.

The one house I seem to have difficulty getting clear answers on, is the 12th. My moon and Mars are in here.

Recent years have caused me to the view the material world with great dissatisfaction. My own attempt at fitting into the rat race failed. All the help I sought only served to amplify my disdain in the pursuit of money. I'm not any type of an expert so I figured I'd ask.

I'll give you brief overview on my background. I am the son of immigrant parents in Australia. I am bilingual, although I'm not sure how I managed to learn a second language when I never received any formal education in it. I speak it fluently, although writing and reading are somewhat limited, but functional.

My upbringing was cold. (first thought that came to mind when I thought about it)

My mother told me I didn't speak until I was five.

Being immigrants, they had no money to start with, so learning to make the best of very little is something I am very familiar with.

I was 'employed' in my parents various businesses, I use the term loosely as I didn't get any income. The lesson here folks is the reward to hard work is a whole lot of nothing.

I learnt that my father was a heroin addict, and well, thats why I had to become the breadwinner of the family at fifteen.

Two years ago I decided to never speak to my parents again as the relationship (in my opinion) has become far too toxic to be salvaged. Even after numerous attempts to reconcile with the old man, he returns to his old ways of telling me what to do.

I've felt alone my whole life anyway, so it's not like anything changed. But I've felt much better about the path I'm walking as it's the one I choose. However I need to look forward to figure out how I am to better serve myself, and by greater extension, others.

Any input would be greatly appreciated

Chart link:

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