sleeping with a talisman

do you think that sleeping with something under your pillow can affect what you think about or dream about?

yes.. if you think hard enough about it, it might. I think your dreams depend on alot of life style factors to begin with so.. dunno, just my opinion though.. is there a story that goes with this?

uhhhhmm yeah sure. there is.

so there is this guy (duh)
who i met and who means alot to me
but he lives across the country and we don't talk much.

so i made these little pieces out of clay, like moon shapes or horns, and i guess they represent him.
and, well, i sleep with one under my pillow.

i don't know why, i guess hoping that in my dreams and dream of him or that maybe because of it i can transfer messages or emotions to him?

and i think it works, but in the way that i am conscious it is there.
and so then it gets me to think about him.

but the other night it was weird..
i started thinking about him, and then, it's like, my brain started shaking haha.
it sounds weird but, i felt like, i was being blocked or something.
i even said to myself outloud "ok ok i'll stop" like in a half sleep.

so i think maybe he was blocking me or pushing me out.
and i just forced myself to think of other things.

it's so weird, i never know what to think, if these things are actually happening or if i'm making it up.