He says he loves me...

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onlyinwriting2
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15 Years

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Is this Gemini for real?

I posted something months ago, about how we were only long distance friends for now (opposite coast) but it's been about five months, or six I believe, and we talk to each other pretty much everyday? These past two weeks we haven't talked much to each other though; here and there, really, but these past two weeks he's also been saying these real deep crap to me. Before I get into that, however, I'd like to say that 3 months ago I was opposed to 'sticking' by him, with him, or whatever the fuck he wanted and he kept pushing. Then he kept telling me he liked me. Over and over again. Then...well, I got fed up with it and I said, look dude. This isn't going anywhere--so we got into the biggest argument, I said fuck you, hate you, etc...haha. Bad stuff but I 'ended' it. He wrote me this long, long letter which basically said he was crushed by it and said he'd take me back because it's 'me'. After that...yeah okay. I went back. We didn't fight for a month, he was happy, started saying things like you're 'my girl' and that's a 'datey thing to do' even though we haven't DATED yet. Last week or before that he told me he loved me but wasn't 'in love with me' and that 'required more' but now he told me several days ago that he finds himself thinking 'i love you' and he has to catch himself? and that it scares him sometimes but he's afraid I'd run away or leave him because of it. I said I wouldn't...but it almost seems like he's getting a bit bored of me? (I guess I'm thinking that because we don't talk as much as we used to) YET...idk. At the same time he sometimes seems like he wants my affection/support? Or something? The other day he said he felt like he was 'boring' and then said he didn't want to come off as 'whiney'. Is he...I don't know. Being honest with me? He tells me he's honest. And all that stuff. But I don't think he thought this through...he has another semester in his University before he could even think about moving to my state/coast for grad school. And we've already 'talked' about it and he says he has no clue what he's going to end up doing but that he hopes I don't break it off with him? Worth it people, or not...