Help please, I think he's toying with me

What would you do if you have had very few relationships (5) that were'nt so great and decided to date an older man who has swept you right off your feet. He has taken this somewhat innocent woman and opened my eyes to erotic sex, gourmet food, fine clothing, jewelery and whos who in our small town. I am very pretty but I've worked mostly on a ranch most of my life. I was asked to a photoshoot and discovered how to turn heads with my looks by taking time to wear makeup and fixing hair, but I still feel a bit clumpsy and out of place off the ranch. I've done some runway work, but most mostly photography.

He met me shortly after a rough breakup for him. Anyways, up to now you probably think, so what would I have to complain about. I don't want to complain, but I'm worried. He keeps telling me that he is not ready for any commitments as he still cares for his xgf. He also said he has slept with many, many women in this little town and he has propositions all the time.

Meanwhile I am letting him stay at my place, give me advice on life and business, give me personal loans and sex me all he wants. I cook for him and he buys the food and teaches me how to cook it. I am suddenly feeling like a prostitute because he got angry with me for telling someone that he MIGHT move in and partner in my house with me, which he has said and changes his mind every other week on this issue. He didn't sleep that night at all and left to visit his mom without me. He asked me if I wanted to come, but I didn't feel welcome to.

I feel he is the most wonderful man I've ever known, but after 6 months of sleeping with me, he still worries not to "lead" me on so I get my heart broken over and again when he's "honest" with me and tells me that he doesn't know what he wants and that he might leave town and leave me behind.

I want to be angry and forlorn, but I know if I don't take it with maturity and grace I will never see him again. I'm lost and feeling like I must be desperate to stay, but it's also the best I've ever had. He is 37 and Gemini and I'm 27 and Libra.

Please tell me, what would you do. I would appreciate all input.

I think the idea of a younger woman having a relationship with an older man is a good idea generally speaking, Your man doesn't seem to be of the monogamous type so its left to you, he's probably affluent and wan't or needs you as his concubine. Its your choice you could dump him and go back to those immature brotherly types that you stupid ass libra chicks worship so much or get your pretty - perkey ass covered with a mature grown man with an appetite for sex, does he make you feel good? Its exhilerating isn't it. You might wanna do a background check on him just to make sure that he isn't a con man. You seem to have accomodated him quite a bit via sex and him staying over at your place, he's unaccountable as you've alluded to etc,. so do a background check on him.

Ok... obviously i'm not a guy but i'll try my best .. it really all comes down to, what you believe you are worth. Do you think you deserve more then he's giving you? i wouldn't sit there and be afriad that you're going to find all garbage out there and stay in the same situation based on fear and because he acts as the "BF" role without being a bf. Now i'm a gemini and i know we change our mind ALOT but thats when we are confused(meaning not a good thing, confused about you) he told you he still has feelings for his ex, he's being pretty honest and blunt with you. Just because you never had someone treat you like that, doesn't mean anyone else wont...Dont settle.

to be quite honest if you don't mind... Just because he buys you things, and shows you a lovely material world with great sex doesn't mean he's relationship material for you, and i think you can do much better, bc he is being absolutely selfish about his own needs while walking all over yours, but you are letting him...

M&M!!!!!!!!! yes yes spreading the love advice all around as always, you wonderful gem you! how have you been baby darling? hope all is well? yes im back for a while! =) been so busy but i'm okay now...male gemini's just might be worse then the females!!! brats lol very well said m&m , always interested in reading your posts sweety!

haha .... dirty butterfly's =)~ heheehe yessssss...spreading the light as always are you m&m!! how are things with you and your honey?

RUN GIRL, RUN!!!!!! You are being taken advantage of- and if you feel it, it is your responsibility to get out- please, please take care of yourself, have respect for yourself and drop that man like a bad habit....NOW!!!!