not able to understand--she loves me or not

I met a gemini girl last year, in the first 1 and 1/2 months itself, we got off in the relation very well. Post which her parents decided that we should not go further in relation as our indian horoscopes do not match ( i am 16/11/1981 and she is 16/06/1987).We continued for some more time, but then suddenly one day she said, we cant be with each other ever and that was it, no more conversations. Reason given by her, her mom said some priest told - that the relation will not last long....and my gemini girl got afraid.

I was so hung on her, that i couldn't sleep nor work properly for a period of 4 months...suddenly just 3 days before my b'day last year, she pops up with an email..wishing "happy diwali"..and then on my b'day we chatted all day. She said, it doesn't matter to her now, whatever happens, either way she is willing to go, if our relationship happens or if it doesn't happen

Now, we continue chatting...where i chat the most, she responds often, she is not willing to tell her parents about us chatting, she is hiding it from her parents, meanwhile at times during chatting...she keeps on saying, "it will never happen"..."it is not possible, u know"...

whenever i take up the topic of our relation reaching to the marriage level, she just starts panicking, she becomes restless, starts moving away from the topic or just doesn't converse...i dont know what to feel like, do like, regarding this situation...please help!!!!

I am going through a hell lot of tensions, can't sleep at night, keep thinking about her, i know being a gemini her moods are varying...but being a scorpio, i have kept a good level of patience and keep doing so. Want to know if she is with me or what—

she is not... you have to move on. personal experience of gemini girls.

If you love her sincerely then you do something about it. Don't wait for her or her parents to decide. She's doing her best to keep the relationship a secret and she truly believes it won't happen because your not doing something other than chatting with her. I can only say is if you pursue a relationship with her then make it the best but always remember that not all relationships will last and some might get lucky.

If your really practical you should measure some areas with this girl such as financial if she has a good job and earns money while your the same then it shouldn't be any problem if your wanting to settle down with the girl and have children.
If your just pursuing her for the sake of being in a loving relationship but unsure whether to settle down with her then set those things straight with her but there will be no end goal.
but if you two don't want children but still want to be in a relationship or get married then its fine.
Its going to be either communication or compromise.

You two know what to do best so work it out with each other.