the truth is..

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1_fine_gem
@1_fine_gem
19 Years

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..i dont give a f09k about just anything and i care about everything. i both know a lot of things and know nothing at all. i am both a man and a woman. I care too much and i feel nothing.

i know when someone likes me, but my skeptical side will always doubt him, block him from coming in, give all the reaasons why i should trust him and move away and avoid getting too close. While the other side will be convinced that he likes me and its safe, but fear always makes me go to the safe side...here..all the idea of commitment is droppped. I will resort to my funny bone land, my paradise, where in a world of joke, everything is safe..but note that i do not know it. Most of the time I know something but i do not know it at the same time. its just that what it is, there is always a battle inside me, geminis are known to have two side, but sometimes i am thinking there is more..i can analize things and believe in it for a moment..but in a bit i will be believeing something else, sometimes i try to analyze as to why i come up with that belief when i while ago i was saying somthing else, but sometimes i just let it be and go about my confusing world. I am confused. I am both good and bad. sad and happy, pretty yet ugly, lovely yet weird, sweet yet tough, vulnerable and strong, cool and calm yet anxious, i am reserved and wild, flirt and innocent.

there are times when i dont know what to feel, how to feel, and when to feel it..but i know i should have some reactions to some things somehow, cause other people are reacting to it, but i look at it and its :empty, blank.

With my actions and words, and sometimes flirty games, i cause other to feel...sadness, joy, lust or love..but i dont understand it..

i understand that if you are sweet and nice there is a possibility that that person might like you but when he does because i had been sweet and nice and all that i dont know why he likes me..and i will start questioning things and though a part of me believes that he likes me, the other part will convince me he's playing games. so i stay aloof..not because i am pretending or playing hard to get...but because i am scared and most importantly confused.

everything you show is subject to analization especially when it comes to a gems emotion. after all our hearts live in the brain.

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a4_gemini
@a4_gemini
19 Years500+ PostsGemini

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"YOU ARE NOT ALONE..."

No one is alone. God is w/ us and HE will never forsake you OR leave you.

You dont have to worry, and dont you be afraid, joy comes in the morning. And Troubles?, they dont last always. So if your heart is broken, just lift your hands and say, "Lord, I know that I can make, I know that I can stand. No matter what may come my way, my life is in your hands".......Something like that, that's the part I feel asleep on while at church...my bad.