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there were some tears, it was a very bittersweet feeling because i definitely still have feelings for this dude, but idk if it can ever be the same as it was. things were ended badly between us...we just stopped talking. and i pushed it aside cause i'm retarded. he's a really good person...i asked him, if i decided not to see him xmas because of leaving the country soon after, if that meant i would lose him again and he wouldn't talk to me anymore...and he said, "no. you're a good person and i don't want to lose you either." what guy would say that? come on. but it SUCKS because how can i seriously put my future plans on hold? i can't.
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it's because i'm getting up before 6 every morning, and i don't get in until around 10, usually, sometimes 11. i just need to adjust to my new schedule, is all.


ANYWAY, back to you, my pumpkin. were you just saying that to him? or are you really going abroad during the holidays?

do you *want* to see him? i think you do. if you do meet up, what do you expect the outcome to be?
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wheelhomies
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6-10?! you're fking insane, woman!

i'm not really going abroad for the holidays, but there is a possibility that i could be soon thereafter. like, in january or february or something. nothing set in stone yet, but i was seriously considering it, and i feel like i shouldn't really push that aside just because this really great guy that i totally screwed over is willing to give me a second chance.

do i want to see him, yes and no. i want to see him because i miss him and he's a really good kisser. (hahah) BUT...then again i don't because what's the point if i'm gonna be like, ok thanks for the kiss, let's try long distance, round 2 of failing miserably DING DING DING! know what i'm sayin'?

as for the outcome, no idea. i mean honestly, i could see myself growing w/this guy. i liked him so much, and i still do...idk, i'm just not sure what to do. i suppose i could always just give it a chance and just wait to travel. i just worry too much. that's my problem.