for my own health

Hello everybody

Ok so my story is this. I've been on and off with a leo man for about 2.5 years now. Yes I know I am crazy for sticking around for that long.Trust me I had heard this from friends and family , but I can't change the way I feel. So here it goes.

Since November of last year we have been consistently seeing eachother. Good sign, or so I thought. Recently we had decided to really try to make it work as a couple. We have a long distant relationship. I personally don't think its long distance, just two hours away from eachother. Anyways, so the conflict in our relationship is this. We dont spend as much time together as I like, we see eachother once every other week. we dont speak on phone or text as much as we should in order to keep things alive since we long distant. I told him how this really bothers me and we need to work on it. He thinks its fine. I dont think so. I told him how I am the only one doing all the work in the relationship. calling, texing, setting up times to spend with eachother. I have gotten us tickets to an event, I have recently started to do little things around the house for him, I have been the only one who does the traveling. So he doesn't call like he says he will, when I try to call him sometimes he lets it ring then i get a quick text with in seconds asking "whats up" like really you can't pick up your phone. He never puts time aside for me there is always something going on. mind you he does have kids and i understand that he has them every other weekend. I have kids too so I know how it is to juggle that kind of schedule. So when I try to talk to him about it he gets defensive when I point out what he is doing. He says things like "don't i call you or text you the next day", and I say to him that the only reason is because I would text him first and ask him why he didnt call or text etc... When i talk to him about this I am calm cool and collective,, he doesnt see that its a big deal and he disregards me in almost everything that I think is important about our relationship. If we are to make it work I think communication is key. there are other things too that I personally can not share with you because its private, but the other thing that bothers me is that he tries to turn the blame on me. I have gone above and beyond for this man and he has this power over me. He makes me feel guilty sometimes for bringing up concerns and he get aggrivated with me like he couldnt even bother with me. These past two wee

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These past two weeks have been hell and I have been crying, not eating well and even started drinking more. He was suppose to call me and set up a time for us to get together this past Sunday and he didnt call or text me all day. Nothing not even to let me know that day was not a good day to get together. He thinks he has done nothing wrong. He always thinks this.I waited for him to text or call on Monday around 2pm I decided not to wait no longer I couldn't take it. I told him over the phone that I can not continue this way because I am unhappy. He seems like he is unappy with me so I told him for our well being and my health that its probably best if we finally just go our seperate ways. I told him how its not right the way weve been going and how he has been treating me lately. He got really mad at me and pretty much said "FUudck it! you want to be done! be done bye!!" later that day i text him that I hope he can understand why I have to do this. try not to be so mad at me. He hasn't said anything back and I am not expecting him to. As much as it hurts I feel as tho I made the right decision. I can not keep putting in so much time and energy into a man who doesn't want the same things I want and blames me for his short comings, broken promises etc.. The thing is all i've ever asked from him was time and mutual respect. I am 36 and he is 42 we are both grown ass people and we dont have to play these damn games. I just wonder if he will realize that maybe he should have tried a little harder. I wonder if he will come back to me and try to do things the right way. I don't know. You all can say what you think your entitled to it. I would like to know what you think.