2010 so far for libras

i remember reading in the beginning of the year about how saturn was in libra transit. im not completely sure what that means but its was suppose 2 b a challenging year for libras.
so far has been a tough year but only "emotionally" for me. for example, the urge to find a companion and to start a family is overwhelming me and this has been going on pretty much since the year started. i still have my same life style and friends but i jus feel lonely. i dnt kno if it's me getting older or the stars. but the interesting thing is my ex told me last nite that im a lot more agressive and in control than i've ever been. but its like i cant play games n e more and i no patience for BS. there was jus a sudden shift in my wants and desires as well as my personality. could this transit be apart of this shift. i was jus wondering if any other libras have been dealing with the same issues.

This has been a pretty shitty year for me. Major break-up, friends falling away, now a weird health concern, but some really good things too. My cat now lives with me. (Something I have been compromising about for 12 years!) Met a new friend who I suspect we will do an amazing project with.

I really feel like I have turned almost completely inward. I am not depressed or anything. Just wanting and craving a lot of me time. I am doing a lot of soul searching and introspection and looking at things that I haven't wanted to look at before. All that innerwork that piles up. hee.

I am also initiating a lot of changes that are just for just for me. Taking courses that I want to for no reason other than I want to. In some ways, I feel like this is the first time I have ever lived solely for myself. I am usually so concerned with my partner and pleasing everyone else, this is the first time I can say No and not get pulled into their stuff.

Time also seems to have a weird element to it. The beginning of the year seems a lifetime ago. Even being in school, I ended April 1, seems a lifetime ago.

I'll be curious what others say.

I totally think that last year was the year for me to do all this introspection. I'm going through a lot of major changes, but I'm determined to think of them all positive. For the most part, I'm fighting for stability in all directions of my life and am fairly happy with the results. Knock on wood that this continues lol...

Perhaps it's not bad stuff occurring, but just a turbulent year with lots of change? I guess when life gives you sour lemons, make some damn good lemonade?

Yes this year has also been challenging emotionally so far, knocking me off my feet for a part of it and lonely too but I've made some hard calls that have put me in this situation. Closing the door on the people that dont have my back. Because to me it's important that I get as much as i put into my relationships. But there is still focus ahead, it's just made me stronger in the sense that nobody is going to be looking out for me but me and given me the chance to focus a little more on my children and keeping that together. There is also excitement ahead as I changed my life's direction just on the spur of the moment and quite spontaneously uprooting my security...scary as it's been there's only forward now!

Looking back it has all been my doing, I am the one that has decided to change things and HARDEN up...even though it hasnt gone smoothy which is something that I normally always make sure of. It's still a step in the right direction!

Posted by sweethearts
Yes this year has also been challenging emotionally so far, knocking me off my feet for a part of it and lonely too but I've made some hard calls that have put me in this situation. Closing the door on the people that dont have my back. Because to me it's important that I get as much as i put into my relationships. But there is still focus ahead, it's just made me stronger in the sense that nobody is going to be looking out for me but me and given me the chance to focus a little more on my children and keeping that together. There is also excitement ahead as I changed my life's direction just on the spur of the moment and quite spontaneously uprooting my security...scary as it's been there's only forward now!

Looking back it has all been my doing, I am the one that has decided to change things and HARDEN up...even though it hasnt gone smoothy which is something that I normally always make sure of. It's still a step in the right direction!

Tell me about it... I've pruned off a few friends who don't have my back. To me, it's very important to have someone in a pinch. When I'm imbalanced, it's good for someone to just take 2 minutes to kick you back into gear, or even to say hello. I wouldn't say harden up, but be more resilient. Tough enough to handle it, but still flexible enough to change if needed. 🙂

it could be better, its been emotionally taxing to say the least, and just seems long when i think about when it will be ova

Posted by Pride of 0ctober
it could be better, its been emotionally taxing to say the least, and just seems long when i think about when it will be ova

Yeah I understand the concept of 'emotionally taxing.' In my case I get a case of bad dreams. And I mean ultra bad dreams, kinda like my brain's way of processing through it all in one go. I think the important thing is that you do things that you love to do that make up the core of your identity. In my case, I pampered myself and shared it with others to replenish my emotional wells. I went to buy some flowers, went to my favourite bakery, and shared my goodies with someone I thought needed them just as much as I did.

Just remember to do things for youself that you love to do. 🙂

well i've def been focusing on things to make me feel better lately. i've found a really good diet and have managed 2 lose almost 20 lbs so far, which is very exciting for me. it has def helped with my self esteem. im a lot more social and im doing a lot more activities with friends. i jus feel lik im in the middle of a big transformation. my life style and personality is definately changing. some of the changes are good some are a lot more challenging but change IS inevitable. i guess what im really trying to say is that my life jus feels very unfullfeeling. im ready for the next stage. n the mean time im tryna keep myself occupied the best way i can. im hoping this process is happening because im about to enter into a diff cycle in my life and this is jus preparing me.

i jus keep telling myself its nessessary and the end result will be very rewarding.

Posted by playswitfire83
well i've def been focusing on things to make me feel better lately. i've found a really good diet and have managed 2 lose almost 20 lbs so far, which is very exciting for me. it has def helped with my self esteem.

WOW. That's really impressive! And super awesome! Anything dealing with weight fluctuations (gain/loss) is so incredibly hard! At the moment I'm trying to reshape my body the way I want it to look as well, hoping that I'll reach a healthier me, but you, having already lost 20 pounds, is super awesome! Congrats!

I'm extremely introspective. Seeing all sorts of areas for improvement and planting long term goals for myself.

I guess I feel I've grown up miles since this time last year. I wouldn't trade 2010 for 2009 though, this introspection and self-reflection is much preferrable to the diaster of a year I went through last year.

nedley, get your iron checked. Nightmares are often a symptom of low iron.

Weird that you and sweethearts are hardening while I am softening. I feel like a sweater that is gently being pulled looking at all the ways I have got in my own way and actively doing what I can to release the patterns.

I actually am surprisingly happy and contented and have more freedom than I have allowed myself in the past. I am exploring all the things I want to explore and have no one's expectations holding me back. What a blessing! But the first half of the year, when I broke up with my bf and had all my school stress, was really tough.

Posted by little_sparrow
nedley, get your iron checked. Nightmares are often a symptom of low iron.

Weird that you and sweethearts are hardening while I am softening. I feel like a sweater that is gently being pulled looking at all the ways I have got in my own way and actively doing what I can to release the patterns.

I actually am surprisingly happy and contented and have more freedom than I have allowed myself in the past. I am exploring all the things I want to explore and have no one's expectations holding me back. What a blessing! But the first half of the year, when I broke up with my bf and had all my school stress, was really tough.

Iron check? What's the correlation between the two? I'll check anyways though, but you've got my curiosity piqued. I have to admit, despite losing one major part of my life, I've had all the time in the world to learn how to rebalance myself and not just depend on that one thing. I was turning into a workaholic, and it wasn't healthy, despite that the work was great. However, it was all I had. So despite a lot of heartache and headaches, I don't think I'd trade the last twelve months for anything else. 🙂

@nedley...thanx alot. i tried a lot of diets but none of them worked and this one feel n2 my lap. its called ideal protein weight loss plan if n e 1s interested 🙂

Thanks wtf? It is a very odd experience but I am loving it. It sounds paradoxical but it isn't. 🙂

nedley,

I don't know the connection. It has something to do with oxygen supply to the brain. I usually get nightmares when I have headaches and I know that nightmares are a symptom of low iron.

Oops! I should have said I SUSPECT it has something to do with the oxygen supply to the brain.

little_sparrow, I think the biggest reason for dreaming nightmares is stress. Maybe something unconsciously is bothering you...
2010 for me... it is and will be a very hard year for me. I am trying to do too many things at once and the only way for me to go through is to stay calm and act but instead of acting I don't do much, or I do something else... (f.e. instead of reading a book I should, I am reading another one🙂) I spend more time of thinking and wondering about life...
This year I am lonelier