I could kill him...

Ok so, I am venting... here

ex -libra pitched up at my house drunk as a skunk last night. He probably saw the lights on.This has been the first time I have seen him or spoken to him since he wedding anouncement and me getting depressed about losing him. And had to be booked off for 3 weeks.

This ding-dong is acting like nothing is wrong.He even said that him getting married doesn't mean that he doesn't care about me.And he needs me in him life WTF.

I lost him and I just let him have it...He didn't listen to a word I said. All he could say that he was sorry for hurting me.Needless to say, I lost my damn mind and throw a cup at him(it didn't break). I asked him to leave before I call my journalist friend and write an article about him harresing me. He, looked like a lost little boy I almost felt sorry for him...

Really now, Libra men what the hell is his problem.

((I lost him and I just let him have it... ))

meant to say I lost it with him and I just let him have it...

I just don't understand why he is doing this. I am trying really hard to put him behind me and to move on.

I feel like a crazy person.Am really tired of this... and really DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANOTHER BREAK DOWN OVER THIS GUY.I have not been taking his calls or from anyone that we both know.
I just needed time to lick my wounds on my own.Now, after yesterday I can't stop crying.

you're inviting the drama into your life. stop that.

yeah, I guess you are right...

tired, going to bed now... thanks

You are in an all or nothing place. You believe that him marrying someone else means that he doesn't have feelings for you. That isn't necessarily true. It doesn't change what he feels or what he felt. It just means he is marrying someone else.

I know you wish it were different.

I wish you much love with someone worthy and willing to comit to you. You truly deserve it.

Thanks guys...

It really doesn't matter how I feel about him. I made a decision to not have him in my life. I really love him and when I read that he was getting married. The bottom just fell out from under me. I just don't understand that he can say he cares about me and hurt me like this.

I asked him a thousand times to give me time to get over him. But he kept coming back. Then, I asked him to please stay away from me and that he don't want him in my life on any level. So, apparently it is common decency that bring him to my house since I am a "hateful? heck and don't want him in my life.

I am really not being petty or looking for drama. I can understand that you can get married to or be married to someone and still care about your ex. But what he is doing is not fair. How do you decide to marry someone then tell your ex I need you in my life—

Friends keep telling me that He doesn't deserve me; I am too good for him; someone better will come along and it is his lost. They are only trying to help. I really wish there was a pill so, that I can get him out of my system and not feel so hurt by the things that he is doing...

Remember that weekend he left his keys for me and wanted to talk. Well that was the weekend He asked her to marry him.So, I guess that's why he was such a shit to me when he got back.

I always seem to be crying. So, my boss calls me in. And say that I am acting eratic and starts talking about The Secret.So, maybe I am atracting negativity.

I have a lot of leave days and am going to take 2 weeks off and go do one of those tours around europe for 14 days.I hope the holiday will do me good.I am going alone and I am determine to enjoy it.

(( Sometimes we force ourselves to get in relationships because the thoughtof that person makes us shriek inside and rage so we act like we love someone else. but inside all we want is that person we truly love to love us back, ))

Don't really understand.I am sure that he loves this girl...The way he looks at her.

bs, thanks for your comments.
Please don't feel sorry for me I can't stand it when people pity me.
I am dealing with it. And I will be fine.

OH God, a Leo with a Capricorn or Aqua— nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

They are the WORST matches for us.

Bella, you know you have to let go....yep its hard but after all this time, it IS TIME.

Look at the way he treated you and as bs said.....no self respecting Leo would tolerate this.....I was bad enough but you are certainly taking this harder than you should be....I would seek counselling if this continues.....and/or just hanging with friends and doing things...you cant keep doing this to yourself...do you think he is— NOT ON YOUR LIFE

I do agree with that last comment...for some reason they continually seek confirmation of their "greatness" LOL

Thanks, All

I will be fine...

of course you will be....he's only a man...look outside and see how many of them there are....why settle for a jerk, a player at that, sheesh!!!!

He is just that, a PLAYER

Moon

If you bothered to get to know some of the other people around here and listened to their stories, you would know what is going on.

(I have no idea how someone could object to what I wrote to Bella, who I sincerely like! Cancer = crazy.)

what are you talking about? are you high?

This is what I wrote to Bella.

I have ZERO idea what you are on about.

* You are in an all or nothing place. You believe that him marrying someone else means that he doesn't have feelings for you. That isn't necessarily true. It doesn't change what he feels or what he felt. It just means he is marrying someone else.

* I know you wish it were different.

* I wish you much love with someone worthy and willing to comit to you. You truly deserve it.

* I have ZERO idea what you are on about.

^^^^ This was for Moon not Bella. ^^^^

Please go back and reread my post to Bella.

He want's to keep the friendship.

I have not been signing in for about a week. Was as sick had bronchitis.And had lots of time to think.

As for ex- libra... I just need to let that go.For my own sake.
And Hell No I don't want his friendship.Or him anywhere in my life.
And I hope to God that he won't pop up sometime down the line.

But you know he will...its up to YOU as to how you handle it.

Chatz, I don't know really maybe, maybe not.Right now it looks like a no, I don't think that I will see him again. When someone gets married things change.And I am not going to be messing around with a married guy.

Right now I am just dealing and getting over him. So,I just want to get over this and put it all behind me. I have my good days and my bad days,but I know that even this shall also pass.

little_sparrow has been a real good friend since I came to this board. And she has given me some great advice.
It really doesn't matter who said what.