I couldn't do it...................

He asked me to be his girlfriend then took it back. I told him I was walking away and that I deserved better. I was angry and hurt and bitter.....for 2 weeks....but slowly the feelings began to fade away and I found myself calling him intoxicated at 2 am last friday. Bad Mistake. I'm left feeling just as confused as before (if not more). The thing is, I know he is just as confused as I am....

We hooked up and he stayed until saturday afternoon. He says I'm his "Babygirl." And brought up comments he had seen on my myspace made by other men. He was jealous. I said, "what are you checking up on me on myspace now?!" And he tried to cover it up. I have never witnessed a person more confused about what they want. I told him that I had called because I missed him. I had went out with another man and when he kissed me I wanted to gag. I only want him =/ I then told him that we should stop analyzing our relationship. All this, "what are we stuff" is making us krazy and its pretty clear now that we are always going back to eachother. I told him I knew I was under his skin and he agreed. But even so, he has made no move to have anything more with me. When were together, it's deep and it almost scares me. But now I think he's probably thinking that he can act however he wants and i'll take him back. That I won't stand my ground. I'm mad at myself for giving in.....I wish I could blame the alcohol but we all know that is just a crutch.

I don't know what to do, I can't shake this man and being an aquarius, I'm usually able to walk away when I'm not getting what I want. I feel he is a mystery though, a mystery I have to solve. Also, I looked at him and said, "just stop THINKING!" "your always thinking, going around and around in ur mind and weighing things up and down." He grabbed my face and stared at me for a long time, he said that no one knew this about him. How no one has figured this out by now beats me. I told him that i get him, because he is like me. He told me that he is "messed up in the head".............I'd have to agree!

Basically I don't know what to do. I feel I can't walk away but im sure I will hear from everyone that this is what I need to do. hell, even I know this is what i need to do, but im in too far now i feel. 😢 help!

p.s. this is the song on his myspace: 311- All Mixed Up haha. great song for him id have to say. I know its about me =/

p.s. just as i was writing this, he texted me saying hi. Should I write back ?

sure! you should answer his text. Just say hi back. (he's just letting YOU know....he's thinking of you...and that's a GOOD thing!)

Think about what you really want for yourself, the type of person you want for a partner, and why ... then do that.

xoxo. You are the only person responsible for your happiness, others become a part of your happiness. As long as you make it easy for him, why should he do any work. I have been there for a Libra friend of mine, that I used to be involved with, now we are great friends and when I look back, I know it wouldn't have worked otherwise. If he isn't ready for a relationship, he won't budge. You seem too emotionally involved and unless you are willing to wait to see if/when he wants to move forwared - big IF- and if being sex partners is cool for you (which I dooubt) then play along. If you want a relationship with a man that reciprocates the same feelings for you as you do for him, move on.

I know what you mean though. Trust me. (((Hugs)))