Twin Flame - am I experiencing it?

Posted by TwinFlame2018

Howdy ya'll,

I will make my story short and want to get some opinion from more experienced users of this forum.

I've met a woman last year and we had an instant connection while talking on the dating site and after we switched to texting directly. When we met for this first date we hit it off and she asked me to start a relationship. Our first kiss was magical and as I was holding her I felt rush of energy that I never felt before with any other woman. Things were going well for a few weeks and all of a sudden she breaks up with me because of a bad joke. I tried to reconcile but she wouldn't answer my text messages. I left her alone and about a month later I left her a voicemail asking her to call me so that we can talk about us and about other things that were bothering me in my own life. I wasn't sure what to expect since she didn't respond immediately but she eventually did after a few hours. She said she was busy and would call me next day and we exchanged some small talk via text that day. Next day instead of calling she texted saying that we would probably argue on the phone and she didn't want to talk to me. Instead we texted but it did seem more like an argument since she is very stubborn and refused to talk. I knew she was going thru rough times and understand that having that kind of talk could've been extra stress for her. I originally wanted to contact her some time later with something that in my heart I knew I would get a positive reply. When we broke up part of me felt that she will be back, it can't be over. Fast forward about 2 weeks and I send her a simple text message and she replies saying that she didn't expect to hear from me (just 2 weeks ago she didn't even want to talk to me) and that she will give me another chance. We chatted every day and everything was going great. She was trusting me more and said she wanted to invite me to her place for some intimate stuff. Few days after I last saw her I sent her a text thanking her for good time we had together and made an observation about some PDA stuff she was doing to me in the restaurant. My comment basically implied that her actions were a sign of her having deep feelings for me. It was nothing bad, instead it was a compliment and it took her 12+ hours to reply and she said she couldn't be in a relationship with me anymore but couldn't provide a reason (she lost her voice few days earlier and couldn't talk on the phone). I had no contact with her for ~2 months and sent her a gift for holidays (something that I've promised to do in the past). She received it but didn't respond and I assumed that it was over but 2 weeks later she texts me thanking me. She could've just said thank you and ended conversation but instead she phrased it in a way that would cause me to respond. I did and our conversation went on and we typically would text each other 3000+ words per day (long paragraphs, not one liners). Our conversation eventually died down and all of a sudden she restarts it by asking me a question about activity we love and always planned to do together. If she wanted to end conversation about receiving my gift she could've done it before. I made myself a promise that I wouldn't chase her and she would need to show signs that she wants to see me instead of me asking her. She would text me first in the morning to start new conversation and it would be as simple as her being cold that day while I was in a warm place and she was jealous. We talk for days and she is going thru some rough times again and I'm being supportive and telling her sometimes bad things have to happen before good things happen. I believed in her and was supportive when she asked me for an opinion on doing radical but she had to do it since not doing it was driving her crazy. I told her everything will be OK and few days later her situation reverses in a positive way and she is ecstatic about the news and I am the first person she tells. She says this is exactly what she was looking for in her life and thanks me for being there for her. Our conversation ends at the end of the night and as I said I wasn't planning on chasing her and didn't want to text her on my own. She doesn't text me for a few days and I decided to text her myself and she is very cranky as something bad happened over those few days and she is super stressed. I was supportive but wrapped our conversation short that day. Next day I wasn't planning on texting her but I saw a news article about "bad things happen before good things" and as this was something I discussed with her and she agrees with me. She continues to tell me that few bad things happened within those few days and she doesn't know what to do and I ask her if there is anything I can do to help but she politely says no. I ask if I can call her that evening (this was during business hours) and she says no since she is going out for the first time in a long time and she needs this "her time". I wished her to have a good time that evening and to take her mind of things that were bothering her and said TTYL. I have not heard back from her and as I said I promised myself not to chase her and since she wasn't giving me clear signals. She gave me some mixed signals before but nothing direct. There were simple things she could've asked me about my life and my own bad things that were going at the time. I was waiting for her to make this move and I would take the lead with us seeing each other again but she never messaged me. One of her messages when she was wishing me Happy New Year she said we would both have a great great great year as long as I could lead her to the right path.

So typically I forget about a woman very easily and I just delete her phone number and never look back. I tried to forget her but for whatever reason a though of her sometimes lingers in my mind. As month after month goes by I try not to think of her but sometimes random things make me think of her. I also started experiencing weird mood swings. I wake up feeling totally fine and then all of a sudden bad feelings come out of nowhere and I can't understand since they're not coming from my own life.

I've read about Twin Flames and runner / chaser. I am very rational person who only believes in things that can be explained by science but since childhood I also believed in unexplained stuff (UFO's, aliens, ancient stuff, etc) and took Twin Flame stuff with a grain of salt. I couldn't explain the intensity of our connection as I never experienced this kind before. Everything just felt right with her and we fit like a glove together. From TF reading I thought maybe it can be us but there was no proof that can prove it for sure. She seemed like a runner and I seemed like a chaser thru our earlier breakups. Since I'm never contacting her to restart our conversation I am not sure if our roles reversed and she would become the chaser (at least from point of restarting our conversation).

Few days ago I read a blog that mentioned that one way you can find out if its Twin Flame is to ask universe about this person and to give me a sign. Blog said to send yourself an email and ask this question but I decided just to do it in my head. I asked to be shown a sign if we are meant to be together and if she is my TF. In my question I asked for 2 different signs to show me - either XXXX (month / date of her birthday) or her last name (which is male first name that's not super common and I only could think of one celebrity that has it as first name). This morning I was reading the news app on my phone and checking out some comments from people about a story and there was a comment made by username (Slastname = where last name is sigh I was asking for). 2 hours later I saw a repeating number 3344 (I know 1111 is more of TF number). Fast forward 2 hours more and I'm reading another news story and in the story they mention Sara Last Name.

I don't know if these are just coincidences or if they are signs. It's pretty strange that I would see her last name twice within a few hours and that both times they would start with S / Sara. I am confused because I always had a feeling in my heart that we were meant to be together, I can't explain why since our shared history together is not that long but yet we had similar life goals and we compliment one another in some many ways. Our break ups were never because of anything bad, in fact she told me first time she broke up with me was not really about the joke I made and more about how I reacted (I said its not a big deal its just a joke).

I would appreciate if some people would give me your feedback. I will also post if I see any more signs, I really thought the signs would come tomorrow when I plan to have more interaction with strangers and would potentially see her last name as first name of some guy I might meet.

Posted by TwinFlame2018

I will make my story short

Posted by maiden

Posted by TwinFlame2018

So I've posted my last message on Friday afternoon. Friday night YT suggests I watch some videos and one of them is 11:11 mins long (had absolutely nothing to do with what I would ever watch). On Saturday I've seen car service car that has 1111 as last 4 digits. Today I get a spam call and I dont answer, my phone transcribes VM into text and it starts with "Hi my name is (insert TF name)..."

I'm very logical person but sometimes its just too many coincidences.

You're being directed (by yourself, God, the Universe, whatever you believe). This interaction with this person has caused an exchange of energy (just like any interaction with any person will, we've all got our own energy to express), and this exchange has opened up things for you to look at. You have associated thoughts with this person and you experience deep feelings. It will continue until you begin to look at how YOU feel, and what YOU experience, separate from the other person.

Meaning, when you see for example 1111, and you connect all these dots, up bubbles a feeling in you--maybe an aha! maybe a feeling of significance or nostalgia or despair, maybe a combination. Pay attention to where in your body it is, first (because it's easiest) and reflect & explore. When, prior to this person, have you felt that (good/bad/nostalgic) feeling before.

This is based on a few theories. The theory of the twin flame concept, where the other person is the other half of your "soul," somewhat aligns with the concept of karma/dharma. The bigger theory is, we're all apart of the same original "soul," but for the purpose of giving you some direction, I'll stick to the two energies--yours and hers. In this theory, reincarnation exists; you've both reincarnated and were meant to meet for karmic lessons.

Most of the people that you meet, that you remember, or who have a powerful effect on you, you have also met these people for karmic reasons. Your energy attracts and repels certain people, the energy you emit comes from whatever balance or imbalance you've got, based on your life experiences etc.. it's simple, yet it's complicated. You came into the world with the balances and imbalances of your parents, and they created patterns for you. Etc etc.. anyway, you meet people who penetrate into your energy, you meet people where you penetrate into theirs.

Anyway the twin flame idea+reincarnation/karmic debt concept, most articles are about the mystical spiritual aspect or (in my opinion)all this dramatic mumbo jumbo.. These people tear off the bandaid, so to speak, allowing you to see and feel everything you need to evolve. You might do the same for them (probably you do) you might not. Maybe you did it already in a past life.

Another theory that supports this is Saturn, and if you want to use astrology for answers, check out your Saturn placements and aspects, and check out Saturn in your synastry with hers. This may support an explanation as to why you keep getting "signs" (and why you keep asking..) and also why you keep seeing patterns (noticing the alignment of numbers etc.. it happens all the time and randomly and often--but we never notice, until we do). Patterns of Saturn are simple: Lessons will be repeated until learned. You'll keep having memories, random thoughts, mood shifts, etc.. maybe all the time they are associated with this person but if you simply sit with them and reflect instead of fighting them or searching outside for answers, you will begin to see that you had these feeling before, long time ago, for other reasons, or a combination of things.

Another theory that supports this is (a little bit) the concept of a subconscious in western psychology. You are seeing signs because subconsciously you want to. You are seeing numbers align and you are noticing these things with a frequency because subconsciously you want to. Deep down, the energy is trying to move. Energy cannot be created or destroyed, only exchanged. This energy was always there, these lessons were waiting for you, you were only not aware until your exchange with this person.

I've experienced this and spoken with lots of others who have experienced this, all have a similar progression and theme.

After about 6 years, as of very recently, I've finally come to a place where I've more or less rooted out all the aforementioned bullsh*t that comes with the aftermath... I'm not entirely finished yet..but I have spent more time, effort, etc.. done more than I'd ever admit, to work on myself and look as deep as I could and explore everything, inwardly, to try and figure it out and heal.

It occurs to me it's almost been 7 years. In physics, you are physically completely replenished every 7 years. That is, nothing on your body remains every 7 years from the previous. No 7 year old cell remains on your 14 year old body and so on. (So if you work on yourself for 7 years, you really can more or less be brand new).

I am wondering now if, in the 7th year, this will wrap up. I am also wondering if others with this TF thing have resolved anything in 7 years (or 14....or 21...).

Hope something in all of this helped or resonated in some way.

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