Oh, Lordy.

I just have to express things...

I just spent the most amazing evening with my Cancer friend from the land down under. It was so great. I haven't had such a good time in years, and I truly mean that. I'd forgotten completely what it's like to be "out" with a nice guy. I know he's going to only be here for a short while, but I'm already definitely feeling things, and we're supposed to be only friends really. And I can't be entirely sure, but I honestly think he's definitely feeling things too...He was just so sweet to me, he even sang me songs and played his guitar for me (and holy crap, it was unbelievably good, and I'm not just saying that because he's my friend!!) And I was the only other one in the room. Oh my gosh, I haven't felt like this in a long time. I know I should ignore it, I know he's going back, I know it's not smart to get smitten over a guy who's only going to leave...but it's happening. We talked and talked, he showed me how to do different things on the guitar, we saw a movie (with another couple), played a card game (also with the other couple)...and it was really strange, because the movie he asked me to see was the same exact movie I was going to ask him if he wanted to see. And he called at the same time I was going to call him. He's so tall, and he has the darkest brown eyes you've ever seen, and the most perfect beard and the blackest hair and the most chocolatey-tanned skin...and he's funny, and he's smart, and he's very chivalrous and wouldn't let me pay for anything even though I kept trying to, and he can sing (and he doesn't think he can, but oh my god, he can, and it's gorgeous). And it was really weird, at the very end of the night he took me home, and we're standing there saying our goodbyes (we're gonna see each other again though, before he leaves), and he picked me up completely off the ground and hugged me, and out of nowhere, completely on a whim, I kissed him. It just happened. Just a little kiss, on the lips, very innocent. But I hadn't planned that at all, it suprised the hell out of both of us. It was nice though. And earlier in the evening, we were walking somewhere and out of nowhere suddenly we're holding hands. It just felt nice being with him, and I haven't even felt interested in any guys in my day to day life in a long time, not since my ex. We were both pretty nervous for the first hour or so we were together, but then we got pretty relaxed (entirely relaxed, by the end of the evening). Remember, I haven't even seen him for 7 or 8 years! I just can't believe it...I guess once you've felt a spark with someone, time doesn't diminish it, it can always re-ignite. I feel so good right now, and it seems like forever since I've felt good about a guy. (But he's leaving, I know.)

He makes me want to write poetry and sing songs to him, and not be self-concious...you know, if he lived here, I could easily fall in love with him. The song he sang to me was called something like, "Hope You Feel The Same". I really don't think it was about me, but he did say something that made me have hope for a minute...at the end he's like, "now you have to write a song for me". (But I still don't think the song was about me, it was too good, it was too personal...it was probably about that girl he semi-sorta "sees" back home). His dad and I got along famously and his dad sang and played me all kinds of Beatles songs for a long time! Then when he went to bed, that's when my friend played me the song he wrote. It was so amazing...sounded like all minor chords and would go from very slow, soft, to hardcore rock the house then back again. I've never heard anything so awesome...Partway through the evening, while his dad was playing me a Beatles song, my friend comes up behind me and goes, "look what I found"...and it was a Valentine's Day card I'd given him back in 1998! He saved it.

He wants me to take him shopping and whatnot at some point...It's so

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I forgot to mention that the first thing he said when he called me was "I have a proposition for you" and I said, "what?" and he said "I need you to be my date" (because this other couple was going to see a movie and yada yada)...and we're laughing and he said, "so would you be my date?" and I said, "sure, that'll be fun". Somewhere in the back of my mind, I wonder if it wasn't planned that I really *would* be his date, for real...that could just be wishful thinking, but it was just too perfect...everything was so perfect. I'll remember this night forever.

Perhaps this is your chance, sometimes things come along only once in your life and you need to grab on with both hands and hold on tight, where you will end up may astonish you the most.

You are definetely smitten girl!!!!! I am so glad you had a fabulous time. So what about coming to the land of OZ—?? You shoud do it ad see how he is on his ow turf...and then maybe...da da da dum...da da da dum....

That is so neat to have this happen for you, and it sounds like you deserve something really good for a change. If it is real, for both of you, he already knows, and if not, that too. Sometimes you need to go out on a limb and follow your heart. Ask him how he feels, I mean really, is not honesty important in relationships? What you may have is truly a once in a life time opportunity. Find out where his head is at. Listen carefully, even though you are trying to follow your hearts needs, sometimes, a physical need can be so strong as to be erroneously labeled as something else. Dont be bummed, be happy, what you enjoyed with him so far is really great, how many dont even have that—

Everyone, I really appreciate the sweetly encouraging comments. Every single one of your comments has inspired me. By the way, "Polaris" is a really cool screen name!

I have been looking up the cost of flights to Oz (love that you all call it that!) and about the cheapest it's going to get for a return ticket, no hotel etc (he mentioned that I could stay with him and his roomates, if I ever came there) is about $ 1,500...and I think I'm going to start saving. If he can make it here, I can make it there, right? I've never travelled alone before though, so that whole thing is a bit scary...and I'm a fearful flyer, so that whole 22-hour flight thing is also scary. But depending on how enthusiastic he is about the possibility of my visiting, I will gather the courage to do it. It'll probably take me quite a while to save that much money. But some things are worth it. I'm going to run the whole idea by him once more before he leaves, just in case he forgot that he brought it up.

He's all I've been able to think about for the longest time now...I think he's busy with all kinds of family visiting etc right now because he didn't call me yesterday or today, but tomorrow I'm going to ring him up and see if he feels like getting together again. This time it'll be my place....

It's so weird, I didn't expect this to happen really. We've been keeping in touch via email for probably a bit over a year now (and of course we knew each other years ago, in high school) and so I knew I thought he was sweet, but it's like a whole different thing being around him in person, he's not just a sweet guy, he's this funny and intelligent and charismatic and talented, enigmatic type of guy. And even though he's used to places like Sydney and the Australian culture and music scene and all that, he's completely humble and still he loves this smallish town that he used to live in here in the states. I love that his band's success and the girls that fawn all over him there haven't changed him into this big-headed jerk...it takes a special kind of person to remain humble, even self-deprecating, through all of that. I love that he's really honest, and doesn't act all big-time (even though his band is doing really well and has gotten good reviews from well-known Australian music critics), I love that he hasn't forgotten things about us from years ago, I love that he opened doors for me and pulled out chairs and all of that, and that he was able to open up enough to me that he could sing me a song that I could tell he wasn't super-confident about (until he started singing it, then he really belted it out), I love that he asked me if I was thirsty and got me a little cup of water at his house. Little tiny things like that...And I love that he's not so nice of a guy that it's sickening, he's a real person.

Thanks so much you all, I'm happy to have your support, it's awesome.

I'm so lucky to know him, whatever happens I hope we're still at least great friends when we're both eighty-five years old.

Yes, I will definitely be going to Australia. I'm gonna do it.

I forgot to mention, he loved the gifts I gave to him...I got him some Beatles albums that he didn't have, and two different rocks engraved with "friend" and "imagine". 😛 He gave me his band's two EPs. (Which I accidentally left at his house...woops...lol)

Well, here is a thought for you. Dont know what your job situation is, but, check out the available jobs over there. A while back I met a guy who has gone oversea, 3 places, for free, just because he had interviews. I am not that lucky, and maybe your not, but, it is worth a shot. Check out expedia.com and priceline.com or some such. Not to mention,there is always some kind of special going on. Check in your local yellow pages for travel agents, find a couple and tell them what you want to do, let them do all the calling and checking to see who can get the best deal. Give them all the info, where you are going, how long, etc. What ever it costs just by you calling and getting prices, trust me, travel agents can get it at least 30 to 55 % cheaper. What will it cost you to make a couple calls to them? Hey if this thing is right for you, whatever the reason, things will work out.

Well, here is a thought for you. Dont know what your job situation is, but, check out the available jobs over there. A while back I met a guy who has gone oversea, 3 places, for free, just because he had interviews. I am not that lucky, and maybe your not, but, it is worth a shot. Check out expedia.com and priceline.com or some such. Not to mention,there is always some kind of special going on. Check in your local yellow pages for travel agents, find a couple and tell them what you want to do, let them do all the calling and checking to see who can get the best deal. Give them all the info, where you are going, how long, etc. What ever it costs just by you calling and getting prices, trust me, travel agents can get it at least 30 to 55 % cheaper. What will it cost you to make a couple calls to them? Hey if this thing is right for you, whatever the reason, things will work out.

What the clank is the deal with the double messages? What in flying does a person got to do for things to work properly? That is like, 3 or 4 times this has happened!

What is the name of his band—?? Also, check out the cost of round the world tickets..sometimes they work out cheaper b/c you don't need domestic airfares on top of the international flights.

My heart goes out to you. You truly deserve to know exactly what to expect if you make this trip. You write so amazingly clear, it is if I had listened to you in person, and seen the tears in your eyes. As a friend, were I to be near you during this conversation, in person, it would break my heart. I believe he knows what you are feeling, and you owe it to yourself to come right out and ask him if there is a future. No one has the right to screw with your heart. If this is a mutual thing, he will tell you so, but, look hard to see the truth, even if it hurts. Dang it girl, you should have Lawgodess check him out for you, it would be a shame to see your heart broke, and I think she would if she could !!!If your asking him to be open and honest would screw things up for you, then you arnt losing anything worth anything to start with, . . .know what I mean? What the heck, promise him anything no matter what, as long as he is honest when you ask him a question or two, . .what can that hurt? If that fine line between love and hate pops up, you will know which way to go. You have better than average intelligence, and maybe the truth might hurt, but, you end up winning the battle one way or the other!

Try priceline.com or www.cheaptickets.com Saw them on TV and they said they beat all the competition!!!Good Luck!