My moon in Sagittarius in the 1st house can be so changeable all the time

One moment i want to kill someone or myself i become this big explosion as i can't control my emotions i go from super optimistic to extremely pessimistic in one second and i don't know how i used to be so calm and collected be careless not give a fck about anything ....

Moon In 1st House: Negative Traits

The people with moon in the first house begin to feel depressed or cut off from the world when they can’t truly tell people what’s going on inside their mind. But it can take a while for some to adjust to your intense moods, for you never take anything lightly. Because you tend to be on the sensitive side, you also take things more personally.

While some may be trying to help, you often take it as an affront to the way you like to do things. When this happens, you let your emotions take over and your logical reasoning falls behind.

Be careful not to let your heart rule everything completely, or else you run the risk of never being taken seriously again. If you continue to be this sensitive to everything people say, you will never be able to grow and mature emotionally.

You’re not very good at letting people control you, and that’s a good impulse to have. But don’t automatically dismiss the opinions or feelings of others because they don’t match your own. Learn to listen, as you want to be heard, and take in the scope of what they are saying and feeling.

It will open your mind and your heart up to new people and new experiences, and help you to mature as an individual. Try not to get upset or react so quickly as to misjudge another person’s feelings. Do unto others as you would have done to you.