Ex step children

My ex and I of a year and a half split. We lived together nearly a year and his 2 children stayed every 2nd weekend and half the school holidays. Both children a 13 year old boy and 10 year old girl and I loved each other. At times my boy would slip and call me mum and they always always cuddled me. I got the feeling their mother isn't very affectionate and I know he never cuddled into anyone except his dad and me and my own daughters (his sister annoyingly said to him, you never cuddle mum like that, one day when they were here for 3 weeks)...he never openly did it, but always kind of play fought until we just grabbed him and cuddled him laughing and saying you just want cuddles and then he would happily stay in my arms while watching TV...

Anyway, we split 6 months ago and I have nothing to do with my ex...mutually, but I have this huge emptiness and find myself quite upset because he never allowed me to even say goodbye to them...I haven't tried contacting them at all because I've felt it would be too messy. Their parents having split and both moving on and he has moved on again...I don't know how they feel but know they would miss me too I'm sure.

I plan to send them a birthday text each when their birthdays come around, just so they know I have never forgotten them...

It's just so hard having to never have anything to do with them again...last night I dreamed of my little girl and it's the second time and this has upset me today.

I hope one day they might reach out when they get older.

I have bern through this before and as you've suggested it isn't easy. Keep sending you love and energy through prayer and hopefully one day you'll be reunited

Thanks

This guy friend of mine he wants to take things further, however, I'm not interested. He has a young son 5 years old and does the usual always playing on an ipad or iphone when he can. The other day while sitting on dads knee next to me, he's swinging his leg and rubbing it on my foot, just touching me in an affectionate way....scared me...very reluctant to get involved with someone else's children now. Maybe I'm just desperately missing my own..bringing my baby girl home after 8 months next week 🙂

So today my ex step daughter reached out to me. We use to play words with friends from our mobiles and she requested another game. So crazy, made me soooo happy. I know it's just her little way because she misses me and it brings tears to my eyes, both happy and sad.

Another friend put up on FB last night how when a relationship breaks down how much it effects family and friends and how they get hurt too. Sad but true!