I fell in love with a Capricorn woman back in 2012, when I was having a hard time. I had a very abusive family at that point and it was great to have her around. It really eased that pain. There was an instant connection between us. We became good friends and had a good relationship. She did lots of great things for me and grew to trust me. Sometimes I felt like she was testing me. But it felt good. I never told her that I fell for her in all that time because I didn't want her to get pulled into an abusive family. I got out of that abusive family with my father and brothers, and we're doing well. She helped me gain the strength for that. She even offered to let me stay in a house she was planning to get. Eventually she got into a relationship with a Virgo guy, and all seems well. I was really glad for her, but I must admit I was jealous. Through my life experiences though, I learnt that even if I love her, I need to let her be free and decide her own life. Very recently, I told her everything I felt and why I only told her now. I couldn't keep it in. She told me that it wouldn't have been any harder for her, as she makes her own life. I even got a scolding for thinking I thought I would be the only provider, and she was right. She says she's glad as well that I didn't tell her back then, because she wouldn't have wanted it to affect the friendship. She says she knows I am strong. She also said that she's sorry that she can't return those feelings, because of her relationship and that she's sorry if she's hurt me. She says that I'm still a good friend and that she will always be there for me. The main point of my post though is that I don't know what to do. Being a Taurus, I don't know when to give up, and I'm afraid of my own feelings going out of control. That I won't be able to stop chasing her. I know she still wants me around but I love her so intensely and I don't want to get in her way of happiness. I don't know if I should just go my own way to spare her my stubborness, or stay and try to control my love for her. I know what my heart says, but I don't want to be blinded by it.
I've met her a year ago (almost 2), we were acquaintances, we hangout with a bunch of friends. But slowly, we got to know more about each other. We share similar talks, interest, and values. Eventually we went out alone, alot. more than 10 times, it becom
So, I've been FWB with this Cap girl for almost a year now. Until yesterday she has been cool with just using each other for sex. We have designated Monday, Wed, Fri as our fuck days. Yesterday, she tells me she wants more than just sex from me. I told he
I never told her that I fell for her in all that time because I didn't want her to get pulled into an abusive family. I got out of that abusive family with my father and brothers, and we're doing well. She helped me gain the strength for that. She even offered to let me stay in a house she was planning to get.
Eventually she got into a relationship with a Virgo guy, and all seems well. I was really glad for her, but I must admit I was jealous. Through my life experiences though, I learnt that even if I love her, I need to let her be free and decide her own life.
Very recently, I told her everything I felt and why I only told her now. I couldn't keep it in. She told me that it wouldn't have been any harder for her, as she makes her own life. I even got a scolding for thinking I thought I would be the only provider, and she was right. She says she's glad as well that I didn't tell her back then, because she wouldn't have wanted it to affect the friendship. She says she knows I am strong. She also said that she's sorry that she can't return those feelings, because of her relationship and that she's sorry if she's hurt me. She says that I'm still a good friend and that she will always be there for me.
The main point of my post though is that I don't know what to do. Being a Taurus, I don't know when to give up, and I'm afraid of my own feelings going out of control. That I won't be able to stop chasing her. I know she still wants me around but I love her so intensely and I don't want to get in her way of happiness. I don't know if I should just go my own way to spare her my stubborness, or stay and try to control my love for her. I know what my heart says, but I don't want to be blinded by it.