I like this girl who is in an open relationship with a long time boyfriend. The love is mutual between us. But I just can't fully submerge and give myself fully to her because the back of my mind is reminding me how useless this is. That this is going no where. There's no future. I want to love this girl with all my heart but mentally I can't imagine what she's doing with her partner. I don't want to think she's just using me to go through a rough patch. I only date people exclusively but my heart is kind of stuck on her, yet mentally on major brakes and confusion.
