AbbyNormal

Girl, all you can do is apologize and try to explain yourself. You don’t have to do this more than once for an understanding person. If he doesn’t get it, he doesn’t get it. Not everyone has experienced that kind of grief so they wouldn’t understand where you’re coming from. Best thing for you to do is accept your feelings as they come and forgive yourself for any poor behavior. It’s to be expected though when experiencing all that lost. Everyone grieves differently and you have to give yourself time to collect yourself.

A relationship is probably not the best thing at this time anyway. Sure it’s a good distraction, but it can also distract you from doing the healing you are needing. This is a huge transition in your life so try to stay grounded. Counseling is great and I think that’s the best thing you can do for yourself at this time. Be sure that you are able to say your goodbyes to those who have passed on, but also do what you need to to stay connected to them. They are still with you, you just have a different relationship with them now—more in spirit and in memories.

You are going to be okay. If this dudes worth anything, he will understand. If he doesn’t, he doesn’t need to be a part of your life right now. You need a lot of understanding and acceptance right now, so make sure you are seeking it in the right people. I’m so sorry for your loss. Just know eventually it will get easier but you will have to give it time and put in the work to get past it. It’s okay to not be okay sometimes, if there were any time like that it’s now.

Just realize you only have control over one thing in this life and that is yourself. Do what you can to reconnect with yourself and your soul right now and that can help you to control any unnecessary outbursts. butter happens though so forgive yourself for these small past ones and move on from them. Tomorrow is another day and one day at a time it gets better. Your support group, your family, friends and counselor, will be your saving grace right now so do what you can to strengthen the good relationships you still have here with you. Best wishes, dear.

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