Does my Scorpio want me back?!!! or is playing mind games

So I broke up with my ex scorpio 4 months ago because he was being very secretive,sneaky and I saw messages confirming these things. I also felt lost and under his spell because although I held more responsibility financially, he still wanted to be ever so controlling which urked my ever last nerve! He also stopped showing me the love he once showered me with. I felt his distance emotionally and felt so alone the last bit of the relationship so I had to end it to get me back and the love for self and confidence I lost along the way.

Anyways, we were together for 8+ years and was it a rollercoaster! ( I'm a aqaurian female btw). Was the love real yes because we fought hard to make it work as our differences didn't deter us from loving one another. But after the break up my heart still belonged to him. I mean i was loyal in and out, he was my forever.. I just needed more from him ( affection, support, commitment) but he didn't show he even cared. He would say it but his actions didn't back it. I ended up breaking no contact not even a month in to talk to him but he acted as if he was getting ready to leave the house and had to think so he would call later.

Well guess what? he never did so i pretty much took it as a "leave me alone". So I never thought to contact him again. I didn't believe honestly that i would ever hear from him again so I i tried to move completely on leaving him and our history in the past. When i say I struggled, i wasn't eating, i was so depressed for 2 months straight.

Soon as the 3rd month came I started coming back around to my self and started accepting what was and now what is but out the blue he calls...... What!?-__- .. Not only did this catch me off guard but he was expressing his love and how it affected him. During that call i just listened and we ended on a good note. I figured that was just him wanting to express his self and did'nt allow myself to think any deeper until he contacted me two days after that to do it again, but this time i expressed my self to him as well and you clearly could tell we both still love each other and we both played our parts in the downward spiral of the relationship

Heres where it gets tricky, he initiated those conversations so i decided a few days later to contact him to just talk and now he's done a 180 on me.. He's now more calm and reserved, not really showing any further emotion or notion that he was interested in reconciliation as the first to converstions and he made a statement of " If I was to entertain this ever again..." — like this is not the same cat I was talking too.. What is he doing? Its like he pulled me back in and now wants me in a way to beg him back? I'M NOT DOING THAT! Yes, i love him but there is no way in hell im begging him back. I had right to leave because I was not okay at that point and i needed my space to regain focus in my career and me as a woman independently.

I don't have a problem entertaining a reconciliation because our whole relationship wasn't bad its just we got so stubborn in our ways that WE BOTH lacked the simple and important things we both needed from one another.. But I need someone to tell me im not crazy, but I feel like he's being manipulative.. Does he want me back or is this a mind game to hurt me back. What is he doing?!!

Post this under Scorpio Hun, I'm sure you'll get more help there x