My Gem Guy

is amazing. Didn’t put this in gem forum because it’s mostly just relationship stuff. I’ve posted a few times about my current gem boyfriend that’s nearly 20 years older than me. He’s still as amazing as he was the first week! Truly. But I think due to other relationships from my past, I’m feeling really nervous. My feelings are more invested than they’ve ever been and it’s making me feel too vulnerable. I was in a bad relationship with a true narcissist that cost me my job, apartment, and for a long time... my sanity. I’m hyper vigilant now. I don’t mean to be and my boyfriend has never lied to me (from what I’ve checked) and is consistent. Has anyone been in precious abusive relationships and was able to “unlearn” your paranoid behavior? Not asking for a friend... lol.

Posted by halalbae

Sounds like youre still hanging yourself from a perspective of misdeeds. That lower vibrating energy is heavy and puts stress on you. Reclaim your autonomy and just always take full ownership of your feelings, dont go pushing buttons for a reaction

And when you inevitably hit a rough patch, it doesnt make the relationship any less good

Yeah that vibration is VERY heavy. I’m really big on keeping a high vibration, especially knowing all the good it brings me. It might even be self-sabotage in disguise because I’ll come up with some really crazy ideas and days later I even wonder wtf I was thinking... I feel like I need some energy healing.