in 7th house conjunction Pluto (I KNOW! 😢) move on from a relationship, and break connections with someone that they love SO SO SO much, but knowing that it's easier for them to just end it.
i'm ready to explode, not right now, but every moment, every day. it's literally painful and so not healthy for me to be like this, but i can't help it. i'm obsessed with him, and can't think of my life without him. but i know i need to be strong and end it without any friction. help me guys! 😢
it's just he needs his space. and the thing is, we usually spend like a few hours a day with each other, cus we're so busy with uni and other stuff. but sometimes i get the impression that he's not making the effort to be with me. like we're on the phone, and he says "baby, i have uni tomorrow, i need to sleep", ok fair enough, but sometimes it'd be nice to just spend all night talking to him. or when we're online, he has this excuse that his mom will take his modem if she catches him. ok, i understand that, but there's always that feeling that he's trying to avoid me. and i love him so much, to the point where i would die for him. but i'm not having any of that love back. not to that extent anyway, but that's ok. still, there's just this feeling that curdles inside of me, and i hate it.
he cheated on me once, and we're moving on from that, but i'm having the hardest time to forgive and forget. there's so much resentment inside of me, when all i want is to be happy with him.
and i know i need to end it. easier said than done.
i'm 20. at this point, i don't think they'll ever be a time when i move on. even if he leaves me, i'll still be in the same position i am now. and you're right, we feel like soulmates. with his friends he is COMPLETELY different to how he is with me, and that makes me feel special. even he knows that he's more himself around me than any other person he's been with.
and it's stuff like that, that makes me NOT want to move on, because we seem so perfect for each other. sometimes i'm in anger and jealousy and i'm practically evil, when i think about him cheating on me. but there's other times when im optimistic and hoping that this is a fresh new start. it's like a cycle, endless one at that. i say things that hurt him to the core, but he puts up with it. but he hurts me subtley, without words or actions, just his attitude.
right now, i'm ging into a state of just not caring about it at the moment. but then i'll become this moody, intense character, that emphasises every little aspect as a flaw. you know, i was pretty chuffed having Venus in Scorpio, made me feel powerful i guess. right now, i detest it.
and the urge to just text him saying how i feel is right in front of me. i usually do, but he rarely replies. this makes me think is he not bothered, or what? it seems like only i'm feeling this soulmate thing, and to him i'm just another ordinary girl.
unreal - I understand where you're coming from. I feel TOTALLY obsessed with my Pisces guy, like when Im with him, there's nothing else I could give a eff about. He's truly my everything. Maybe I just want more than there's been provided, and need to make do with what I have. I'm starting to apreciate him more and more each day. I mean other guys could be loud and boastful, and just all macho, and vice versa. He's just perfect, he completely understand me, knows when I'm down, and is always there for me. I think because he's so wonderful to me, I keep wanting more of that, until he "fits the image" that Venus in Scorpio people dream up of their partners. I couldn't deal with just being his friend, he's way too special to be only that. And I know Pisces guys have this issue wth "woo-ing" women, and then leaving them cold-heartedly, but I kno he wuldn't ever do anything of the sort to me. Im not trying to sound big-headed, but there's just this feeling that he will be with me forever, unless I don't want to.
I'm going to try to turn this relationship into its positive best, because it's rare for people to come across a love of their lives.
kennyg - no, you won't die, unless you experience the "death of the heart" aspect of VinS, then you will feel as if there's this inner torture forever inside of you. But I promise you'll come out stronger than ever.
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i'm ready to explode, not right now, but every moment, every day. it's literally painful and so not healthy for me to be like this, but i can't help it. i'm obsessed with him, and can't think of my life without him. but i know i need to be strong and end it without any friction. help me guys! 😢