Insatiable

Fellow Scorps..

Ever get the feeling nothing will be good enough for you?. I am just never satisfied with the choices I make..I am forever restless. I have an extremely low attention span, get bored soooooooooooo easily. Always want to try something new, cannot just settle and improve but rather throw myself in at the deep end, struggle and survive and then move on to something new...

I wish it wasn't like this..I wish sometimes I could just be happy with what I have..eliminate this grass is greener attitude..

I am insatiable, frustrated and restless...

Anybody out there who feels the same?

MM..I know that feeling well. I feel as if nothing is 'quite right'. I could/should be able to do better, faster, etc. etc. So I too get frustrated and bored easily. I wish I could say it's this or that which affects me that way, but it seems as if it's EVERYTHING!!! I wish I could 'settle' with the way things are, be content and move on, but then it seems as if I have to analyze the entire situation as well!! GRRRRRRRR!!!

Attention span— Very little!!! I seem to have a hard time staying focused!! And PLEASE lets not even talk about having to put something together!!! If it weren't for friends, I would have lots of half-put together stuff thrown in corners!! LOL!!!

Lol @ JD & Candlz

I want to scream...I think of something, adamant I love it..and want to go for it 100% but then I start analyzing it and talk myself out of it. Then I regret backing out..so the cycle continues...AAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH

I can't handle it anymore..what can we do..come on..together we should be able to come up with a plan...(yeah like I am going to stick to that!!!)

I feel as though I have a higher purpose in life..Someone out there is relying on me to change the world..I can do everyday mundane tasks..I have to do something weird and crazy that makes a difference..

WAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah..(thats me wailing)

can't*

J😱 "You need a surfer who will look forward to be high one moment and low the next, float one second and dive the next, that is who you are"

I guess my Scorp boyfriend fits the description of the surfer..if theres anyone out there who understands me its him...aww its been a month since we re-united..

**smiles**

I guess I just have to be at peace with myself..but I haven't reached that state yet...My mind is still racing at breakneck speeds..its not going to accept who it is just yet..I wonder if putting my thoughts down on paper might help...

I really want an ancient looking book that I can start writing in...

Cap: "read it in a book "Celestine Prophecy" that humanbeings have started experiancing this very restless feeling,and there is a reason behind it."

You know sometimes I feel, human beings are feeling this way because they have lost belief in the almighty!...I don't practise religion or anything but I am deeply spiritual and love all things religious and unexplained..

I just want to be able to focus on one thing and completely master it..but I feel as though everything needs my attention. I want to dabble at everything..Like right now, I am studying law but all of a sudden Cognitive Psychology seems more appealing..

In relationships mostly I am settled..because whoever I do choose, I have taken the time and thought it through..Even then after a certain amount of time, boredom sets in..when it does, I cant make it work..regardless of how hard I try..

I think biggest issue is that I try and search for perfection in everything...and we all know, nothing is perfect. Even I know this but it doesn't stop me..

MM..I can identify with you so much in your feeling about starting something and then becoming bored with it. I get so gun-ho about something and then within a short period of time I tire of it. And then I get down on myself for starting it in the first place!! I may restart whatever it was at a later time only to kick myself for not following through and doing it the first time. And ditto your feelings about the everyday mundane tasks. I want to be like others who start something and take it across the finish line and be happy with the results and with my stick-to-it-ness!!!

I feel too, that there must be something grand that I have to do. But I wonder what that is and if I have the fortitude to 'stick with it'!!!!!

Archer: "but with practice and a lot of self-restraint, I do tend to finish the project I start..."

Yes I do too..but boy is it a hassle..and if you give me like a month to complete something, I will start it the week before deadline date..my mind seems to work best when under immense amount of stress..I suddenly get tunnel vision and adrenaline starts pumping and I get the job done..when I have time to do it..I am way too easily distracted...

Aye...we do!

Oh the trials and tribulations in the life of MM

**sigh**

When will it end Cap?

Archer: "the excitement of doing something new and then finishing that is only done when there is absolutely no way out !!!!!"

LMAO...Thats soooooooo true..its the adrenaline..Its like shit, I got no choice now!..Actually I have always cursed choice..I think choice brings problems..There should be no choice...

I think our parents and grandparents had it easy...they just got on with things..they didn't have any bloody choices...

Cap: "when will what end mm"

Just in general..when will this saga of being insatiable end!..Grrrrrrrr

Hahahahah @ "this is the only boy available in the family, take him or die a matron"..."

Great 😉

See how simple it is...

Archer dearest, I consider it a pain. I want to be focused. I want to be admired for accomplishing some grand scheme..People do say to me, for such a young girl (at 28—), you have accomplished so much, you should be pleased..to me it seems as though I have accomplished nothing..So the quest goes on...

I love this quote, its sooo me: "I'll stop procrastinating when I get around to it"..LOL

Cap: Choice causes confusion...What you don't know won't harm you. Sometimes knowing too much is a curse...It boggles the mind..makes it harder to make a decision.

Cap, your going all Plato on me!..lol

Cap: "But you are in a way saying Ignorance is bliss"

Well the person who thought of that quote, didn't just dream it up for no reason..lol..he obviously thought the same thing as me!..

I think it does all come down to love...or should I say fulfillment of the hearts desires..When it breathes a sigh of relief...that moment of elation...when everything seems to fit into place and life is great..and you think you can conquer the world..Must say that doesn't happen often but it did once..I was on a coach journey, listening to my ipod and looking out of the window..suddenly everything seemed fantastic..and I had a smile the size of China on my face..Why can't I feel like that more often..I hadn't even taken any drugs 😛

Cap, your going all Plato on me!..lol

Cap: "But you are in a way saying Ignorance is bliss"

Well the person who thought of that quote, didn't just dream it up for no reason..lol..he obviously thought the same thing as me!..

I think it does all come down to love...or should I say fulfillment of the hearts desires..When it breathes a sigh of relief...that moment of elation...when everything seems to fit into place and life is great..and you think you can conquer the world..Must say that doesn't happen often but it did once..I was on a coach journey, listening to my ipod and looking out of the window..suddenly everything seemed fantastic..and I had a smile the size of China on my face..Why can't I feel like that more often?..I hadn't even taken any drugs 😛

Ooops!

So far a Sagitarius, Cap, Scorpio and Gemini feel the same...so does that mean that all this astrology is nonsense? hmmmm..lol

Maybe I should go into the Research field...LOL...another bloody option!

LOL @ Archer...Yeah its Monday morning..the beginning of a new week..Body raring to go..but mind a bit bamboozled from the weekend..

Nice words EG.."The freedom isn't "out there" - Sounds like something out of the X-Files...do do dooooooooooooo do do do do..lol..sorry..that was a rather pathetic attempt at doing the theme tune..

The truth is out there..

Funny thing is, after I had this conversation with you guys this morning, I got so much accomplished at work today. Thought, right MM..help all those who need your help, don't be horrible to anyone just GET ON WITH IT...and boy I got a lot done..and it felt good..to be busy..I think thats the missing ingredient..being busy..the more time I have to think the worse it gets..Guess that proves the "throwing yourself in at the deep end" theory...

Cap: "these days more often than before..sometimes i start feeling love for everything around me,and that feels wonderful"

Thats because you are feeling 100% comfortable in your own skin..you are loving yourself!...way to go Cap!

high 5!

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