Just when I think Scorp was sleeping

I find out he had one eye slightly open the whole time....

I'm ready to break things off with my scorp. I contemplated for so long about it. I just couldnt handle the drama anymore. I finally got the courage to tell him & he came back with some things I've been shocked about. He basicaly got really territorial, as in I was something he owned, but not in a man pig kind of sense. It was so much deeper than that. It seems that the "break up" I thought would be cutting us apart from eachother sparked some kind of personality in him. He's been calling me non stop. He says to me that he will always know where I am & he still tells ppl he's not single & is very much in love.

What is the mindset here in this situation? I fig'd there was no better place to ask than a groups of scorps, haha. I'm a very understanding person so I've tried to get a grasp on his heart's intentions, but I have ears of an Aqua. A scorp's love doesnt translate well. It's like we speak 2 different languages. I have NO other scorps anywhere in my life to realte this behavior to.

Does he LOVE me? Scorps have a rep as being cut throat sadists, but my scorp has had a very possessive, obsessive nature & he acts like it's all in the name of Love.

We can go for so long without any meeting of the minds or emotional connection. I dont want a relationship of lust alone. It's lust to ME & love to HIM. Things get so quiet, I feel so distanced & when I start to break free, he gets very enraged & pulls me right back.

He's wanted to get married, but I'm afraid of what we would become. Of how things could be then if they are so rough now.

When I think of a picture of our signs, I see this huge scorpion with a stinger dripping with death on the tip ready to strike any enemy that tries to hurt me, but the direction it's pointed can be right at me also. He cradles me, but I fear him at the same time.

IS ANYONE RELATING TO THIS— Please dont tell me I'm alone. Do I sound selfish?

I'm just trying to UNDERSTAND him, his heart & his intentions. What is he thinking— How does he feel about me, really? What does this sound like??

PS

When I am around him, he follows me with his eyes. I had to say goodbye to him one afternoon because my cousin wanted me to help her with some wedding things. Her fiance stayed behind & later told me that my guy's eyes didnt stop until the car was gone from his sight.

Years ago when our relationship 1st began, I noticed there was a need to prove my loyalty. I was so in love with him, nothing else existed. It was proven more than once. (so I thought) It was as if we became ONE body, instead of 2 seperate identities. He had THAT kind of effect on me. These creepy traits seem to be a usual thing, like "normal" & I dont know what to do with these feelings once & for all.

We are a lot older now & his drama is getting the best of me. I never get that "break" to catch my breath & have that private time to collect myself, which Aquas are so known for. It translates to some kind of betrayal to his ears because in his eyes- WHy should I feel the need to pull away from him? When I am in another room & I'm getting that breather, he says I'm shutting him out & that I close myself off from him. I look at him like he's nuts because it's just to check my email, read, shop online, etc. Yes, "a little privacy" to an Aqua can translate to "leave me alone for a good solid 4 hours", but I'm not cheating on you if I'm looking at cookie recipes. Ok—

I feel that marriage would be a huge mistake also. Thank you for the feedback. I hope others come forward too.

Maybe I just see these things as explosions but I dont take the time to understand WHY he does these things. Of coarse if you love something you dont want to lose it, but he/I just go about things so differently.

When you said Scorps hate to fail, it gave a goosebump. I related so much to that. But at the same time, he can be his worst enemy. I've never understood that either.

Yes we are our own worst enemy..that statement is very true..

So how long have you been with this guy? Have you ever given him a reason to not trust you?

Wow..thats very well said EG..nice read.

OMG! I don't even see how our signs even get together. I'm not big on Aquarius and Scorpio relationships because I had a bad experience with one. So I am not gonna rain on your parade. I will say this though he sounds like he should relax a bit. Aquarius is definitely the sign of freedom and it sounds like from your part you are doing more than enough to keep his Scorpion possession and jealousy at bay. Maybe have a heart to heart talk with him. Maybe he watched the car leaving because you are his "woman" and he hated to see you go 🙂 I'm just giving him the benefit of the doubt here.

Marriage doesn't sound like it would be a good idea at ALL! But guess who is a good example of this relationship working? Ashton Kucher and Demi Moore. So it is possible...but I think it is going to be hard as hell!

Karima: "Maybe he watched the car leaving because you are his "woman" and he hated to see you go"

LOL..my scorp does this whenever I drop him off..stands there in the road until I am out of sight...aww..

I always have a tendency to blame myself. I guess because I know how easy it is for me to cut off ppl. But even all the times I made sure to not appear this way, he took it as so.

He just never takes his eyes off me. Always follows me. Here's just one example--- there was a dinner gathering at my dad's house. He is very close to the tiny bit of biological family that I have so he gets treated as good as they do. Anyways, of coarse there were times I got up, walked around, away from him, talked with others, etc.... his eyes followed me. It was as if he had to know who was talking to me every time. Even while he was mingling around ith seperate ppl. Is this a common trait?? Ppl talk about the eyes, stare & glare & I def know what that is but should I take offense to what I explained? What was he thinking while he was doing this??

How was he in the beginning? Did he always act like this towards you?

He is 9 years older than me. Aside from blaming myself, I blame our age difference. I use to think his overbearing ways had something to do with protecting me. ( ? ) I've been through a lot in my life.

I was almost 18 in the very beginning. We were inseperable. A constant pair. Partners in everything. It's the way he wanted things. He treated me like his Princess. I dont know when things soured, but we've been together for 13 years. He's wanted to get married for YEARS, but I never know what to do with that situation. I have a job that requires traveling 9 months out of the year, every year. When he is not with me, I insist he recharge his battery with his family in Australia.

I think this might be an issue with me because I'm afraid he's cheating on me when he leaves. No real warning signals, nothing specific thrown out there to scare me-- just how long we've been together. Is time a downfall? He's the one true thing I've had in my life. he's put up with so much from me, my life, my pain from things in the past unrelated to our relationship.

He's always referred to me as his wife, always wanted me right by his side.

When I express how I feel about the distance between us when we are literally so many miles apart, he tells me "baby, I've gotten so much out of my system by now."

And scorps-- what is it about the alcohol—? I've dealt with his addictions since our relationship 1st started. He's been in rehab many times & there are things I've carried that I dont want his own parents going through. He's not an angry alcoholic, he's a depressive alcoholic. He hates himself. Feels constant rejection from everything.

Just hit me over the head & tell me to stop being selfish..... I'm just so exhausted from this drama.

On the marriage area, I left out that I always said when I retired from this job I am at now that requires so much travel & a large portion of my time, that we would get married (Even I dont get an extensive personal life- let alone one to give him in a marriage) We used to fight so bad about his traveling with me. he comes from a good old fashioned Aussie background where if you dont work, you dont eat so we've always been stuck in a place that went against our teachings. BUT- he doesnt trust anyone so feels that he must travel with me.

We've been to some amazing places. I've been too exhausted to go out & dive into some sights around those areas, but the whole world was ours. It was such a happy time in MY life where our relationship was concerned because we could shut the whole world out & enjoy every fiber of eachother in complete privacy. I didnt have to share him with a soul. I was on Cloud 9.

My rising sign is Scorp so at times like above, I feel we can sting eachother. I caged him those days. I'm an aqua that does not need to speak to a single soul to feel complete. I'm very reserved. My guy claims he is, but those times only occur when he is depressed or sick. I know what it feels like to be caged. It seems that if I'm not caging him, he's caging me.

Where's the balance??!!

This doesnt seem too healthy from my perspective.

You never had time to be "Aqua-Free"..you've been with him like forever in aqua years. The age thing is a big thing...he's not getting any younger, although neither are you, but your kinda wasting each others time. Especially if you dont want to get married...I dont think you should either, with all these issues.

Be wary of him, he seems to be a bit stalker-ish...so I'd be very careful if you are to leave him.

Just my perspective.