
The ex Scorp and I have started occasionally texting back and forth. He has moved several hours away but asked to meet up "the next time he's in town", whenever that is. Haven't seen him in several years; should be interesting.


Posted by Andalusia
The ex Scorp and I have started occasionally texting back and forth. He has moved several hours away but asked to meet up "the next time he's in town", whenever that is. Haven't seen him in several years; should be interesting.


Posted by PeanutButterandEllyLOL 😆Posted by AndalusiaDon't forget to tell him you're 'engaged.' 😛
The ex Scorp and I have started occasionally texting back and forth. He has moved several hours away but asked to meet up "the next time he's in town", whenever that is. Haven't seen him in several years; should be interesting.
Take it easy, enjoy yourself and know you're smarter than him lol. 😄click to expand

Posted by PhoenixRisingGirl, you and me both.Posted by Andalusia
The ex Scorp and I have started occasionally texting back and forth. He has moved several hours away but asked to meet up "the next time he's in town", whenever that is. Haven't seen him in several years; should be interesting.
*get a pot of tea ready*
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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I somehow through these shitty past few years of relationships and non relationships have turned into a hot/cold Scorpio, the kind you read about on the boards. 😐
I love people and believe in the good of humanity. Until I date someone. Lol. Then all of the sudden everyone seems like trash haha.
The truth is, when thinking back, I'm not sure if I ever want a real relationship again. I invested everything I had both times I fell in love. Gave those men everything. They undervalued and neglected it at best or used it to purposefully betray and hurt me at worst.
Being caring, giving, having a open heart and being able to bring warmth, a smile and a little bit of magic to people's lives, these are the parts I love most about myself. These are the things I poured into those men. So much so I didn't have any left for my friends, family or coworkers because the men took and took and never offered to give. (Though I will say the first 3 of our 5 years the first ex scorp really did invest as well, checked out the last two.) after each fallout though it took time to be able to be myself even a little bit again.
I don't want to waste anymore of the favorite parts of myself on relationships that drain me then end up falling apart horribly and painfully. It actually makes me angry and nauseous now to think about. And I remember that feeling anytime I start to like someone. And then become a hot/cold Scorpio. :/

Posted by PhoenixRising
I want it all.


Posted by PeanutButterandEllyPosted by PhoenixRising
I can relate to this. I have told myself I'm just gonna f*ck and enjoy what's good about a relationship until I don't and then bounce. I never get that far though. Just my moon throwing a "why must I feeeeel?!" tantrum.
Once it calms down (usually an hour or two 😛) I begin to question what I need to do to find balance vs going to such extremes when in love if it happens again.
I want it all. Despite the difficulties I experience to get there.
"For me, giving up's way harder than trying..."
Yeah I've managed to find that actually recently. Which is nice and comfortable for me. I get some relationship benefits (not all, but enough to satisfy me currently), but I don't have responsibility to anyone, I wait on no one and I don't have to claim any labels. It's working till it doesn't and I'm content with it. I'm ready to bounce if it becomes too complicated. Which I almost think makes the other person more attentive lol.
I do think this is where my moon actually comes in handy too. My emotional recall is exact, and my teeth have finally come in lol. So any behavior that I find to be shady or mindfuckery I call out immediately and harshly. New guy is well aware, was actually shocked when I backed up one of my boundaries lol.
Deep down I want it all. At this point I really do doubt it's out here though. I've not yet met anyone capable of the emotional devotion I expect in return for what I offer.
Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Probably doesn't help I'm such an emotionally expressive person by nature and that tends to attract emotionally avoidant people that want me to fix them and pull emotions out of them....
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Posted by PeanutButterandEllyPosted by PhoenixRisingDepending on how and with what they're made of you should be fine. It takes longer to feel their effects though so I'd wait at least 40 min before eating more if you feel nothing at first.
I'm not feeling well and I'm waiting for weed cookies. I've only tried weed once, if you can consider a few puffs, no inhale "trying weed", so I'm a little anxious.
If I post a lot of nonsense...meh just roll with it.
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Posted by PeanutButterandEllyPosted by PhoenixRisingLOL. It's not quite like drinking. At worst you'll just jump between extremely introverted and then giggly/amused. There's a possibility you could get paranoid, happens sometimes, but the ex there to 'guide' you so to speak should nix that if he's an experienced user.Posted by PeanutButterandEllyPosted by PhoenixRisingDepending on how and with what they're made of you should be fine. It takes longer to feel their effects though so I'd wait at least 40 min before eating more if you feel nothing at first.
I'm not feeling well and I'm waiting for weed cookies. I've only tried weed once, if you can consider a few puffs, no inhale "trying weed", so I'm a little anxious.
If I post a lot of nonsense...meh just roll with it.
Enjoy yourself though. 😉
It's a good thing it's not brownies then. I'd eat half the batch.
I told me "dealer" (aka ex) to stay with me and take my phone away from me just in case I act stupid.
My cap sun Gemini moon friend gets HYPER introverted. It's like she concentrates so hard on each thought she can't speak lol.click to expand


Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Today Mercury goes retro...

Posted by PeanutButterandEllyPosted by PhoenixRisingFor me the phone goes off or on do not disturb.Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Today Mercury goes retro...
*send all calls to voicemail...debates the idea of blocking text messages...*
Though the new iOS personalized do not disturb for individual contacts is handy at times.click to expand



Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Lol @ the charming arrogance at the end tho. I can see that being a good conclusion to those types of conversations lol. A certain amount of comfort in someone else's certainty.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Idk why people always think the highs and lows are so cool. Mine are unfortunately played out noticeably because of my extroverted personality and I hate it. I notice more inhibited people especially dig it.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Also Ima slap the shit outta this sag merc.
While I dig the compulsive tendency to respond immediately, all my watery bits are so annoyed with the lack of poetry lol.
It reminds me of a super hot Leo I met over the summer. Heavy fire chart, all aries, Leo and sag. Very physically attractive and charismatic to boot but just came off so vapid and devoid any verbal foreplay I didn't even get enough of a lady boner to wanna kiss him. Did get some good whiskey and pancakes though.
My watery bits get lost by that physical and primal energy of fiery bits. Does not compute.


Posted by PhoenixRisingPosted by PeanutButterandElly
Also Ima slap the shit outta this sag merc.
While I dig the compulsive tendency to respond immediately, all my watery bits are so annoyed with the lack of poetry lol.
It reminds me of a super hot Leo I met over the summer. Heavy fire chart, all aries, Leo and sag. Very physically attractive and charismatic to boot but just came off so vapid and devoid any verbal foreplay I didn't even get enough of a lady boner to wanna kiss him. Did get some good whiskey and pancakes though.
My watery bits get lost by that physical and primal energy of fiery bits. Does not compute.
Lol @ lady boner.
Yeah, it's a bit lost on me too. I need the verbal connection.
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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Also trying to explain a panic attack and ptsd anxiety to someone who has neither is like trying to describe the sky to a blind person.

Posted by PeanutButterandEllyLol yep! Fire mercs seem to watch when I speak now that I think of it. The sag merc would just watch me carefully when I spoke like he was waiting for something different.Posted by aNEWdayThe Leo mercs I have dated were awful for me. Every time I made a sarcastic joke they always thought I was serious and really insulting them. I'd always be explaining jokes and they'd always think I was trying to attack them or something. Like no bro. I was just kidding. And they say Scorpio is sensitive.Posted by PhoenixRisingPosted by PeanutButterandElly
Also Ima slap the shit outta this sag merc.
While I dig the compulsive tendency to respond immediately, all my watery bits are so annoyed with the lack of poetry lol.
It reminds me of a super hot Leo I met over the summer. Heavy fire chart, all aries, Leo and sag. Very physically attractive and charismatic to boot but just came off so vapid and devoid any verbal foreplay I didn't even get enough of a lady boner to wanna kiss him. Did get some good whiskey and pancakes though.
My watery bits get lost by that physical and primal energy of fiery bits. Does not compute.
Lol @ lady boner.
Yeah, it's a bit lost on me too. I need the verbal connection.
Ugh! Scorpio sun sag merc male = the worst.
Mostly probably why things didn't work out lol
Also Leo merc is probably my least favorite. I feeels you regarding those fire placements.
At least the sag merc wasnt like that. But I can tell my wordplay was kinda lost on him sometimes lol.
It's hard to balance verbal and physical chemistry. And admittedly my mars and rising like toncayse trouble with my Scorpio bits. I can be tricky to deal with lolclick to expand


Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I was reflecting on my near year of singledom. Made a chart to count a tally of dates. They vary from month long dating down to first dates only. No one night stands or anything in the casual realm.
Toxic Assholes: 4
Losers/Cowards: 4
Seemingly Nice but not a good fit: 5 (3 men, 2 women)
Worthwhile People: 0 (though there's one under evaluation atm)


Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Also all the years on here I said that I never dealt with any ex pop ups during merc or venus retros I think is biting me in the ass.


Posted by PeanutButterandElly
You know you're the cancer moon of the family when you can vividly describe family memories that everyone else completely forgot about until you brought it up.







Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Having a water venus and air mars is quite often confusing for me.
Also is it morally questionable to be friends with someone just so you can hang out with their dog? Asking for a friend...

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Yeah the person is pretty cool actually. A little on the shy side so not terribly easy to get to know.
My *friend* went over to hang out and ended up the floor playing with the dog most of the night. In my friends defense, she's terrible at playing pool which was the main activity at the time. 😛


Posted by SecretIt used to be far higher in page count. However, a few users have since left us.
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Posted by Scorpio84been isolated/getting wrecked/overthinking the well being of fuckers that dont deserve it for around the same time too...
Im feeling the need to sting for first time since it's been more than 9 months in isolation and desperation
this pisces moon i have almost killed me emotionally under the challenge i had to go through
now to be patient for all the pain i absorbed i will let it backfire eventually.

Posted by -elle-Elle you read all the pages??Posted by Secret
222 unbelievable...![]()
....and no drama 😄
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Posted by SecretElle was around since the creation of this thread, and even prior to it. She was always a participant as well. 😄Posted by -elle-Elle you read all the pages??Posted by Secret
222 unbelievable...![]()
....and no drama 😄
That's what I was thinking too. Very strange... but I've noticed all threads started by TLS never have drama.click to expand

Posted by TheLadyScorpioAh! Yes Elle is on DXP's Hall Of Fame!Posted by SecretElle was around since the creation of this thread, and even prior to it. She was always a participant as well. 😄Posted by -elle-Elle you read all the pages??Posted by Secret
222 unbelievable...![]()
....and no drama 😄
That's what I was thinking too. Very strange... but I've noticed all threads started by TLS never have drama.
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Posted by PeanutButterandEllyThis sounds like a gorgeous pair of boots.
Bought three pairs of boots today for under $ 140. Including a pair of over the knee wine red suede. — Not sure if that counts as a victory but I'm claiming it as one...

Posted by -elle-Posted by Secret
222 unbelievable...![]()
....and no drama 😄
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Posted by Scorpio84Had a problem like this with a virgo , whilst giving her everything(spiritual)Posted by GetMistedPosted by Scorpio84If you are "thinking" about doing it.. you're probably not going to. And probably shouldn't anyways.
Sorry but today i think im going to finally sting a Sun Cancer Moon Virgo Rising Libra
GL
Im telling my bro Virgo everything after finding out how false she is and what else could even be behind her that
so i don't care what happens to me anymore, she was able to hurt my feelings enough with her words, agressive attitude
just cause she had probs with her job that can't talk about since it's work for government while making big drama on me
and after all that she still laughs on dinner like nothing ever happened between us. (i even lost appetite)
Will post the results after regardless...click to expand

Posted by PhoenixRisingLeave it to PR, to have the memory of an elephant but I prefer to believe there was minimal to no drama in here. After all, there is a lot of love shared within this mental asylum as well. 😆Posted by -elle-Posted by Secret
222 unbelievable...![]()
....and no drama 😄
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Please review pages 117-118, 131, 134 and *grab extra butta for dat popcorn*..136-138. There would be more, but a few pages went poof when Intrigued deleted.
How soon they forget....
MercinScorpMemory > all
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