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Oh and these are the times I wish I wasn't an internal feeler. How do I become more of a thinker?? Lol
Posted by PhoenixRising
@aNEWdayDo you ever shift in your feelings?
Not for a while now. I think it's more because I know that I'm not competent happy due to my job situation. I can't be available for love if I'm not stable, I think.
my moods have changed a lot though, especially in the last few weeks.
I was gonna respond, with a thoughtful reply too. Then you had to go and add "amuse me". Naw. I don't "dance" for anyone.
So I'm watching an Alien Marathon. I don't get the hype for this series or the appeal (back then) for Sigourney Weaver and her unattractive hair.
Can anyone believe I've never see ET?
*find a cozy spot on couch* I need snacks....
ET was great. Made me shed a tear.
There must be something in the water....
Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Smh.Damn. Scorpios.
As if it didn't take me long enough to figure out how to deal with one scorp ex I added a second one to the mix. Sigh. I have been a glutton for punishment.
Just when I thought I was done with my own kind too, the hot bartender I've been eying the last month turned up his flirtafions finally and low and behold he tells me he's a Scorpio. LOL.
*Elly goes back into introvert cave and hides out*
This is why I spent my entire birthday bonding with my friends instead of going out trolling for dates. 😆
Thought I'll admit, I couldn't have chosen two better Scorpios to teach me about my own failings and insecurities and the two that landed in my lap. However for future notice to the universe, I'm ready for some real shit instead of life lessons. No more mind games. No more hiding. No more conforming. Real life, loyal to the end, fire in our souls but peace in each other's arms, best friend who's crazy is compatible to mine and together we better each other, without all the codependent bullshit. Who I am attracted to and we bang. A lot.
Anything less than that and I'll keep spending birthdays with my delightful family and friends. Cause it's not in me to do the drama or the games anymore.
Yea I'm starting to realize scorp on scorp is more of a lesson than a long term thing. Its a megnet attraction, but something about it is.. unrequited maybe. Not fulfilling on all levels that you mentioned. I guess it works a for some, don't know if it ever will for me.
Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Smh.Damn. Scorpios.
As if it didn't take me long enough to figure out how to deal with one scorp ex I added a second one to the mix. Sigh. I have been a glutton for punishment.
Just when I thought I was done with my own kind too, the hot bartender I've been eying the last month turned up his flirtafions finally and low and behold he tells me he's a Scorpio. LOL.
*Elly goes back into introvert cave and hides out*
This is why I spent my entire birthday bonding with my friends instead of going out trolling for dates. 😆
Thought I'll admit, I couldn't have chosen two better Scorpios to teach me about my own failings and insecurities and the two that landed in my lap. However for future notice to the universe, I'm ready for some real shit instead of life lessons. No more mind games. No more hiding. No more conforming. Real life, loyal to the end, fire in our souls but peace in each other's arms, best friend who's crazy is compatible to mine and together we better each other, without all the codependent bullshit. Who I am attracted to and we bang. A lot.
Anything less than that and I'll keep spending birthdays with my delightful family and friends. Cause it's not in me to do the drama or the games anymore.
Yea I'm starting to realize scorp on scorp is more of a lesson than a long term thing.
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I sort of agree with this. Unless you are really ready to face all the things you dislike about yourself all close up and direct on a very consistent basis, its a challenging relationship to be in. "Challenging" shouldn't be the norm for any relationship.
I prefer my rebirth to occur without stretch marks.
Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Smh.Damn. Scorpios.
As if it didn't take me long enough to figure out how to deal with one scorp ex I added a second one to the mix. Sigh. I have been a glutton for punishment.
Just when I thought I was done with my own kind too, the hot bartender I've been eying the last month turned up his flirtafions finally and low and behold he tells me he's a Scorpio. LOL.
*Elly goes back into introvert cave and hides out*
This is why I spent my entire birthday bonding with my friends instead of going out trolling for dates. 😆
Thought I'll admit, I couldn't have chosen two better Scorpios to teach me about my own failings and insecurities and the two that landed in my lap. However for future notice to the universe, I'm ready for some real shit instead of life lessons. No more mind games. No more hiding. No more conforming. Real life, loyal to the end, fire in our souls but peace in each other's arms, best friend who's crazy is compatible to mine and together we better each other, without all the codependent bullshit. Who I am attracted to and we bang. A lot.
Anything less than that and I'll keep spending birthdays with my delightful family and friends. Cause it's not in me to do the drama or the games anymore.
Yea I'm starting to realize scorp on scorp is more of a lesson than a long term thing.
I sort of agree with this. Unless you are really ready to face all the things you dislike about yourself all close up and direct on a very consistent basis, its a challenging relationship to be in. "Challenging" shouldn't be the norm for any relationship.
I prefer my rebirth to occur without stretch marks.
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For me, I dealt with a scorp who 20% was just like me.. the other 80% was very different. Completely different scorps, but what is still there is that scorp energy.
That "challenge" would probably not have been there if we were both say 50 yrs old, but at our age it served to be a huge catalyst of growth.
I've rebirthed enough for this lifetime. Ready for season 2 of my life.
I'm gonna try my hand at making a tufted headboard and bedframe. I'm redecorating and I haven't found one I like. Either the colour is off or the style isn't quite right. Problem is once I see something I want and already picture what it should look like in my mind's eye, it must be, so shopping for one has been disappointing. Took me 3 years to find the right coffee table...
I could ask a friend to do it, but let's see if I can do it myself. I'll need to do some research and ask a few questions before I start, but I'm very excited 😄. I love creating things with my hands.
I should make a pot of tea as I anticipate a lot of frustration.
✨ Make A(n Extreme) DXP Wish..✨
#1 The Wizard places a 300 day ban on anyone that creates a thread that has absolutely nothing to do with the board it's posted on.
#2 If you post more than one thread on the exact same topic or about the same person, all of your threads just disappear from DXP history. Post again, you disappear.
#3 If you post on a thread asking Scorp Suns for advice and you start your post with "I have a Scorp moon, Jupiter, Asc, etc and don't have a Scorp Sun you then become the spokes person for all Scorps and all of Stilh's threads get directed to your inbox. You can't turn it off.
#4 Thirst whore threads automatically get sent to the "Jokes" forum.
#5 If you're a Cap male you can only send messages directly to Elle.
#6 If you're a Gemini female you only have knowledge of 11 zodiac signs. "Scorpio what?.."
#7 If you have unresolved issues/baggage related to Scorps, when you post about it on the boards it also magically ends up in the inbox of the Scorp you're discussing.
Now if my heart could catch up to my head.
My feeling exactly.
I realize this is the universe testing. It's like a test as a final push out. My emotions have been getting the best of me the last couple weeks.
*mini break* I cant find Foxy's fashion thread and...well I'm going to make another one, so....
back to it...
nobody bother me, i'm recuperating
Why do I fall in love with men-children?
Why do I fall in love with ........?
Why do I fall in love?
Why do I fall in love with man?
Why do I .... .. love .... children?
Why do I fall?
Why do I .... .. love?
Why do I?
Why?
Wtf.
Wtf indeed.
Why the fuck not.
Jesus.
"We never lose our demons. We only learn to rise above them..."
Decent movie btw.
I'm tired of being a Scorpio woman. I'm drained. The past ummm 4 years of my life. I'm done over it. I want to be... maybe a sag woman. Yeah they seem to be strong but more light hearted. Im MF tied.
Looking forward to 2017, with a slight side eye
One last vent before my life starts to finally move in the right right direction.
Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I'm really afraid of these feelings. I'd thought I'd be over it by now. But it's the anger that lingers. I've never felt so angry so often in my life to the point it feels nearly ucontrollable. No matter what I do, everything short of therapy (which I can't afford), it just will soothe me momentarily. Every time I see his face rage just swells up in my chest and it takes everything in me not to want to snap on him.I don't like feeling overwhelmed by emotions. Especially such a strong negative one.
I hate feelings!!!
aw shit they got us now
I absolutely hate and detest how people cannot be honest.
This goes for all, no gender/sign specific.
Do not, please, do not string people along! When someone is waiting for you 'cos you're not sure if you want to be with them, is putting them in a special kind of hell. If you're not sure, then it's a NO. Say no!! Say it loud and clear and say you will never change your mind, so they can move on. And don't try to be nice! Be mean!!! Because people forget mean sooner than someone who's trying to be nice. If you do that, you're not nice, you're EVIL!
Maybe this is for those signs who are more wishy washy/can't make up my mind. That would be....air sings I presume 🙂
All this time I though Saturn in sag was a joke when it came to my finances. Yeah I've had to spend a lot this year, but most were my decisions. For the first time i am feeling what Saturn in sag feels like as a scorp. Just when I am happy that I'm moving forward I realize I was so dumb with income details and now I'm treetrunked with my current employer. Seriously?! I don't even know how to fix this.
I can't get over how lucky I am to have my Scorp husband ♡
I was very ill the past week and he cancelled all plans in order to nurture me back to health, comfort me (the pain was so bad I felt suicidal), and really helped me stay strong.
No matter how many times I tell him how lucky I am and how grateful I am to have found him, no matter what I do, it can never be enough.
I seriously can't hold it in. I don't know what I did to deserve someone so amazing.
Posted by tiziani
@Teena welcome back!
Aww!! Thanks tiz.Always been your fan.I managed to sneak in n see your posts every now n then 😉
Pissy Scorp vs Fairy Tale Land
Bull: What do you think is worst for a woman? A man that cheats or lies to her?
Scorp: *raises eyebrow Merc in Scorp activated* ....It's the same thing.
Bull: If you had to choose.
Scorp: That's just it. I don't and won't. They are the same thing, so they would get the same response.
Bull: How so?
Scorp: Well I may be wrong, but I've never heard of a man coming home, dick still dripping wet confessing be just slept with someone else, so he would have to be lying to her until the truth is revealed right? Even if he does---some men like to live on the edge--- there is a level of dishonesty at play. Trust is broken. Period.
Bull: Can you pick one pls.
Scorp: *silently waits Bull out while adding oil to engine*
Bull: Okay, so say a man tells you he has all of this money and is well established but you later find out he's just a regular guy working his 9-5 and he's not poor, but not well off?
Scorp: *Hmph. Talking about the (most recent) ex, close hood* Well I would end it, but not for the reasons you think.
Bull: What do you mean?
Scorp: Well I am sure you, as some of the men I've encountered would love to bellyache about how me choosing to cut ties proves I'm a gold digger or some other "refuse to take responsibility" bullsh*t you want to spew, but the matter of it is it's about the dishonesty. Pure and simple. I refuse to lay my head next to a man I can not trust. You've created an illusion of who I am getting involved with, in essence removing my choice away from me. You know who I am and made a choice based on that. I'd like the same courtesy. People may surprise you if you actually allow them to get to know you.
Bull: But what if he thought he couldn't get you any other way?
Scorp: *side eye, holds tongue, walks in house, wash hands*
Bull: *follows*
Scorp: Do you want to be in a relationship where you're constantly double guessing what your partner says to you? Life's too short. Too many people that are honest about who they are to deal with that nonsense.
Bull: Well would you be able to forgive and give him another chance? Love is about forgiveness. Love fixes all.
Scorp: What the many f*cks? Save that fairytale crap for your six year old. Forgiveness has absolutely nothing to do with welcoming a person that knowingly deceives me because he was too weak to be himself back into your life.
*literally see the moment Bull's heart twitches....*
Scorp: I shouldn't be allowed to speak sometimes....Yeah love fixes everything, Santa Clause really does exists, and so do unicorns. You clearly want to hear that. Sorry I didn't realize... I would strongly suggest you stop lying to the women you want to be with. You clearly haven't learn anything since we dated.
Bull: Ouch. You had to go there.
Scorp: Apparenlty. Pizza? Reality feels better on a full stomach.
That was more about being in a piss poor mood than him....
Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I bought myself a journal for my birthday this year, first one in over a decade....
*like*
Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I bought myself a journal for my birthday this year, first one in over a decade....*like*
Yeah. I also noticed I didn't post in asylum as much as I normally do since I got it. LOL.
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😉
I do miss your "Dear Asylum" entries though.
I miss dancing. 😢
"...Tune in to find my peace and solitude
These empty rooms spin, and I embrace the flaws of being human
The black and white...and sometimes the grey that stay for days
The in between time
The meantime...
...I let my voice be heard, then listen for the echo
My own reverb is playing
Cause I'm a movement
There's dissonance, sometimes I make mistakes
So I'm human after all, I'm not your expectation...."
Posted by TheLadyScorpio
I miss dancing. 😢
It's good for the soul. I suggest doing it often. Even if you don't have a partner and the only music playing is in your head.
I love dancing.
I was going to ask as to what happened but since you hid it elle, I do hope it will or rather you will be able to resolve this situation as soon as possible.
Good luck and distant (((hugs))), in case you do become a burning inferno.
Posted by -elle-
The Cap is so damn sweet..."Babe, don't worry. *This* is what you do. You reinvent yourself. You have outgrown this and now it's time to move on. I have seen you do this multiple times in the past two decades...and you always come out ahead of everyone."
Bless him....don't know jack about astrology 😛
I am beginning to think that Earth Sign Men really do us quite a fair bit of good, especially Goats and Virgins.
They mesh well with our sensibilities, especially our 'quirks'. They seem to be able to roll with the punches and accept us as we are.
The weaknesses and strengths of one balances out the other, keeping everything in perspective. They also keep us grounded. Their stability is reassuring to us and we are then allowed to flourish within the relationship.
I may be wrong or speaking out of my arse but there must be some truth in what I believe in. 😆
*waiting for you to show up (because you're stuck in traffic) and eating donuts, ruining my appetite*
A passive aggressive Scorp know no bounds....
My work....my job....the place that has brought me happy for the past 6 years....
Has royally pissed me off.
Not a pissed off that my Aries moon can sleep off type of pissed off....
....but the all mighty....mountains are going to shift....mars will start sucking souls to the depth of hell....kind of pissed.
#Scorp>RamEnergy
Well that was the last donut. So much for missing my workout tomorrow....
Women should be banned from the beauty department.
The limited edition Christmas collections could easily cause a large dent in my wallet. 😆
Posted by -elle-
The Cap is so damn sweet..."Babe, don't worry. *This* is what you do. You reinvent yourself. You have outgrown this and now it's time to move on. I have seen you do this multiple times in the past two decades...and you always come out ahead of everyone."
Bless him....don't know jack about astrology 😛
You guys have known each other for two decades??
Caps really are slow as shit!
Posted by -elle-
The Cap is so damn sweet..."Babe, don't worry. *This* is what you do. You reinvent yourself. You have outgrown this and now it's time to move on. I have seen you do this multiple times in the past two decades...and you always come out ahead of everyone."
Bless him....don't know jack about astrology 😛
You guys have known each other for two decades??
Caps really are slow as shit!
lol....almost.
Since 1999
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They're such an odd bunch, those goats. Lovable, stoic weirdos.
Posted by -elle-
The Cap is so damn sweet..."Babe, don't worry. *This* is what you do. You reinvent yourself. You have outgrown this and now it's time to move on. I have seen you do this multiple times in the past two decades...and you always come out ahead of everyone."
Bless him....don't know jack about astrology 😛
You guys have known each other for two decades??
Caps really are slow as shit!
lol....almost.
Since 1999
They're such an odd bunch, those goats. Lovable, stoic weirdos.
Indeed.
We circled each other for years....never said a word or acted out of line towards each other....even through a marriage for each of us, kids, divorces.
Life sure is weird.
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What, really? For some reason I thought you guys had dated previously but he didn't quite have his emotional shit together at the time.
Posted by -elle-
The Cap is so damn sweet..."Babe, don't worry. *This* is what you do. You reinvent yourself. You have outgrown this and now it's time to move on. I have seen you do this multiple times in the past two decades...and you always come out ahead of everyone."
Bless him....don't know jack about astrology 😛
You guys have known each other for two decades??
Caps really are slow as shit!
lol....almost.
Since 1999
They're such an odd bunch, those goats. Lovable, stoic weirdos.
Indeed.
We circled each other for years....never said a word or acted out of line towards each other....even through a marriage for each of us, kids, divorces.
Life sure is weird.
What, really? For some reason I thought you guys had dated previously but he didn't quite have his emotional shit together at the time.
We dated for six months after our divorces in 2008/2009. I divorced first....then he followed. He started calling me weekly to see how I was doing. We were each others support system...hell, we knew each other longer that we new our ex-spouses.
That ended up in relationship-ish territory...aqua venus freaked and I ended up on dxp. lol
A few relationships for me and almost six years later....he has calmed his tits and we are doing it for real now. Lol
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Oh wow! Fucking Caps, man.. I swear.
😄
Posted by -elle-
The Cap is so damn sweet..."Babe, don't worry. *This* is what you do. You reinvent yourself. You have outgrown this and now it's time to move on. I have seen you do this multiple times in the past two decades...and you always come out ahead of everyone."
Bless him....don't know jack about astrology 😛
You guys have known each other for two decades??
Caps really are slow as shit!
lol....almost.
Since 1999
They're such an odd bunch, those goats. Lovable, stoic weirdos.
Indeed.
We circled each other for years....never said a word or acted out of line towards each other....even through a marriage for each of us, kids, divorces.
Life sure is weird.
What, really? For some reason I thought you guys had dated previously but he didn't quite have his emotional shit together at the time.
We dated for six months after our divorces in 2008/2009. I divorced first....then he followed. He started calling me weekly to see how I was doing. We were each others support system...hell, we knew each other longer that we new our ex-spouses.
That ended up in relationship-ish territory...aqua venus freaked and I ended up on dxp. lol
A few relationships for me and almost six years later....he has calmed his tits and we are doing it for real now. Lol
Oh wow! Fucking Caps, man.. I swear.
Lol...yeah, it's nuts.
9 months going strong...no disappearing, weirdness, flip flopping, wishy washy...stuff so far.
Everyday is surreal.
He went from...
"You are not allowed to text me anymore" (lol...I made a thread that day....I was so pissed because I rarely texted)
to....
"I miss you! *hugglez*"
LMAO
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Lol!
Seriously though, that had to be a mind fuck. I don't understand them (Caps) hardly at all.
Posted by -elle-
The Cap is so damn sweet..."Babe, don't worry. *This* is what you do. You reinvent yourself. You have outgrown this and now it's time to move on. I have seen you do this multiple times in the past two decades...and you always come out ahead of everyone."
Bless him....don't know jack about astrology 😛
You guys have known each other for two decades??
Caps really are slow as shit!
lol....almost.
Since 1999
They're such an odd bunch, those goats. Lovable, stoic weirdos.
Indeed.
We circled each other for years....never said a word or acted out of line towards each other....even through a marriage for each of us, kids, divorces.
Life sure is weird.
What, really? For some reason I thought you guys had dated previously but he didn't quite have his emotional shit together at the time.
We dated for six months after our divorces in 2008/2009. I divorced first....then he followed. He started calling me weekly to see how I was doing. We were each others support system...hell, we knew each other longer that we new our ex-spouses.
That ended up in relationship-ish territory...aqua venus freaked and I ended up on dxp. lol
A few relationships for me and almost six years later....he has calmed his tits and we are doing it for real now. Lol
Oh wow! Fucking Caps, man.. I swear.
Lol...yeah, it's nuts.
9 months going strong...no disappearing, weirdness, flip flopping, wishy washy...stuff so far.
Everyday is surreal.
He went from...
"You are not allowed to text me anymore" (lol...I made a thread that day....I was so pissed because I rarely texted)
to....
"I miss you! *hugglez*"
LMAO
Lol!
Seriously though, that had to be a mind fuck. I don't understand them (Caps) hardly at all.
Mindfuck indeed. lol
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I'm happy it's working out now though. You deserve it🙂
*skips all the narrative....sees this^...smiles....goes back to being salty....skips the rest of the narrative*
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Funny how all scorps are feeling differently I this season. from my own scorp friends, it's like full extreme either feeling really good or not good.
It's been an awful 24 hrs for me internally.
I haven't even started my new journey and I'm drowning in confusion and sadness.
This also reiterates how for me, some things are very difficult to shake, where some are easy. Probably my damn Taurus moon.