Mental Asylum of Utter Madness- 24/7 Stinger Home! (Page 64)

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Posted by ellesbelles
Minneapolis/St Paul is very big.....lol

It's like if Buffalo and Chicago were next to each other.

I love my new career.

It has been a little overwhelming but I like overwhelming.

What!!!! You're in the twin cities—?!!!

If you go to Paisley Park (and idk why you wouldn't 😛 ) please tell me all about it!

Holy crap. That didn't even cross my mind.

I just googled....I am 20 minutes away.....LOL

I looked up their tours and Sunday includes brunch.....I AM SO GOING THERE ON SUNDAY!



I will tell you everything and maybe sneak a picture (I know I am not allowed but I wasn't allowed to take a picture of the monet exhibit in Paris either)

PRINCES CHEF IS GONNA MAKE YOU PANCAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!

No pictures. They took my phones....lol.



Brunch was scrambled eggs, a roasted potato and Smores French toast.

Check your pm, lovely....I got something for you 😄

The tour was pretty good.....the one section that blew me away was the sound stage....there wasn't anything spectacular in that room but the energy hit me right in the face when we entered that room...the hairs on my neck started tingling...it was weird.

I can sum up his entire estate with two words...

Pisces Moon 🙂

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Posted by PhoenixRising
Scorpio Season has begun....

Posted by Ellygant
I have a friend I’ve known for over a decade now. We grew up and went through a lot of tumultuous years and traumatic experiences together. Did quite a bit of partying together as well in the past.

After bottoming out a few times, I’ve spent the last year and a half trying to turn things around. Went to a lot of therapy, quit partying, started working crazy long hours, got back on my feet financially, changed the type of people I dated and friends I hung out with(mainly all people I met during partying). I’ve completely changed my life style as a result and I’ve been feeling a lot more balanced and happy as a result.

This friend and I though, haven’t parted ways. Our friendship predates that time in my life so it adds a layer of depth to it that keeps me connected however recently our life style s have been clashing.

The last three concerts I went to with her I missed because I spent the entire time trying to keep her from attacking strangers because she was so inebriated and out of control or her equally unstable ex was attacked her/us and police were involved etc. she’s often called me crying hysterically in the middle of the night, blackout, having total breakdowns. Most recently she showed up to my house at 9am this week, high out of her mind, having a total breakdown and declaring everyone in her life was out to get her, including some of the most supportive people in my life who she doesn’t even know.

I’ve stuck around, because I’m not one to judge as I’ve been a mess before too. I’ve tried to support her getting help but her psychiatrist is, less than helpful. However It’s gotten to the point where when we recently had a fight, I was almost hopeful I’d have reason to quietly fade out the friendship.

Idk, I feel selfish for wanting her out of my life, because of all we went through together. But the help I’ve given has been wasted or rejected. She often implies she need my help because otherwise I’m just abandoning her and she doesn’t know what she’d do without me. But I can’t deal with anymore drunken late nights, police reports or morning high breakdowns. When I try to pull away she just blows up my phone with guilt tripping messages and I let myself get roped back in.

Outside perspectives welcome please. 😢

Posted by TheLadyScorpio
Stinger Season approaches, and you are wondering what on bloody hells earth you are doing.

Everything seems up in the air, yet everything seems settled in their place as well.

Ah, the frustration, the lack of patience, wanting to see fruition.

People around you, not carrying themselves in a straight forward manner.

It may be time to go into that infamous Stinger hermit mode, and brood for a while.

Posted by Unwording
One birthday down.

Only two more to go.

Posted by Ellygant
I can’t figure out why. And it makes me feel disgusted with myself.

And I can’t talk it out. Because there’s no one to talk it out too. Stuck.

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
Having a really rough time coping with my emotions. The past few days have been a blur as I have been so heartbroken. I'm just going through the motions...doing the bare minimum just to make it through the day. The Scorpio obsession is kicking in and I don't know how to let go? It hasn't been this bad in a long time. Wth are you supposed to do when the person you thought you knew betrays you and then gives you the silent treatment out of the blue?

How do you turn off the many thoughts running through the head? The over analyzing? The obsession that's so strong?

Posted by ellesbelles
I've had a shitty day.

I was trying to break a record on the most good days in a row....

BUT NO. I HAVE TO START OVER AGAIN. 😭

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Posted by Teena

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
Having a really rough time coping with my emotions. The past few days have been a blur as I have been so heartbroken. I'm just going through the motions...doing the bare minimum just to make it through the day. The Scorpio obsession is kicking in and I don't know how to let go? It hasn't been this bad in a long time. Wth are you supposed to do when the person you thought you knew betrays you and then gives you the silent treatment out of the blue?

How do you turn off the many thoughts running through the head? The over analyzing? The obsession that's so strong?

Should start with will power. Many people want to move on n put the end to misery n pain but they don't find enough will to do it. Actually I'd say they don't even want it enough.They don't wanna let go. I don't know your story. But if you really intend to move on, you need to let go n get practical about everything. Let go of your emotions...the feelings of hurt, betrayal, disappointment,ego(yes sometimes it's all about your ego taking the beating).Also forgive yourself n him if you have to. That's important as well. Think about "What now?" I mean it's over. What's the point of analysing anything at all? Face the reality.Yes, you probably had the best thing, best time n made a lot of great memories n all. But now, it has come to an end.Is there anything you can do to change what happened? Do it! If not, there's no point! I like to say "feel the pain till it hurts no more". But people start finding comfort in pain n let these thoughts take a space in their heads rent-free for too long!People say time will heal. But what about time helps you heal?? It comes down to you. Let it happen now!

I know it's easier said than done. But I've been there n I did it. You can too. Don't pity yourself or this situation. Take it as an experience.Cherish good things about it. Find strength to move on. When will it stop? When you make it stop really. But if you want to wallow and marinate in the thoughts n you think that'll help you in anyway...do so. Understand lot of our hurt n pain is self-inflicted more than anything.

Thank you Teena. I needed to read that. ❤️

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Posted by ellesbelles
I've had a shitty day.

I was trying to break a record on the most good days in a row....

BUT NO. I HAVE TO START OVER AGAIN. 😭

What happened 😢

A gotdamn aqua happened.

I've never really worked side by side with an aqua and she's driving me nuts.

It was our first major event today and she dropped the fucking ball and then deflected the blame on me and decided to go home early.

I'm like ...wth—?

I have a class of 19 people to teach today and tomorrow and she decided to bail early and work "remote tomorrow....

I have connectivity issues, people she didn't invite....but was supposed to....they are pissed...it was just one thing after another today due to her incompetence.

I have no IT team onsite but her.....and she decided she doesn't need to be there.

Then has the nerve to say I never told her to invite these people....like I fucking know to even tell her because I don't know everyone's name or discipline yet.

Plus....who the hell said pisces merc doesnt talk? This chic never shuts the hell up. I cant concentrate because shes shoving halloween photos in my face and talking abput her husband's upcoming colonoscopy and why she has to take her shoes off in the office...like I gaf.

Bleh!!!!

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Posted by ellesbelles

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Posted by ellesbelles
I've had a shitty day.

What happened 😢

A gotdamn aqua happened.

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Posted by ellesbelles
I'm taking myself out to dinner at Pittsburgh Blue....a steak house.

A birthday month treat, a celebration for being awesome at my new job...and, well...because I want to....

There is a table beside me....looks like a mother, grandmother and two boys (children)....

The waiter asked if they were celebrating something tonight and one of them said birthday......cant tell which one.

Guess who is giving someone a birthday present? 😄

That would be me...just gotta sneak out before they are told their dinner was paid for... lol

#scorpsiblinglove

Posted by Ellygant
Tell me about your full moons.

Posted by Ellygant
Got the new job. Was offered it in less than 7 minutes in. 😄

Posted by ArticleLL
Apparently the site Dxp Net is still kicking.

Posted by Ellygant
I can feel my heart beating in my head.

🤢🤮

Do nerves ever go away right before starting a new phase in life?

Why does my brain freak out and I get emotional about every single other thing in my life?

Can I turn into a mutable sign where I thrive off the newness of the unknown instead of being fixed sign terrified?

Posted by Oak


Didn't think gem moons could be so clingy.

Posted by Ellygant

Posted by Oak


Didn't think gem moons could be so clingy.

I feel like my energy has been so scattered recently. I've been a lot more active and outgoing so now when it comes to being affectionate I feel like I don't have much energy for it.

They are until they aren’t. That switch hits fast and then I notice they go full on silent mode. Do not disturb. They like to breathe as well. If they’re acting clingy tho it’s because they want to invest or are realizing that they’ve already invested without intending too and have to readjust.

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Didn't think gem moons could be so clingy.

He must be broken.

Still clingy! must be the fishy placements or because it's the early stages.

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Apparently the site Dxp Net is still kicking.

Posted by Ellygant
I can feel my heart beating in my head.

🤢🤮

Do nerves ever go away right before starting a new phase in life?

Why does my brain freak out and I get emotional about every single other thing in my life?

Can I turn into a mutable sign where I thrive off the newness of the unknown instead of being fixed sign terrified?

Posted by TheLadyScorpio

Posted by Ellygant
I can feel my heart beating in my head.

🤢🤮

Do nerves ever go away right before starting a new phase in life?

Why does my brain freak out and I get emotional about every single other thing in my life?

Can I turn into a mutable sign where I thrive off the newness of the unknown instead of being fixed sign terrified?

You would be surprised at how terrified mutable signs could be. They only revert to their mental space or their adaptability skills in hopes that those same fears would eventually pass, or they revert to inaction.

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Posted by Oak

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Didn't think gem moons could be so clingy.

He must be broken.

Still clingy! must be the fishy placements or because it's the early stages.

I'm guessing so. I know my Fish/Gem Moon friend is very clingy with her husband. Annoyingly so----like I just can't relate to that behaviour (as she expresses it) at all. I actually use to think it was possessiveness, and still do to some extent, but being a Bull, he eats that up. It works for them.

Elly, did make a good observation though as it relates to Gem Moons. I think what may throw people off is Gem Moons aren't known for demonstrating feelings in an overly expressive way. Then add to that the inconsistency (also well known as "being fickle").

So basically, feelings are there....we know it, feel it, but do not express it openly, simply process it and then *bam* one day we gush it all over you and you're like "who the hell is this person?" When something sparkly comes along it will subside a bit....and then float back to you just as clingy and excessive in inconsistent spurts.

I think self-sufficiency is what separates our presentation (Fish vs Scorp). I mean I can get needy when I am feeling low. I would like my partner around more, not to whine and complain or even discuss my feelings, but to help me forget about what I am feeling by getting "lost" in something else. When I don't have that person as an escape I get even more moody, but can find something else to do and move on alone to get myself out of the mood. My friend on the other hand, needs constant contact with her partner "just because it makes her feel safe" and gets stuck on that person not being around *introduce nagging and guilt trips*.

Also, I question if one can look at the Moon in isolation of the Venus (at least I am interest in the connection). Mine is in Sag. I prefer independent ventures, do a lot of things alone. Sure I like having the company, but don't get in my way or try to hinder what I want to do or stay the f*ck home. My Fish friend has a Fish Venus. Everything needs to be a group/partner activity. That isn't because she can't function/do things alone, but as she often states, she "just likes the company" and would not do something or has been known to even pass up an opportunity if she has to do it alone. She'll fully capable, but chooses partnership over independence. That can't be due to Moon sign alone. No?

Posts like this are why I fangirl Gemini moons so much. Between my friends and my sister, y’all are irreplaceable in my heart. The intelligence of mercurial energy in an emotional placement makes for perfect analysis picking apart emotional matters. You have a point on venus interplay.

For foxy oak, my sister is a Pisces Sun/Gemini Moon. But with an Aqua venus. She is one of the few people I know that can be clingy in a detached way. She doesn’t call me everyday or suffocate me. But when we do talk she’ll let me know immediately if I’ve been dropping the ball attention wise lol. She also likes to be close, walk arm in arm, hug a lot but not every time we see each other and needs a lot of alone time as well

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Posted by TheLadyScorpio

Posted by Ellygant
I can feel my heart beating in my head.

🤢🤮

Do nerves ever go away right before starting a new phase in life?

Why does my brain freak out and I get emotional about every single other thing in my life?

Can I turn into a mutable sign where I thrive off the newness of the unknown instead of being fixed sign terrified?

You would be surprised at how terrified mutable signs could be. They only revert to their mental space or their adaptability skills in hopes that those same fears would eventually pass, or they revert to inaction.

Very true.

Also, best of luck on your new phase 🙂

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Posted by PhoenixRising
Come to think of it, I was always poking, touching and playing with my mothers's face or body as a child sitting on their lap or next to her, exploring every line, crease, roll...

Lol, I still tend to do that with my partners post sex session. We talk, laugh and I "explore". My partners always ask, "what are you looking for?". I just shrug. I'm not looking for anything, just curious and maybe subconsciously recording their body to memory so I can make note if something is off 😈.



*wait, this scratch behind his ear wasn't here last week, wth....?*

I've been know to question marks I did not place on a lover's body before 😄

Posted by TheLadyScorpio

Thank you PR. 😄

Although, the anxiety is eating me inside out.

To wish, hope, and plan for something for so long. Then to finally reach a point where you could begin to embark on that new journey, and the fear hits you like a freight train.



Do you have anything which you do, in particular that deals with your anxiety, to cope ?

Posted by Ellygant

Posted by TheLadyScorpio

Posted by Ellygant
I can feel my heart beating in my head.

🤢🤮

Do nerves ever go away right before starting a new phase in life?

Why does my brain freak out and I get emotional about every single other thing in my life?

Can I turn into a mutable sign where I thrive off the newness of the unknown instead of being fixed sign terrified?

They never do Elly, but feeling nerves reminds you of the fact that this change matters to you. That you are making a decision that is worth something. That is all that matters.

Fate loves the fearless. Embrace the fear, accept it, and move on. That is the only way in which we would try new things and to become someone better. Overcome the fear, do not let it swallow you whole. You will feel stronger and better as you achieve success in every new thing that you dare try.

The same thing is happening to me as well, and like you, also starting a new phase in life. Resigned at my previous company despite how well my position was. Decided it was time, after over a year of planning, to no longer work for someone but myself and began my own entrepreneurial project.

You would be surprised at how terrified mutable signs could be. They only revert to their mental space or their adaptability skills in hopes that those same fears would eventually pass, or they revert to inaction.

Thank you! That is all so true!

Irony of it all, I spent the ENTIRE day being severely anxious. Like, for 7 hours straight lol. I get there and after about an hour it’s abundantly clear to me that they forgot I would be training and the entire first day was fairly botched lol. And then I’m in the position of just trying to make the best of it, because the person they hoisted me on was still new himself and I could tell no one else ‘wanted to deal with a trainee.’

One of the managers asked me how it was going and I said fine. He stopped and tried to fish more out of me and I didn’t know how to say ‘uh I’m not dumb I can y’all dropped the ball but I’m going to keep my mouth shut and hope it changes in the next few days.’ So I just said I was focusing on learning and couldn’t articulate myself. Lol.

That’s so awesome about you jumping into the entrepreneurial side! I am so excited to see everyone making changes and jumping into them. Watching others make brave changes admittedly makes it less intimidating for myself. I can’t wait to see where we all are a year from now. 😄 Best of luck to you Lady!

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Posted by PhoenixRising
*watching Maury Povich.....is he the father?* Why do they drag this out?

Some mindless brain candy is needed after the last 3 months I've had.

Posted by TheLadyScorpio

Posted by PhoenixRising
Come to think of it, I was always poking, touching and playing with my mothers's face or body as a child sitting on their lap or next to her, exploring every line, crease, roll...

Lol, I still tend to do that with my partners post sex session. We talk, laugh and I "explore". My partners always ask, "what are you looking for?". I just shrug. I'm not looking for anything, just curious and maybe subconsciously recording their body to memory so I can make note if something is off 😈.



*wait, this scratch behind his ear wasn't here last week, wth....?*

I've been know to question marks I did not place on a lover's body before 😄

The Twin Lunar men whom I have ever been with, always had this habit before and after sex. 😆

It felt like they were trying to record as many details of my face, and body as they could.

The absent minded things you lot do, people place too much importance unto them. If they would only understand, to adapt and to go with the flow with Twin Lunars. Life would be much easier.

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Posted by TheLadyScorpio

Posted by PhoenixRising
*watching Maury Povich.....is he the father?* Why do they drag this out?

Some mindless brain candy is needed after the last 3 months I've had.

Oh dear, PR I have been out of the loop.

What has happened during the last three months ?

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Posted by TheLadyScorpio

Posted by PhoenixRising
Come to think of it, I was always poking, touching and playing with my mothers's face or body as a child sitting on their lap or next to her, exploring every line, crease, roll...

Lol, I still tend to do that with my partners post sex session. We talk, laugh and I "explore". My partners always ask, "what are you looking for?". I just shrug. I'm not looking for anything, just curious and maybe subconsciously recording their body to memory so I can make note if something is off 😈.



*wait, this scratch behind his ear wasn't here last week, wth....?*

I've been know to question marks I did not place on a lover's body before 😄

The Twin Lunar men whom I have ever been with, always had this habit before and after sex. 😆

It felt like they were trying to record as many details of my face, and body as they could.

The absent minded things you lot do, people place too much importance unto them. If they would only understand, to adapt and to go with the flow with Twin Lunars. Life would be much easier.

Haha, some can. Only Leeb and Aqua seem to protest and make a point of voicing their....discomfort with it. Curious.

Gem Suns (Leo Moons---so that may be the difference) and other mutable folks seem to enjoy it. Virgos just go with the flow lol.

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