Mental Asylum of Utter Madness- 24/7 Stinger Home! (Page 71)

Posted by Andalusia
The shitty Cap I briefly "dated" keeps coming into my work with his girlfriend.

And he just got fired from his job, so she paid.

God he fucking sucks.

😆

I've always had this thing for relationship that just shouldn't happen....😈

Posted by Unwording
Last week, my sister announced that she is pregnant. And this week, my 6 year old nephew (who's a Leo Moon and thinks he's being replaced) is trying to negotiate moving in with me. 😆

I adore him. ❤️

*like*

Posted by Ellygant

Oh well. Time to go back to my beer, fresh cut vegetables and cup of balsamic. Yep. Cup.

Because you knew I'd be aaalllllll over that 😆.

Elly a cup doh?

My ex Gem, my best friend told me he has MS. He's terrified because he's worried about losing himself, especially his mind. That means more to him than anything. Even his relationships. Apparently he has struggled with what this diagnosis will mean for him and went into deep depression over the last week.

My biggest fear is that he will do something stupid like commit suicide because that is "easier" for him to do with than live with MS. He is that proud. He is that selfish. Or maybe I'm the selfish one for wanting him to stay just to be here for me, even if he's in pain.

We've been here before. I think he is the reason I've become emotionally numb to loss.

I love him so much. He's my favourite person in the whole world.

Thank you ladies.

I so fucking hate this virgo man with a scorp moon,competitive evn though he doesnt need to be,such a control freak,user,bossy and fake person,most of all attention seeking bastard who sucks d**ks

Fuck you!

You are so lucky i didnt pulverize you,you fcking whoreman! I can so cut your heart into small pieces by words alone and fcking punch your nuts where i know you will be hurt the most but i didnt coz i swear on my self to change,i hope you get what you deserve!!!! The higher their pride the harder they fall

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Posted by PhoenixRising
My ex Gem, my best friend told me he has MS. He's terrified because he's worried about losing himself, especially his mind. That means more to him than anything. Even his relationships. Apparently he has struggled with what this diagnosis will mean for him and went into deep depression over the last week.

My biggest fear is that he will do something stupid like commit suicide because that is "easier" for him to do with than live with MS. He is that proud. He is that selfish. Or maybe I'm the selfish one for wanting him to stay just to be here for me, even if he's in pain.

We've been here before. I think he is the reason I've become emotionally numb to loss.

I love him so much. He's my favourite person in the whole world.

My mother's friend was diagnosed with MS, and 10-20 years ago pain management was maybe the only option. Basically a "good-bye and good luck". But we've come a long way in terms of treatment and medication.

Never lose hope. ❤️

Wishing you both the best.

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Thanks. I checked in with him today and he already sounds better and a bit more optimistic. Looking for ways to cope and take charge. Very true to Gem Sun/Leo Moon form. Doesn't like sitting in sadness or defeat for too long.

I sat through a 2 and a half hour meeting with cramps and now I just want to curl up in bed with a bowl of clementines and a batch of chocolate chip brownies so I can finish my "A Crime to Remember" marathon...

Posted by MysteriousDreamer

This song always makes me reflect upon my life when I hear it.

Me too. The first time I heard it was the Dixie Chick version:

Posted by tiziani
I feel pretty stupid. I spent the last three weeks slaving to get a song just right and write it for someone who told me today they honestly cannot relate. Accepting rejection is a part of life.

It's ok.I'm here for you 🧚🐣

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Posted by tiziani
I feel pretty stupid. I spent the last three weeks slaving to get a song just right and write it for someone who told me today they honestly cannot relate. Accepting rejection is a part of life.

It's ok.I'm here for you 🧚🐣

I just feel really embarrassed at this moment in time that's all I can think to say.

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Just send it to me and I'll try and relate to it anyway!! Promise!! I mean i might have done that even if you sent it to me without letting me know that you wrote it to someone else so🤭🤭

Posted by ex0

I was inspired by Fisky, but couldn't find your Obsession/Possession thread:

HE'S HERE AGAIN! THE CAP CAME IN WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND. AGAIN.

Why? Fucking Why? Just go away already.

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Posted by Andalusia
HE'S HERE AGAIN! THE CAP CAME IN WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND. AGAIN.

Why? Fucking Why? Just go away already.

Do you think he's doing it on purpose?

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Yes. But I'm not sure what purpose. So... no?

And he told his server he's friends with the GM - he's not. He's just trying to get something for free.

Skeazy fuck.

A Peaceful Nights Sleep

Scorp: *spooning partner, one hand around waist, one hand draped over head, finger in his ear*

Him: *wakes up eventually* Babe you know your finger was in my ear?

Scorp: *wakes up* Hmph *slight shrug*

Him: And your finger was in my belly button the other day

Scorp: *shrugs* Okay. Problem?

Him: Naw *chuckles* I’m use to whatever you call what you’re doing now

Scorp: *chuckles and turns over* Good.

Him: Just don’t be sticking your finger anywhere else.

Scorp: 😄 I make no promises.

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
My Pisces coworker (the young one whose in the middle of planning a wedding) didn’t show up for work this morning. Found out she was in the ER all night last night due to heart problems. She’s only 24 and already had to have one heart surgery at 16. She is due to have another surgery and was shooting for September (after the wedding). However, now she may need to have it sooner. She ended up coming into work later this afternoon despite still not feeling well. Ended up leaving early due to chest pains. I feel so bad for her. Poor thing has been through so much in life at such a young age. Makes me sad. 😥 I just hope she will be ok...

Sorry to hear that. Fish are a lot stronger than some people give them credit for. She’ll work through it.

Congrats on the raise!

Posted by ellesbelles
I went and had my cards read today. She was pretty spot on with everything. It was very interesting.

She also told me I have a secret admirer...lol. 👀

Posted by Ellygant
And I rushed around the streets of the city.

Happy and free.

Arms outstretched.

Laughter leading me.

Laughter supporting me.

Turn back and fall

And I breathe,

But your arms were there,

Scooping to catch me.

Do you enjoy art?

You said.

Some answer

I rambled.

Later find

It was a test you had in mind

And whatever bouncy words I uttered

Passed with flying colors.

Down these streets I used to roam

Past the place I used to call home.

You wrapped your body

Around mine.

When spontaneously

I felt the need

To break free.

You just smile

And watch and follow me.

No guilt.

No panic.

No worry.

You.

Me.

On these city streets.

Running wild and free.

🙂

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Posted by HearttofTopaz
Idk wtf is up with me lately. Feels like life has come full circle, and it’s just a lot to deal with right now. Idk whether I just need to cry or yell..

Maybe both 😩

Do both.

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Posted by Ellygant
‘You’re just always calm and super confident. Even for these plans, you just made them and rolled with it. It’s amazing to me.’

Elly: oh? *remember how her heart was pounding in her ears when she made them and was pretty sure she was dying* yeah...

Lol. If I had a dollar for every time someone told me how well I handled a situation when I was really dealing with knots in my stomach, I could pay a therapist to help me deal with the d*mn knots already.

Haven't heard from Le Scorp in two months now. I just sent him this:

Just to keep him on his toes.

I used to be human. Now I feel like i only vaguely resemble one. :/

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
I feel so conflicted. On one hand I want the whole cliche idea of finding love....marriage....family. However, I feel like the whole process of dating is so stupid. I mean we all date, fall in love, get married and procreate.....and the cycle repeats itself over and over again all because society says that’s what we’re supposed to do. I have grown very bitter towards the idea of dating, love and just the opposite sex in general. Makes me cringe thinking about it. I took down my online dating profile back in December and have completely stopped dating period. My New Years resolution was to stop looking for love completely. I’ve honestly haven’t had the urge to rejoin the dating community, and the few times that I have had that urge was when I was feeling lonely. But then I start feeling sorry for myself and I remind myself of the negative thoughts that run through my head like...”what do I really have to offer a partner?” I’m also getting very comfortable just doing my own thing and being lazy to where the thought of going on a date seems too tedious. I feel myself getting stuck in a rut to where I don’t even want to get out and meet people and the longer this rut goes on the harder it gets to put myself out there. I was having a conversation with my brother today about this topic and he stated “it’s all about getting out of your comfort zone.” And I get that. But do I really even want to? And that is the question I’ve been struggling with. Like I see these loving couples out there and at first I’m like “aww I want that, but then I think how stupid it is.” I’ve just gotten very bitter and I don’t know how to fix that.

I feel the same! ugh..

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Posted by Andalusia
Haven't heard from Le Scorp in two months now. I just sent him this:

Just to keep him on his toes.

A scared scorpio man is a turned on Scorpio man. Good job virgo.

What’s his moon again?

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Aquarius moon and ascendant

Scorpio sun, merc and Venus

Libra mars, 8th house tho I think

Posted by Ellygant
Jazzy Sunday morning with Mila.

Brand new stack of books delivered tomorrow.

Jasmine incense burning.

Rest. Beautiful rest.

This sounds so beautiful.

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Posted by Andalusia
Haven't heard from Le Scorp in two months now. I just sent him this:

Just to keep him on his toes.

A scared scorpio man is a turned on Scorpio man. Good job virgo.

What’s his moon again?

Aquarius moon and ascendant

Scorpio sun, merc and Venus

Libra mars, 8th house tho I think

Ah. Damn. Aqua moons. One I don’t understand.

They never really go away. They never really stay. I don’t think they get it themselves even lol.

Scorp ex was aqua rising with an airy moon. Very similar. They’re drawn to the cancer bits expressiveness. Your intellectual mercurial bits probably entice them while the Cancer intrigues them.

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Yeah. Sounds like you do understand them though 😛

And I misspoke before. It's been 2 months since I've seen him, only 3 weeks-a month since I've heard from him.

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Posted by Andalusia
Haven't heard from Le Scorp in two months now. I just sent him this:

Just to keep him on his toes.

A scared scorpio man is a turned on Scorpio man. Good job virgo.

What’s his moon again?

Aquarius moon and ascendant

Scorpio sun, merc and Venus

Libra mars, 8th house tho I think

Ah. Damn. Aqua moons. One I don’t understand.

They never really go away. They never really stay. I don’t think they get it themselves even lol.

Scorp ex was aqua rising with an airy moon. Very similar. They’re drawn to the cancer bits expressiveness. Your intellectual mercurial bits probably entice them while the Cancer intrigues them.

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Yeah. Sounds like you do understand them though 😛

And I misspoke before. It's been 2 months since I've seen him, only 3 weeks-a month since I've heard from him.

Posted by Ellygant
If anything in the rest of 2018 can top tonight, it’s gonna have to work it’s fucking ass off.

Cheers to beautiful people. Beautiful pain. Beautiful connection. And feeling more revitalized than I could have ever dreamed.

Beyond thankful.

*like*

Posted by Unwording
(Why do I find mischievousness so attractive!?)

Send help.

🙂

It's a good thing my dislike for people only last for a few hours.

Posted by ellesbelles
I'm feeling so emo today 😭

I'm back in the Opolis.....my visit with the fam is over. I have the most amazing apartment for the next three weeks before I go *home home*. I can see Bank Stadium from my 11th story window. The whole place is IKEA...I should be doing back flips but I am SAD. 😢

Could be PMS....I need a hot bath with a bomb and bed!

Worst week ever....

Thursday bad news that could derail a major project

Yesterday even more bad news derailing another project

Today, my 4 year old hot water tank blows spraying water everywhere and caused a flood in the basement.

While transferring boxes I slip down the stairs and sprain my wrist and break my my fingers.....

Spent 4 hours in the hospital trying to avoid germs with a mask, praying I get minimal illnesses related to old age, and play sudoku.

Lost money because I had to cancel my afternoon meetings and pay a plumber...

Bad things don't come in threes

Posted by Ellygant
And I delicately paint

This magenta on my lips

Each stroke brings to mind

The souls I left behind.

Each heart as delicate

As the lace I wear upon my skin

Each soul as weary

Fighting their own sin.

Marred my heart

For far too long.

Now is free

With every beat of a bebop song.

Smile,

Oh crooked now magenta,

Much like life,

So how perfect a smile

To start a wild and free night.

*like*

Do you not hate it when obsession takes you over, only to wake up from the fog to realise how ridiculous you have been and what you had inflicted on others ?

Sometimes, even I need to tell myself to calm the bloody hell down and take a breather, from myself. 😆

*taking in DXP's new design...*

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
...After work I decide to treat myself with a smoothie, but after a near accident my smoothie goes flying all over the damn car. I never got to try one single damn drop of that smoothie ...

Don't hate me, but I literally "lol'd" at this. Thanks hon. Since we're still breathing I can only assume it will get better from here on out.

It's that kind of morning....

Posted by Unwording
When people are going on about how crazy you are and you didn't even have to do a thing.

*like*

The never ending cycle of texting anxiety during the dating phase. I hate it with a passionate fury. I hate the version of myself that gets anxious over it. Illogical, irrational, and utter madness.

You text, they see it immediately. They do not respond. Responds a long while later, then do you respond ?

If you do, then rinse and repeat the anxiety process all over again.

If they do respond swiftly, do you do the same ?

If you do, again the stress hits you every bloody text you send.

Nobody wants to play games, yet you must hold back and not be too eager. Less the man interprets it as needy or clingy. However, even when you are distant. Simply putting yourself out there. May have you mistaken for being desperate, merely by initiating.

Thank you, and no thank you modern technology.

Damned if you, damned if you do not. 😐

Posted by Ellygant
Light. Camera. Almost action.

About to film my first video for my YouTube tarot channel. I’ve been doing mad readings this last month. Getting crazy good feedback. Amped up energy.

I thought stepping into doing this as a business would be hard. I thought I’d feel weird saying it. People would respond awkwardly. But people love it. And my ability to connect and help others is steadily improving. And in doing so I feel it fundamentally helping me as well.

I’ll be knocking out monthly videos all this week and next week. Still don’t have an official business name but I’m vibing with making the content and trusting I’ll settle on a name in the next week or so.

Hey. Jupiter in Scorpio. So glad you could stop and stay for a little while.

😄 !!!!!!!

WTF did the Wizard do?

I mean Jesus, If it ain't broke....I guess Duncan will find a way to break it.

I'm tired and hungry---well craving chocolate....

#3rdMoonProblems

Posted by ellesbelles
My Libra boss is quite the person. I have never felt more valued in my career.

Today, he was telling me about his aunt. She is the VP of a leading software competitor to the software we implement.

His aunt was complaining because her software takes an average of 2-3 years to implement and they are at wits end because our software company is beating them in sales....because of this.

So, she asks him how he does it....in 9 months....which is bringing up our average significantly.

He says "My secret weapon"

She says "That is?"

He says "Elle"

LMAO ❤

Now, I KNOW half of that is the Libra charm...as I have enough Libra in me...I am guilty of this too...lol

But holy hell...I actually blushed and couldn't find any words

I swear to all that is caramel....if this guy gets my name mentioned at a table where Bill Gates is present....I will die mid orgasm with a cheesy grin on my face. My life will be complete.

*like*

So I am starting a new job soon and it will feel good to have my life back. Less hours, significantly closer to home (one to one and a half hours one way vs 10-15 minutes one way)---I will actually see the sun when I leave and and return home 🙂.

The staff seems friendly enough minus one. She seems salty as f*ck and has a weak handshake. I hate weak handshakes. Just don't touch me then if you you're gonna hand me a limp noodle for a hand.

My red stilettos are ready.....