
Damnata
@Damnata
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Posted by Damnata
...I find it funny that you picked 2 people who have opposite suns AND opposite moons, an entire universe in a nutshell there.


Posted by Ellygant
Overall the venus retro was actually quite wonderful. Surprise fun. Surprise money. Overall wonderful energy. This last week of the retro tho, ugh.
I need a reset.
And a hug.
And a foot massage.
And someone to listen to me cancer moon ramble for an hour. Let me comfortably cry for seven minutes and then cracks jokes till I laugh and call them an asshole and then cuddle.
And maybe eat cheese. Soft cheese. A nice triple cream with a glass of champagne. In bed.
Damn.
I am needy.
lul.

Posted by Ellygant
I didn’t ever think I had a Scorpio stare really. But this Virgo all da time asks me why I’m staring at him. That made me remember, that the aqua asked that often too. Both have made comments that no one has ever just stared at them like that lmao.
Damn I’m a cliche now.


Posted by Ellygant
I just feel real fucking grateful here lately. Cause I’m happy as shit every day, and not too long ago I never thought my life could be this way. Just being happy for being alive. Not for any other reason.

Posted by Ellygant
That timing tho.


Posted by Ellygant
My entire Christmas list is just esoteric books. I just bought a few for my birthday and I have to read them five times before they sink in but I just want more.
In certain passages, people describe that outside of physical life, be it in some afterlife or plane of existence not here, our souls don’t eat food. But hunger for knowledge like we would a passion or a five star meal, our favorites drink or a person. They describe ‘bundles’ of knowledge, as being what they sustain themselves with, not food.
Every time I come across that, I chuckle. Cause as much as I love me a fine wine, a good fuck and a memorable meal, the more I read, the more I see knowledge as the great sustainer.
And I suddenly feel, that being born to a librarian mother and philosopher father was the most perfect choice my soul has ever made. Dis cancer moon adores her cap moon mama and sag moon Dad.

Posted by EllygantPosted by PhoenixRising
"I always believed that my silence on several topics will be an advantage in the long run."
~Aishwarya Rai Bachchan
"I don't believe in proving a point to anybody. Nobody is that important."
~Aishwarya Rai Bachchan
For those moments I forget.....
I spent the early AM sick, waking up every hour or so. Conked out once 8 AM hit. Slept two hours. In that sleep I had a dream that I was being sent terrible messages which called me awful things. In the dream I showed the messages to my closest friend, (Cap/Gemini) and dream her told me to not respond and to not defend myself. Let the other person play out their misery and I decline to be pulled into it.
Woke up and opened up my web browser on my phone to look something up. DXP Page refreshes and I saw these quotes before I could even tap my search bar. 😆click to expand

Posted by EllygantPosted by PhoenixRisingPosted by Ellygant
My entire Christmas list is just esoteric books. I just bought a few for my birthday and I have to read them five times before they sink in but I just want more.
In certain passages, people describe that outside of physical life, be it in some afterlife or plane of existence not here, our souls don’t eat food. But hunger for knowledge like we would a passion or a five star meal, our favorites drink or a person. They describe ‘bundles’ of knowledge, as being what they sustain themselves with, not food.
Every time I come across that, I chuckle. Cause as much as I love me a fine wine, a good fuck and a memorable meal, the more I read, the more I see knowledge as the great sustainer.
And I suddenly feel, that being born to a librarian mother and philosopher father was the most perfect choice my soul has ever made. Dis cancer moon adores her cap moon mama and sag moon Dad.
*like*
*thinking out loud.... what good is knowledge if it isn't applied to life?*
For me, being able to apply knowledge to life is the marker that I’ve actually learned it, not just heard/read it.
I read a lot on philosophy, poetry and psychology all through my teens. All of those subjects have roots in the type of books I’m currently reading. Back then I recall reading but not understanding what a lot of it meant. Now after a good decade of life on me, I see I’ve made choices that I would have avoided had I understood what I was reading. I’ve gone back and flipped thru old books to find passages I remembered while reading a new book, and they click now in a way they didn’t before. And after that, applying them practically, connecting knowledge to my life and my life to a point of purpose, is more fluid.
Not constantly fluid. But more than before. 😆 there’s so much to learn in the world, which can transform how I perceive and experience it, I find it hard to comprehend how I’ll ever be able to be truly fixed, unchanging. Sorta my own tangent musing from your musing. 😄click to expand

Posted by Ellygant
...I love your pics for the Scorp season thread! Your visualization is so spot on. I’d die to see some of the art in your house. Does anyone visit a Gemini moons house?! 😆


Posted by elllle
I brought up marriage in jest with the Cap.
It was 100% a joke.
My stomach hurts now, I feel nauseous and wish I could delete the texts.
His response didnt bother me. It's all me. I was being playful.....and as soon as I sent it, I wanted to vomit...and my mood changed. Now I dont want to talk at all. I'm embarrassed. 😖

Posted by Ellygant
. Does language form perception? Or perception inform language?

Posted by ellllePosted by PhoenixRisingPosted by elllle
I brought up marriage in jest with the Cap.
It was 100% a joke.
My stomach hurts now, I feel nauseous and wish I could delete the texts.
His response didnt bother me. It's all me. I was being playful.....and as soon as I sent it, I wanted to vomit...and my mood changed. Now I dont want to talk at all. I'm embarrassed. 😖
I get this way when I acknowledge my feelings verbally, or put "out there" in words that I was impacted emotionally to someone I love. Strange, there person I should feel most comfortable sharing that with makes me feel the most uncomfortable.
That why actions > talking for me. If I don't say anything, I'm safe. I can just pretend you misunderstood my actions if things go sideways 😄.
It is a *topic* now 😭
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Posted by rayofnight
"A scared scorpio man is a turned on Scorpio man. Good job virgo.
What’s his moon again?"
This is very interesting. My Scorpio sun/moon husband used to tell me that I scare the shit out of him. I always wondered why his eyes lit up when he said that...

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
@PhoenixRising....you brought me right back to my 6th grade English/Lit class. We had to read the book and watch the whole Anne of Green Gables mini series. I was so obsessed with Anne Shirley and looked forward to class! Geez that was so long ago! Haven’t thought about that in ages. Thanks for the stroll down memory lane! 😁

Posted by Ellygant
It’s like as soon as it hit late November my mind jumped into 2019. Can’t. Stop. Planning.
Adjacently, I can always tell what the lesson for the next phase in my life is based around the dominant element around me in my support system. Earth and fire right now. Creativity and productivity. 2019 will be an adventure.
And now I suddenly see more clearly why Capricorn follows Sagittarius in the evolution of the zodiac. 😆 yesssss.


Posted by MysteriousDreamer
So yesterday I saw a therapist for the first time. I really don’t know what I was expecting to get out of it, but I can’t get over how cliche it was. Instead of focusing on what she was saying to me, I couldn’t help but think “wow, this is totally how I imagined it!” Although, it kind of unnerved me that she was filming me the entire time.....I mean it’s awkward enough talking about myself, but to do it in front of a camera is just ick!
I couldn’t really concentrate on what she was asking me because I was too busy observing the room and analyzing this lady to bits. I mean this total stranger is asking me all these personal questions and I don’t quite trust her yet. I wanted to be the one asking the questions of her. Typical scorp I guess. Lol. Years ago when I was a teenager I determined I suffer from social anxiety disorder and of course depression (a worldwide epidemic it seems). Well guess what I was diagnosed with? Surprise...surprise.... She did miss the most important diagnosis of all though....just plain old crazy! 😂


Posted by PhoenixRisingPosted by MysteriousDreamer
I couldn’t really concentrate on what she was asking me because I was too busy observing the room and analyzing this lady to bits. I mean this total stranger is asking me all these personal questions and I don’t quite trust her yet. I wanted to be the one asking the questions of her.
^^^This is why I don't work with Scorpios over the age of 9 anymore lol...click to expand
Posted by TheLadyScorpio
I love Scorpions because...
- of their passion, it is written in their blood
- there is a beautiful vulnerability within us for those worthy to discover
- we are one of the most awkward of individuals
- strength, that steely level of strength, utter determination
- clich? but we are intense and profound, boring? never, our conversations are meaningful with purpose
- cuts the b.s. in half and gets to the core of an issue
- witty, dark, sarcastic sense of humour
- we make sure we are amazing at everything 'everything' we do
- all in or all out, half-hearted, what is that?
- committed, with a high level of staying power
- self-control, private, discreet, and reserved without being aloof
- our hearts are so big, it encompasses, it engulfs, becoming one
- analytical with great investigative skills
- incredible depth, never ending
—

Posted by Oak
He's brought up that I'm not as upfront emotionally as he'd like me to be and I thought I came across emotional af. 😕

Posted by PhoenixRisingPosted by MysteriousDreamer
So yesterday I saw a therapist for the first time. I really don’t know what I was expecting to get out of it, but I can’t get over how cliche it was. Instead of focusing on what she was saying to me, I couldn’t help but think “wow, this is totally how I imagined it!” Although, it kind of unnerved me that she was filming me the entire time.....I mean it’s awkward enough talking about myself, but to do it in front of a camera is just ick!
I couldn’t really concentrate on what she was asking me because I was too busy observing the room and analyzing this lady to bits. I mean this total stranger is asking me all these personal questions and I don’t quite trust her yet. I wanted to be the one asking the questions of her. Typical scorp I guess. Lol. Years ago when I was a teenager I determined I suffer from social anxiety disorder and of course depression (a worldwide epidemic it seems). Well guess what I was diagnosed with? Surprise...surprise.... She did miss the most important diagnosis of all though....just plain old crazy! 😂
^^^This is why I don't work with Scorpios over the age of 12 anymore lol...click to expand

Posted by Ellygant
The only people we confuse or seem hidden from I think are maybe air moons. Otherwise we sorta radiate our emotions unintentionally. Again, we don’t feel boundaries between us and the world as strictly as others.
Posted by Ellygant
It does sound like you’re having a lovely time together tho. 🙂 Personally speaking I enjoy seeing you happy and thriving.click to expand

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
Today was very emotional. Idk what is wrong with me anymore? Got very overwhelmed at work today. Normally don’t let this crap bother me, but it was just one thing after another and I lost control. Just broke down crying. Luckily I was hidden behind my little cubicle so hopefully no one saw as I was trying to compose myself. Also a little down that this will be the first year I’ll miss our family Xmas eve party because I have to work. It just won’t be the same this year. Blah 😭
I know I’m a whiner...

Posted by Ellygant
My blood is like wine
Beating through these veins.
But no test for breathe
Administered by nervous blue light,
Nor transfiguration,
That references a body or a Christ,
Can qualify,
These beats.
It’s a drunken memory.
A laugh.
A sadness.
A flash.
A skip.
A meet.
A rhythm so distinct,
That all of time swallows up around me.
What was a flood of memory,
Hope,
Belief.
Each rising beat,
Shakes my muscles
Moves my body.
For when the wine of life floods my veins,
The floods of thought drain
All that remains
Is
My dancing
And here’s to 2018.

Posted by Ellygant
Air moons are the inverse. They pick apart, place, ruminate, detach, observe, reattach and then know/feel/decide.

Posted by Oak
Why the fudge am I not getting all your notifs?
Your gem moon be like:![]()

Posted by EllygantPosted by PhoenixRisingPosted by Ellygant
Air moons are the inverse. They pick apart, place, ruminate, detach, observe, reattach and then know/feel/decide.
I am going to have to reflect on this some more. I don't know if I've paid much attention to this process to lay it out in such a way. Before reading your thoughts on it, I would have said:
observe, pick apart, ruminate, "knows", decide, detach.....*several days or months later during an unrelated conversation or while reading a book*.... re attach, feels, experiences a difference sense of knowing.
I think that sense of a mini or pre decision that’s later amended is more your Gemini Moon flavor. One thing gemini has the other two don’t, is the mutable path. Mutable doesn’t work in a straight line (fixed) or a neatly ordered system (cardinal). It has to spin backwards before forwards, go up before going down to then go up even higher. Put down, to pick up, to finally let go.
That’s why mutable moons or suns feel like pure chaos to others sometimes. It’s not tho. It’s just the process. If anything, it allows mutables to access information more precisely, as the movement is very spiral like, which means it can quickly adapt experience to change, moreso than the other energies.click to expand

Posted by Ellygant
At the beginning of this month I was quite frustrated. My career and finances have been less than what I wanted them to be by this time, and the only person responsible for it being that way, is me. So I have been a bit moody on/off this month over it.
The last three days tho, I had one meeting each day that went perfect. When clients look at me in the eye, and for a moment, I see what it looks like when someone feels truly seen. That reaction, one of being acknowledged and accepted for themselves, that brings me back to why I chose to turn a hobby into a career this year. To share the feeling of self and optimism that I found in the work, with everyone who seeks it and needs it.

Posted by Ellygant
It is for me.
I don’t have to have a partner who talks about their feelings as often or readily as I would. But it does unsettle me when I know in my soul something is off emotionally, and the other person is obscuring it, whatever the reason. Part of it is insecurity (I’ve been lied to and gaslighted a lot) and part of it is an innate drive for providing support.


Posted by AnotherTaurusGuyReturns
There must be a lot of Scorp madness, 362 pages! Where is @theladyscorpio these days?

Posted by Oak
So... the scorp and I are together ☺️



Posted by elllle
"Me? Bake something?..."





Posted by Luny7
I love being a Scorpio rising! People get interesting impressions of me.. and it's always powerful, my face, eyes, how I carry myself, passion in everything I do.
On the other side, not everyone understands the deepness of our soul and mind.

Posted by MysteriousDreamer
I miss the innocence of childhood...
Candy turns into cigarettes. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Getting high meant swinging on a playground. Protection meant wearing a helmet. The worst thing you could get from guys were cooties. Race issues meant who ran the fastest. War was just a card game. The only drug you knew was cough medicine. The most pain and hurt you felt were from skinned knees. Goodbyes only meant until tomorrow.
And we couldn’t wait to grow up....
Posted by VitalePosted by Luny7
I love being a Scorpio rising! People get interesting impressions of me.. and it's always powerful, my face, eyes, how I carry myself, passion in everything I do.
On the other side, not everyone understands the deepness of our soul and mind.
My Scorpio rising gives me a wicked
Bitch face. I come off totally unapproachable even though I’m thinking about something colorful and fun. I embrace it though , I find solace in my own bubble without disruptionsclick to expand
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I'm all on board for having lunch on the patio with you and Nights.
I find it funny that you picked 2 people who have opposite suns AND opposite moons, an entire universe in a nutshell there.
All the coaching in the world won't make me less oblivious or less direct and more...idk enticing? It's interesting cuz a Scorpio friend told me many years ago that my whole problem is how approachable and friendly I am, replaces any tension needed for things to happen...with this sisterly familiarity. Up to anyone's guess why the dark cloud follows me, would've been cool if I had at least luck at cards as the old saying goes.
Happy birthday btw! I'm not sure when it is and it's Scorpio season so I'm using this opportunity to wave and wish you the best.