Scorpio avoidance

I'm still on ice with my scorpio sweetie, but I wanted to ask about this issue for a while. During our courtship, which was quite like a "call of the wild" rodeo...little scorpio tries to bite the fast, fun loving Leo one day, then the brazen Leo tries to swat her paw at the fast running Scorpio another, we both began a certain form of avoidance relating to reading/hearing each other's emails/voicemails. It seemed as the emotions grew more intense, and esp if there was conflict, I would avoid reading his emails for a few days, due to some kind of fear. Maybe rejection, but many times, fear it was getting better.

He too confided he was fearful of reading mine, though he wouldn't delete them. Said he was always afraid he had hurt or angered me or I would say something hurtful to him (like rejection). We took turn being weenies. Now, becuase I replied in a text a few weeks ago in anger, seemingly hurting him, he did not the email I sent after explaining. (I have email confirmation). So, the avoidance continues....have any other scorp's experienced this?

My curiosity always gets the better of me. I'd at least read it, even if I didn't reply.

Believe me, Exo, I know you are right. We did openly discuss the fear of email reading just a few weeks ago. Who knew just a few days later, he would revert to it again? I have made a few attempts at contact last week...phone message, text, emails...no go. He withdrew...my text really must've hurt him. sigh...

BGP, don't contact him anymore. Head games they play. What a drag.

Exo, LOL. ambushing...?I DO have a scorpio moon, after all 😉 But no,I won't do that. And yes, Pathfinder, I will not make any further efforts. My first email said what a twat he is, which was my initial reaction. I guess I should consider myself luckyhe didn't read it, My 2nd, however, was my apology for the snotty text. But, alas, he hasn't read that either.

I accept that I cannot force anyone to do anything, but I DID have to clean my side of the street with the apology. I feel I have done that and have no guilt on my conscience. No further contact whatsoever. And even if he does come around, there is no way in hell I can ever accept this kind of amputation again, so since I can't trust tht won't happen,well...

I have a subscription for an email tracking service that is foolproof in tracking the date, time location etc of when email is read, whether the email is read on a mobile device or not. He has not read any of them. We live in seperate cities, so face to face not so easy. We are both just like every other human who is engaging in love/dating..fearful of getting hurt. We both haven run away and come back. We always come back...but this time, the deep freeze is much different than before. As coincidences would have it, I have come to the point where I am/was ready to be 1000% honest and upfront with him about my feelings, but.....now he got offened and went into his shell. He has not done this in a year. So, it is what it is.

UPDATE: well the little pecker head finally read my most recent email today. Got the notification from my tracking system. Haven't heard from him, but its nice to see his got some balls up to read what I had to say.

10-4 on that, Exo. I was feeling real controlling this morning, trying to figure out ways to get get him to "hear" me. I know I cannot control another human to do or feeling anything but I was becoming obsessive. (Shocker!). Then it hit me that I was in fear. I was in fear that this is the end and when I get into fear, I try to control, to get a desired outcome. Having this awkening gave me peace and I started to relax. Half hour later, I got the email confirmation. Just goes to show "Letting go" works 🙂

BGP.....I have let go to a great extent, but not sure it's gotten me anywhere.....perhaps I've let go too much?

Never sure what to do with scorp....they say they need to know how much you care, but i've also read that
if you "chase" they run....so what's a girl to do.