Got Jealous with My Taurean Girl - Want her back

This one is a bit different.I and my partner had decided not to have kids, as she didnt want any. Reasons are absurd. I had a bull proposing to be last valentine. We had our blissful times. We both are in committed relationship but with other partner. We came together and made magic. She promised me that she wants my baby. I told her to hold on as her career had just started.Last November Guilt hit her. And since then she stopped saying the simple words "I Love You". And kept saying no more physical contact. It all started with her boyfriend suddenly taking royal care of her. She started feeling that she is cheating him and she is not worth his love. I love kids but cant talk to my partner on it, since 8 years of relationship with my partner. I know her too well to try thhis topic. This Girl gave me a hope of a baby and took it away. I was crushed. Asked her about it she just said no to kids or physical contact. I went through hell in Decemeber 2012, but a there was a light at the end of the tunnel. January 1st week she is tested positive for pregnancy. Her boyfriend feels its his.
Now I was so happy, wanted to carry her in my arms and thank her for it. But by then her boyfriend has taken control of her movements. I was unable to meet her, or talk to her freely. She started telling me things about her boyfriend taking good care of her. I started groqing jealous, coz I am not able to take care of her. Jealosy fueled and the volcano bursted. I started targetting her boyfriend for small reasons where he was not there to take care of her. I had never done this before. I never wanted her to break up with him. But jealousy made me the worst human being I could become.
She reacted to this, saying it was my mind playing games. Whenever I have to meet her I have to meet with him. This put me into a very uncomfortable situation. I openly told her the same and also told her that her boyfriend is trying to get rid of me as a friend. I didnt know that he was also listening into the same call. The Next day we met again. Things were cold. She told me that she doesn't want to be associated with me in any way infront of her boyfriend. Her boyfriend does'nt know anything about our relationship said, if she is fine with you I am fine with you. That evening I apologized and I felt what jealousy can do to a human being. I asked her for one last chance and she gave it to me. She said " Once more if you hurt me, that is the end". today is the 2nd day and no calls.

@LovewithTaurean

She chose "loyalty"..."certainty"... and "stability" over you.

You stated : "That you never wanted her to break up with him."
You stated: "I started targeting her boyfriend for small reasons."

It appears as if you were playing mind games.

With Taurus women, if you're unsure about what you want...please, simply don't waste our time.

Where exactly were you trying to take this?

What's your zodiac sign?

Posted by TaurusBull1977
@LovewithTaurean

She chose "loyalty"..."certainty"... and "stability" over you.

You stated : "That you never wanted her to break up with him."
You stated: "I started targeting her boyfriend for small reasons."

It appears as if you were playing mind games.

With Taurus women, if you're unsure about what you want...please, simply don't waste our time.

Where exactly were you trying to take this?

What's your zodiac sign?

When we started we both knew this wont go beyond and above. We both had made up our minds that we would not jeopardise our current relationships. I crossed that line, she never did. My Bad.

The relationship started with too much heat and then it changed. Every relationship changes after a while. It came way to early for me to react.

I agree Jealousy clouded my mind and I played some stupid mind games. I felt I was not being treated right in my insecure, fickle ego trip mindset. After I spoke to her the last time, everything evaporated from my head.

She just made me feel how much she loves me and I was a fool to treat her this way. Now I feel I should give her some Peace.

Being invisibile trying to get her happiness by trying to clear her issues with her loving sister. She loves her sister alot and I just want to get them to be together.

My Actions will speak for my insensible words I used. I may not be around to reap the fruits of the Seeds I sow now.

I am a Gemini. A 2 Faced fool.