I said TOOOOO much and now I am in the freezer

My Taurus and I have been trying to work things out...from long distance...both of us talking about what we want from the other and how life could/should be.

We have stayed in touch regularly for a decade, have kids together, but haven't actually had a relationship in well over a decade. We have talked for years about getting back together but never were close enough (we live in different countries now) and we had some trust issues so no one was willing to take the step.

For the last 2 or 3 months we had been talking everyday, sometimes for hours, generally focusing on the idea of actually getting back together and making things work.

Two weeks ago, we were talking about the future and starting to get specific and he asked me about my plans over the next year. I told him about my job, and some up coming changes.....and that I wanted to get married. I was joking...sort of...I really just meant that I was not interested in dating or "trying" things out. I wanted him to see that I was serious and after all this time committed to making it work.

I haven't heart from him since. This isn't a guy I just met or am "dating," we have 14 years and kids between us. But clearly I said the wrong thing.

Since, I sent a little light, "this is what im doing today" sort of email every morning and after a week of no response, backed off to sending only two the next week. But I am now at 2 weeks without so much as a response. Since we have discussed that the issue for me that split us in the first place was the disappearnce without warning or word or reassurance, this is really troubling to me.

Now what? Do i tell him I was sort of joking and just want to see where this takes us? Do I go back to the light emails? Do nothing and wait for God knows how long? It is emotionally exhausting.

Do you lady. After over ten years and children worrying over every word uttered and whether or not it irks Himself is a bit moot, no?
He will or he will not. The question is can you stand without?
You already answered that question. Get to it. 🙂

The thing that is tough for me is that the whole Taurus running off to think about things...to me...is crazy. He then shows up weeks or months later, back on the scene and is surprised that I have gotten mad, written him off and moved on. Then it starts again. I am trying not to write him off if he is just thinking it through. But how the hell do you tell?

I have been doing me all along, I am just tired of doing me alone.

Understood but no man can make a woman happy unless she already is. If he wants to be the proverbial fart in a skillet that is on him. How much you going to put up with? How many times the kiddos going to wave goodbye to their father? How many buckets of tears will you shed pinning it all on one person who keeps giving a maybe. The man that should be the anchor. Not the sadness.
I am not implying you are weak or he, but he is getting away with an awful lot of unnacceptable shit. And why? Because he can.
Loving a man hard and well forgives much. Even so. There is a line.
Choice is yours of course, as it always is. Think about yourself. The children. None of you bit players by any means."

Truth.

Yehh baby! Grab you some happy woman. And take this banana bread with you for the kids. My winter arse thanks you. 😄