Just like an STD .

Im back baby 😛

Those LIARS! They said if I took the pills twice a day that Aries would clear right up. ROFLOL I'm teasing. Welcome back babe. *kissing cheek*

Ouch!!! LOL poor aries, good thing im not one of them.

LOL You're safe then. C'mere you big pumpkin. Missed ya.

* hug * 🙂 lol. whats new vb ?

Oh hug me like you MEAN it. LOL Ohhh, you know. Just being my usual self. Scary, huh? 🙂 Anything new with you?

*super hug almost killing vb * well when dirtbike riding friday and I worked on the chevelle saturday lol

YES! My ribs creaked that time. Perfect. I'm stronger than I look. 🙂 Sounds like a good weekend actually.

lol my mom hates that, I love running up and almost snapping her in half 🙂

yes it was good! altho I see a baby rattle snake. I wasnt scared tho this time.

I always loved it when the kids flew at me and hugged me extra tight and squashed me proper. My son can lift me off the ground now though. Yikes.
Nahh, just stay CLEAR of the suckers!

lol thats what I do! I grab my mom and pick her up and say we are leaving in front of her friends lol. libra's dont know how to shut up!

lol I felt bad cuz I kinda ended its life.... it was so small and it did it lil head like action.

but then I though Its a snake your fear! then I burned out of it. IM a monster I know .

I hate to break this to you K, but I'm a farm kid. Eradicating something dangerous to life and limb is a necessary thing. That isn't being a monster, that's smart. You weren't using the neighbors dog for pellet gun practice for heavens sakes. You offed a small rattler that would become a BIG rattler.

LOL I like hugs like that. From everyone actually. ( Well not strangers on the street..) Hold me close and mean it. None of that polite butt pooched out dainty business either. Full contact.

lol well.... the dog thing, Nevermind. I know,but still it was cool because I wasnt scared. it was just a snake and I was really close to it.

before I would be scare and wanting to jump and run away and that kinda stuff....

Ahha. Faced your fear and conquered it. Well done. 🙂

*hand up* I don't want to hear ONE WORD about the dog. Just don't do it AGAIN. 😛

lol kinda ! I dont know yet. like if I see them IM fine but it I dan near step on them that freaks me out!

lol I was kidding about the dog 🙂 I love dogs. their the best!

You'd be out of your mind if almost stepping on a rattler didn't frighten or unnerve you. Cripes man, they're poisonous.
PHEWWWWW I thought you had some skeleton rattling around there. 🙂

yea that would suck! I'd jump so high and run so fast! lol.

so guess what vb? this kinda sucks but oh well. I have depression and Adhd. it explains alot.

On the up side, and I do mean this. It has a name, and can be treated. Easily in fact. 🙂

yea I know, but its affected my whole life since day one.... school,work,friends,relation ships,self esteem,confidence.

Idk it just explains alot thats happened in my life.

Yes, it's relieving in a way, and opens up the gateway for a lot of questions that need answered. You would not believe the way the light shined in on me when I found out my oldest girl was bi-polar with anxiety. SUCH an AH-HA! day, let me tell you. Then it was a quick flip to "Well then, let's be helping."

I see thats cool, its rough tho. cuz right now im in a rut. but well see! so really I have my ex to thank for all this.
cuz ive been getting help the last month. I wouldnt have got help with it, If I didnt have her and my brother too hurt me like they did.

You know what budro? When someone hurts me like that, really wounds me to the quick, after I am done being said I stand up straight and tall and give a great big FUCKAYOOOOOOOOOOO! to whoever it is. Honest I do. Then I ruthlessly root them out like a cancer and drop them in the abyss. Now I know that is your brother, and heaven knows family deserves a good throttling as surely as other people in our lives, but it is up to you. How you feel about the matter. If he is not a good influence, buh-bye. I did that with my sister when she was choosing substances over family, not that I didn't love her, not that I didn't care. But what she became was no good for anyone around her. She had to sink on her own. Do you see?

'sad', not 'said' Damned typos. *shaking fist at screen*

I wondered why I had that burning sensation. 🙂

LMAO Does it hurt when you pee? 😉

I pretty much told him he's dead too me. that I want nothing to do with him. that blood is alot thicker then water.
but he did want he wanted and didnt care. Im sorry vb. MY brother did pot for a while...so I know where you are coming from.

as for that bitch called my ex.... I hate her guts, If I saw her burning.....I come up and dump over gas on her.

she is like satan too me. I hate her so much....

my lady and talk too every friday says I need to forgive my brother and stop wising for karma, because what if cancer came and kill him... it would be on me since I wished it... she said that IM a lot more pure.

the hard part is that im not like that....I cant forgive if its that bad....I fell like if you mess with me you have it twice coming back too you.

Then let it burn, but do not let it eat at you. Be a better person. Letting it fester is letting their shit behavior WIN. And warriors can't be having that shitola go on, now can they?

lol thats the promblem.... I dwell on it. thinking,and thinking. It makes me so mad.Its turns into rage.

When I can control myself no longer, I go out and scream until I cannot scream any more. Or I punch something. Repeatedly. No joke. When I was having a very bad moment I was doing both while I was taking a shower. The pain was too big, it was too much and all I could do was lash out like an animal. Then I cry like the girl I am and hold onto something tight. A pillow or stuffed toy usually. But don't bottle it up. It has to go SOMEWHERE for heavens sakes.

I see vb... mine gets bottled up.... its what fuels my fire. its easy to go from mad to rage mode....nobody can stop it.
my mind goes blink and it keeps repeating why I am angery and mad thus fueling the rage.

lol this isnt funny but my blood presure goes from normal to high rocket. they said I was it the stroke range...kinda scary.

oh well... its not so bad. cuz I went into rage mode with my brother like 4 months ago.... almost breaking this nose and arm.

but I got held dowm by my dad.....

Posted by soap
lol thats the promblem.... I dwell on it. thinking,and thinking. It makes me so mad.Its turns into rage.

I agree with VB,and would also like to mention you are letting these two assholes control you and your happiness.they did not just hurt you once,they hurt you everyday....because you are letting them.you are better than they are! you found out in one day they are both shit.be glad you know,move on and forget them both!they neither one deserve your attention.
yes you were betrayed in a horrible way,but you have to quit letting them rob you of your happiness!!!!
in the end YOU will win,because you will be successful in love and life and they both will probably still be steaming piles of crap.

Exactly. Festering, smelly piles of da poo with many blue bottle flies buzzing around. Hey! Maybe not even shit worthy, maybe the fly vomit ON the poo. Or the amoebas on the flies butts that are trundling on the crap. Ahhh, I could go on for weeks.

Like VB,when I have been hurt beyond belief,I have exploded physically and then cried and let the peace come in.
before you get over this you are going to have to get it out without harming yourself or someone else.
find something old and take a damn sledge hammer to it,and yell at it everything you're feeling.
hell,then build a fire and throw a couple of things in it that represent them.do you want me to come up there and help? 😉

Posted by venusianbull
Exactly. Festering, smelly piles of da poo with many blue bottle flies buzzing around. Hey! Maybe not even shit worthy, maybe the fly vomit ON the poo. Or the amoebas on the flies butts that are trundling on the crap. Ahhh, I could go on for weeks.

yes!

Yeh! That's what we need! A huge bonfire sounds absolutely perfect. And so does some Aries sandwich squashing via Bulls. HAHAHHAHAAHA RUN BOY, we're gonna take ya DOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWN.

thanks guys! 🙂 well its staying true that you two are my favorite!

Posted by venusianbull
Yeh! That's what we need! A huge bonfire sounds absolutely perfect. And so does some Aries sandwich squashing via Bulls. HAHAHHAHAAHA RUN BOY, we're gonna take ya DOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWN.

😛

You won't say that tomorrow, baked beans and cornbread for dinner tonight. BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA LMAO.

Posted by soap
thanks guys! 🙂 well its staying true that you two are my favorite!

♥

holy shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously ?

love you guys 🙂

Ahhhh to be 18 again. Wait a minute..what the hell am I saying? Someone slap me.

Now would I lie to you about baked beans with thick cut maple bacon, studded with chopped onion and drizzled with molasses and real homemade cornbread? Bull does not joke about food. 😄

Love you too K. —

lol holy cow this is going to suck.... I know what my new fear is. 😛

Posted by soap
love you guys 🙂

luv you to sugar.🙂

yeah,no way in hell I want to be 18 again....

24,yes.I'd fix some stuff. 😉

Posted by soap
lol holy cow this is going to suck.... I know what my new fear is. 😛

bull poots?

lol I wish I was past this age.

lol NO my new fear is chicks farting.... its just not right. and you just heard what vb is having for dinner.

so its going to be like this......

ROFLMAO Awwww, don't be askeered of me. It'll be ALRIGHT. *snicker, giggle*