Taurus driving me nuts ?

we been seperated for 3 mths... after 2.6 yrs .. i broke up w him end of sept silly fight... no contact 7 weeks.. hus dad is sick so called to check.. after 7 weeks... he is angry why i call now etc etc.. anyway sliwly he decided yes he wants to work it out ... but then not much on hos part wants me to chase him... i dont .. he acts cool... i feel like its all bs .. i confront hom we argue... i keep saying takes two etc.. he gets fristriating feels its me who broke up ets etc.... in the end... i keep saying maybe better we let it be then since he wont do anything etc... he gives me no response... everytime i say ok move on he acted shitty etc...
so i call him... he speaks nicely etc ask me wat i am doing fir nye etc .. keeps talking bout the past and wat went wring in out rekationship and its me.. i was not chilled and demanding... and i was like why bring it up now etc. anyway so ... he then says his roomate is gone os and he is cleaning then off to hos sisters. ok no worries.
i felt strange i decide to go hos place... i dont do that normally... but since we seperated i dine it twice.
i was approaching and he is with another woman ... he saw me .. i turned around going back to my car. then i decide to go back and he went into his apt. i calked him numerous times to face me and admit... i felt he was stringin me along even on the ph just before. he dont answer dont repky to text nothing no matter what.
i was feeling hurt as hell... i was feeling lied to and not worth the truth. i was destroted that he couldnt face me and give me that. so after i cursed him on the phone msgs... i cursed him badly.
then he calls me first thing in the mirning... from unknown no he called me 7 x ... i didnt answer... i cursed him after again via msgs.. no reply or call.
wtf? why would he call but mit face me on the night... what did he want by calling me? i am curious now ... i want to know if just want to feel me up see how i am etc... why do you think he would be a coward on the night but then call? if he moved on why not ignore me or tell me admit it.

appreciate your advice....opinion... i am trying to make sense of it all ... thats how i process things.. then i can be poeaceful.

I know I am to move on..but this is how i deal with it...

I have a feeling he ddint expect me to see this.. and to get him cought... I know he loved me... we had a pretty turbulent relationship cause we were both stubborn.. he chased me everytime... alwasy wanted us to be happy and not argue but we were to stubborn...
anyway... i guess with this seperation I wanted us to learn.. but i guess he was negative in his head during the sepreation and kept hating me for braking up.. even when i got back to him he was always sayng he doesnt want to go back to how it was.. arguing etc etc... and i agree... it wasnt good but it required both of to put effort however he was deflated...

i just dotn feel he can lose feeling for me that fast considering how much he loved me and chased me.. and never gave up during 2.6 yrs... only when it took 7 weeks of no contact he said he... woke up and realised how i tretaed him.. and didnt want feel liek that... but yea still he could have told me know even on that day.. he could have faced me and said its done or... he is sorry but he s moved on or something.

not be a coward and then call me... wat for? he knows i will think he was with her ... he only called me 1st thing in the morning when he stuffed up vefore and he would keep calling.

i guess what i want to know is .. would a taurus feel bad now? would he realize what he lost? because even tho i was demanding and little bitchy.. it was cause he was stubborn.
i have to say when we were tghtr.. he did treat me well.. but i took it for granted... i didnt return much as he gave... i am not making excuses for all this, but you have to admit your wrongs and why thigns became as they are...

i do love him and regret being like that.... and am not sure if he will ever realise that.. and will he ever realize what he has done now and feel bad becasue there is no denial now... he knows i saw him...
i hope he is hurt bout it at least then i would know he loved me and it wasnt all a lie even if we are not tgthr.

so I am asking for real insight.. not just tell me move on.. i know that... but this is how i do that.
I am trying to but I cant becasue i know i done him wrong and feel this is my karma...it hurts casue i feel i deserved it.
but at least i wished he belived me in the end that i wanted to make it better... but i guess he was allready cold about it.

i mean can taurus loose their feelings so fast 3 mths... and forget ... he told me he only had 2 loves , 1