Will he come back?

My taurus Boyfriend of a year broke it off with me after dating for over a year.

The series of events were as follows.

First he insisted we breakup and remain friends which i was completely against, but he was stubborn and kept saying he will just stay in the rel if we cant be friends so i agreed wih the intention that i can slowly distance myself because ive had bad experience with being friends in the past. And the reason we brokeup was because he felt like our relationship wasn't ideal, ( either too fiery or dull), quarter life crisis ( family and career). He said he still loves me as do i. And that's one of he reasons he wants to keep me close he said. He also said that he wants to call it a breakup because he doesn't know if he will come back, but if he does then it's always safe.

I love him with all i have. And i know i haven't wronged in anyway, i was supportive and flexible and the kind who gives space.




HERE IS MORE.....

I have seen him only thrice in the past 10 days due to a lot of travelling from both ends... and this was what happened....

Last week i went for a cousins wedding and he insisted to drop me I said no, he kept insisting...
And even took me to my fav restaurant, i said i would like to manage on my own. He got angry and said i can see you are being independent and not sharing your personal life.
That evening when i left he sent me a message saying " apologise to the bride for putting her best friend through SH*T i mean it"
I said " nobody knows because you told me not to tell" and he goes" yeah let them have their day, so what if we couldn't have ours. Sorry having emotional pangs"

When i got back he insisted we meet up , and took a half day from the internship took me out to this fancy place for lunch and would occaisionally casually put his hand around my shoulder ( not something he did as we dated, but still) i would walk out of it politely.
Then on our way back he almost met with an accident thrice and the third time i hugged him because i got so startled and said " heyyy what's happening" softly, he stopped and turned and said " can i get a hug please". Then that evening he flipped because I deleted my facebook ( due to other issues) and I said i understand he had to breakup due to personal reasons and he goes "listen i had to breakup because of how we were together." Later i told him why i deleted it and he says " I have your back, when i said i love you i meant it whether we are together or n

.....together or not, i understand"

Then he was going out of town and he kept saying " keep in touch im leaving" I said have a good journey and take care, then he goes " me and your best friend will be sharing the same room arent you worried ( winks) and i'm like nooo and he goes imagine us having a steamy day and i laughed and he goes no, ew her bf will probably thrash my lungs out.

We haven't been messaging, but he told me he reached and then i go get some rest, and he goes yeah we came to sleep in our rooms, oh btw inase you are concerned we arent sharing the same room.

And like i said we havent messaged in a while but that night he randomly messages my name lovingly and says MY IDIOT, GOODNIGHT. I was so confused so i didnt reply and then he called me immediately and makes casua phone talk and hangs up, the next day too he tried to make small talk ( othing worth overthinking about)

Yesterday,
I got a haircut so i changed my dp.

He loves short hair, so he messaged me saying omg I love the picture, soooo gooood.
Then i just check my whatsapp and he has changed his picture to a picture of the both of us ..

I really want him back.

He is always asking me for hugs ( but i deny it because i dont want to give it with mixed intentions its not healthy for both of us) he is always telling me how good looking i am and that, he hates it when other men stare at me.

And then there are times he is a little cold to me.

So i dont know what to do,
I will do anything to get him back but truth is i didnt do anything wrong so i ant even apologise and beg ( i have tried convincing him but i dont want to push him, i respect him and i want him to want this rel on his own 🙂)