Will he see me desperate after this smal incident?

Okay,so i talked to my virgo at 10:30pm and he was coming home from work,obviously he was tired so i said goodbye to him.
But,he doesn't know yet that i got a really bad insomnia.And at 2am,i was tired,and i was just looking for my PJ's,i could swear i saw his name on the screen that he was calling,and then saw "Call Ended".I called him back,but he didn't pick up which is typical for him cause when he's sleeping he never picks up the phone.I checked the "Missed Calls" but i didn't see that he called me at that time.
Will he see me as desperate for annoying him at that hour,when he told me that he has a lot of work to do? Or will he see me as a little crazy for 1.Seeing things on my phone(i could REALLY swear he called me),and for 2.Me being a little crazy with my insomnia.

I know virgo's judge nonstop and always by our actions,and i'm kinda afraid that he'd think i'm desperate or a little crazy.

Also,i know i should of taken sleeping pills but i didn't have any cause i didn't have sleeping problems ti'll recently now a few weeks ago.

So...how will he take it?Annoying,pushy?Or will he understand? (ps : he really really hates it when people call him when he's sleeping)

ps : now it's around 3am.So no,i didn't have the chance to talk to him yet.

Posted by BeatrixBecks

... cause when he's sleeping he never picks up the phone

Posted by BeatrixBecks

(ps : he really really hates it when people call him when he's sleeping)

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Twice you mention this. Sounds like you have a lot of experience in trying to interupt his sleep. Just a couple sentences over a paragraph and two times this crosses your mind to make comment on it.

Obviously .. you have some sort of guilt about it, or it wouldn't wiegh so heavy.

1. you were probably imagining that he tried to contact you, and you were probably imagining it the other (times) you woke him up.

2. you are smothering ... back that off a tad, and not just with Virgo .. any person

3. you sound a little crazy to me .. I mean, seriously .. who watches the computer to see if someone messages them? Most people live.

Posted by Kaleidescorp44
He'll understand.

I doubt that.

It sounds like he doens't like it very much being interupted in his sleep by her, so I doubt it that he'll understand.

He will however most likely tolerate it, which Virgos do very well .. which brings up another issue that is created by this tolerance > enabler

The insomnia is a perfectly good excuse.

@P-Angel

No,i don't call him at night,but i always get a feeling of guilt for each small mistake i make.(this is a flaw of mine,i can beat up myself for days/weeks/YEARS for just forgetting to say 'thank you' to someone or stuff like that,don't ask why)

And i usually like don't call people,cause what i would despite the most is to bother someone,so that's why i was making out of this such a big deal.

And what can i do during restless hours?I did a lot of things last night,turn the computer on,watch TV,listen to music,write a little , but i don't know what "those who have a life" do at 3am tuesday so sorry.And yesssss,i'm crazy,and proud!🙂
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To the rest of the guys,thanks for the positive comments,well i guess he understood,it's now 10:30am and i did get a few hours of sleep,and i talked to the virgo over the phone.

And yeahhh,i realize it was kind of a lame topic i posted so sorry if i bored some of you with it ^^'

wtf .. you thank the others for positive responses and alls they did was ignore the issue and make pacifying comments, rather than speak their mind.


Do you even realize what makes negative/positive energy?

Because lying, even if it's silent/never spoken vs speaking truths, even if they are raw ...


Ignorance may be bliss to the ignorant ..

You ask if he'll see you desperate after this small incident of waking him then go on to describe that waking him is a no-no that you know is wrong to do.

It's not something he'll understand, he won't accept insomnia as an excuse ... he will tolerate it because that's what Virgos do.

That is the truth ....


Yes, you seem desperate .... and it's only a matter of time before you look totally desperate rather than a tad.

If you want to ignore that so you can bliss NOW, fine .. suffer later.

Or, you can actually "hear" what I'm saying so you can be fine later as well.

Because I speak over your head, doesn't make it wrong .. it makes it incomprehensiable to you .. however, it's still the truth.

@P-Angel :
Well yes,i thank positive comments cause i'm happy to sometimes hear that not everyone has a bad opinion about what i do.If you have something bad to say go ahead then,that okay,he won't take it,he will just tolerate it,end of story.

And i was just wondering if he'll see me desperate,but jeez,i don't know,ever heard of "live and let live" ? Okay,you posted your opinion but calling me crazy doesn't solve anything.Maybe i ain't normal,but don't fucking judge me.

As i see you're smart but using smartness now just to tell me how much of a bitch i am and what stupid questions i ask doesn't really make any sense. If you just came to the topic to tell me how much of an ignorant and desperate motherfucker i am then go ahead and spit all your insults . I asked only if will he find me as desperate or will understand , i didn't ask for you nor anyone to judge me .

@DyTryin

I guess he'll add it to the "list that annoys the hell out of him" . And if he ends it cause of my flaws or mistakes then he shall go ahead cause i can't change into a perfect barbie doll,i am annoying but my friends and other people i know mostly love me for my flaws.
And amazing poem 🙂 . Really pretty and creative way of describing a virgo and aqua.

Posted by BeatrixBecks

Well yes,i thank positive comments cause i'm happy to sometimes hear that not everyone has a bad opinion about what i do.If you have something bad to say go ahead then,that okay,he won't take it,he will just tolerate it,end of story.

And i was just wondering if he'll see me desperate,but jeez,i don't know,ever heard of "live and let live" ? Okay,you posted your opinion but calling me crazy doesn't solve anything.Maybe i ain't normal,but don't fucking judge me.

lol, you don't get it, do you?

Ignorance, meaning .... responses that side-step the issue isn't positive.

And when you get someone to tell you the truth, you call it judgement.

so, the reality is ... you want someone to pat you on the back, and hold you gently while you whine about how aweful it is .. and not really anything that even resembles reality.


I get that .. carry on then, be ignorant, why should I care? It's not me awake all hours of the night because I might something stupid and too dumb myself to recognize that someone else might actually be trying to help me .. yeah, that would be you.

So much for the astrology write ups that say Aquas are intelligent ....

What is aweful now?I asked what his reaction would be , and you can't know if he did understand or just see me as desperate.

And okay,telling me i have no life,that i'm not intelligent , aren't judging? Anyways,it was a question just to know the damn reaction or thoughts of the virgo,and some people say a virgo would understand,some say they wouldn't. But what you say doesn't mean that it's 100% true just because you either are smarter or have more experiences with virgo,i don't know.


And why judge after one person a whole zodiac sign?!DAMNIT,okay,maybe i ain't the smartest,i'm hard to handle,i'm an uncaring,aweful,insane,bitchy asshole and motherfucker,now be happy that i recognize how big of a motherfucker i am and don't judge everyone who's aqua,if you wanna say that someone's not intelligent then say that only i am fucking stupid,don't pick on each aqua.It may be only just me who's insecure,psycho,arogant.

And what were you helping me with?If i would recognize that i'm a bitch,what would that help with?I personally don't see how were you trying to help me,i'm sorry but as i saw things,you were just telling me how fucked up of a person i can be,how desperate,ignorant,stupid i am.Okay,if i recognize this,WHAT'S THE HELP? Nothing.Cause i saw each damn word of this in myself before i even talked to you.

ps : it does seem that virgo did understand,so don't always think you're the only one right but others can be also right.So ,thanks P-Angel for the honesty and aknowledging me of how stupid i am.I hope you have a nice day. 🙂

Posted by gemtaur
"And if he ends it cause of my flaws or mistakes then he shall go ahead cause i can't change into a perfect barbie doll"

P's point is that you are in DENIAL. Being in denial is never good. Whatever your sign.

You post a desperate, crazy thread last night and this morning you say: oh well, que sera sera. That's great. It's just that it's entirely INCONSISTENT with how you were feeling last night (and from what you wrote, apparently it's not the first time you've felt this way).

Being an Air sign myself, I know how we can pretend to ourselves to not care by switching off; but when we do that, Beatrix, we're lying to ourselves. That's what you're doing. I know this bc I used to do this all the time myself until I decided one day that I didn't deserve to subject myself to this form of suffering. P's right: Truth is power.

Once you've cooled down. Come back to this thread and read it again. You'll get it, you stubborn Aqua lol

Okey,i'll try to cool down.And if truth is power,then at the moment i don't know the truth. I got bad mood swings and i never could describe my own person like "serious,funny,desperate,etc" , so i'll try to cool down and rather ask the virgo himself if do i seem desperate.Cause the people around us are the mirror that reflect us.And,if i can't describe myself i guess i'd wait to cool down as you told me,and instead of me trying to figure out/lie to myself/scratch my head in the thoughts that what kind of person does he think i am,i'd simply ask him.Anyways,communication are the key to solve a problem.

So,thanks for telling me to cool down. Here you're right,but if i don't know my own truth,i don't have the power.Maybe i have either a PMS day or i got one of those moody days when a minute i act desperate,then i'm uncaring,then depressed then happy,then crazy.I change from one day to the other,so i can't say if i'm in denial or not,i'd rather ask maybe the people around me,like real friends who know me in person.Or i shall call a consouler if i would get that confused about myself,😆

so...sorry to everyone for being lame and stupid and posting this kind of stuff on dxp , and sorry P-Angel that i was a jerk,you just posted what you think is right ,but in one thing you were right that i'm a person in denial cause i ain't sure ever of the truth,so i guess i'd just find out the truth if truth is power. Maybe because i don't

Maybe because i don't know the truth makes me sometimes seem insecure or maybe even desperate,i ain't sure if in real life i show it but inside i do feel like it sometimes,but it always passes away after a while,it may be either denial of what you told me about or the switching off.Or i'm an insane bipolar person.(j/k) Anyways,i will just talk to my friends and my virgo bff's and bf,how do they see me as,and also talk to my close and honest friends. So,i hope you forgive me ,and i'll try to cool down.

Thank you all for the comments,i sometimes need a hard punch so i'd pop back into reality and not be afraid of the truth.

ugh.

what's the deal with delusional pisces always trying to school people on denial? just try to ignore them when they do that.

I also have Aries moon 🙂 , and i got also 3 planets in Pisces so that may be a good answer that i can be sometimes emotional,lol.(but i think that's a different story)

And i think he did tolerate it,we didn't talk really much about the calling him late thing ,he was the same.I think i just really need to stop beating myself up over each mistake i make(like thanking someone,forgetting something,etc).