First off. No I am not a psycho. NOT AT ALL. But this was the most disturbing dream I have ever had hands DOWN. I am not watching any of the SAW movies AGAIN!
I was hiding and witnessing a girl getting torn/beat up and wiped by a very sharp barbwire and the detail of the skin sticking on the barbwire while it hits her cutting until the guy eventually wrapped the barbwire around her and cut her into peaces... Then I Woke up and very faintly Saw a girls face in the dark smiling at me then I turn away quickly and it showed a scary face. I think a ghost was invading my dreams and showing me how she was killed? NOW THAT'S treetrunkING FREAKY!
I like this girl. Though not to the point of lusting hard core. It's a normal ?like? were as I don't have to try hard to get to know her. She says hi to me every chance she gets with a beautiful smile. But then later on I just think to much about the boy friend thing and that I am being teased once again? There's plenty of girls in the sea?. But what's the point if most of them are already taken? SO I will steal them? secretly.
Yea. Your right I don't feel worthy at times. But I do believe its been long enough and its time to change! I need to keep the past to the past or else I fear of becoming a crazy person in the future if I keep thinking about it. I was a spoiled little brat my parents were rich and had no time for me at all so I would be send to the baby sitters house with a bunch of kids and I'm used to getting what I wanted and I just took it and got beat up by the kids and baby sitter. And locked up in a garage or closet until my mother came to pick me up. I will appear as normal as everyone around me but in truth I feel like an empty shell. I feel bottled up inside. And also every time I meet a girl that I like I tend to give up right away because I know from past experience that she will have a boy friend. I'm only insecure of my personality. At first impression I have the charm and looks. Just once they do get to know me I really don't have a personality and very quiet. I think I bring out some kind of sad aura around me? I need to change that aura to a more positive one. Because I always think of the worst and it gets me in this kind of mood. I'm a real loser but I don't look it. I think guys and even my so called friends envy me because I'm getting close to my career. But alone? I hope things change soon. I've changed lately and have been less self-absorbed. You know what.. treetrunk the boy friend I'm treetrunking moving inn. I feel a strong chemistry between us. Its not like there married. Its about time I did something. I want be happy and if I have to brake a couple of eggs to do it so be it! Its about treetrunking TIME! The things I'm talking about in this topic is something people that would know me say. WOW so this is how you really feel? Kind of expression you would never guess that I am hurting inside this much. I do sulk but I'm learning to control my emotions and starting to look and be more positive. I tell myself almost every day that I am worth it! Its there lose I am confident. But some times I will be insecure and treetrunk it all up so saying this is a bit useless but I'm doing it until I really feel this way. BECAUSE I am worth it. I deserve the things I work hard on. I'm not a clingy person at all. I just think I tend to show a blow of attitude towards the girl I like because I'm in one of my treetrunked up moods. So I look shy quiet and sad.
. I have always been attractive to the opposite sex but I think from a bad childhood I have no personality to really keep them attracted to me? I'm the guy that will lose the girl to an ugly guy because he is more out going? I never had a relation ship or a girl stay crushing over me for a long time. They lose interest as soon as I show signs of interest. I wanna give up on love if I had a choice I would remove it completely from my mind it hurts to much just to be teased. Oh and also something that just gets to me every time I read cancer horoscopes is the bull butter about us and our mammas that's all it treetrunking talks about.. Don't believe that BULLbutter and I would like to punch the person who wrote this rubbish in the face. Giving us cancers a treetrunking butterty reading making us sound like little kittys. Sorry I'm angry. And really just sick of being in the same situation with girls I have feelings for all the time and have it not work out? I am about to accept being along and good looking for the rest of my life. My looks are wasted on someone with no personality like me
So it says for cancer, in 2008 should be a good career and romance year for us.. I haven't had any luck with any girls only flirting and finding out they ALL treetrunking have boy friends! My career sucks ass seems like I'm always getting close but then have it fall completely apart? I have no love life only flirt life and I am treetrunking sick of these. Oh he's cute and then not show interest the next day.. So treetrunk IT! I will not go for # 2 In my love list. I want a girl I feel a good connection with and every time I do feel it THERE treetrunkING TAKEN BY SOME MOTHER treetrunkING cookiemonster! And once again I am teased the thing I want most? I cant do this anymore I'm sick of it and I give up. YEP I give up treetrunk love or lust I have never had a relation ship but yet girls find me attractive.. Then why the treetrunk am I always alone? I have never felt love or been loved since I was little.. also the baby sitters would beat me up and lock me inside a closet for fighting another kid that is picking on me tho they always think I started the fight. I would always have a bruise and cuts. I was quiet almost to the point were people thought I was a mute in grade school.