Again appreciation. Just for the fact that finally I can habg out and become sort of close with a guy, where he is not trying to bang me. Talk about sex, which I haven't really done with any guy, if he wasn't either gay or someone I was having sex with.

But there is absolutely no sexual attraction there, so it is safe. Was asked if I liked having my ass slapped during sex😂😂😂 why that paeticular question was on his mind, I don't know. He says, he is gonna keep digging and open me up 😂😂😂😂
And it's also good to have a guy without all those intentions tell me to not get with young party guys. Like he is just looking out for me. But it's different for me to hear from a guy than a girl I guess.

It all goes to show me, that really things are so much about how we feel ourselves. If I was attracted to him, I could take many things as him flirting and actually really liking me. But there is not, and it's very nice to have that safespace. 🙇🏼‍♀️

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What if it's on the palms though? 👹

Or on the knuckles 👹👹👹

Little dark hair on the knuckles is not too shabby either.

But that thing on the side and it goes to the arm. I don't know man. Some man hands are just like... Well the best.

Big hands with long fingers 😍😍

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Long fingers??? I think I like square more, you know, like proportioned🖐️🖐️🖐️🖐️🖐️

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What if it's on the palms though? 👹

Or on the knuckles 👹👹👹

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Little dark hair on the knuckles is not too shabby either.

But that thing on the side and it goes to the arm. I don't know man. Some man hands are just like... Well the best.

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What if it's on the palms though? 👹

In the palms? You mean inside the hand? Haha it can't. But imagine being stroked by a hairy palm. Like being petted by your dog 😂

It's a werewolf thing

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😂😂😂
I guess it's just my style . Watching Beauty and the Beast as a kid, I always liked the Beast wayyyyyy better, when he was a beast and thought he was ugly as a human 😂😂🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️

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You notice the weirdest butter lol.

What, I just obsess at every little thing about everyone, what9the big deal? 😂😂😂😂😂

Seriously, I think it's super hot. And it is the small stuff that's important 😎

It's just so sexy!!!!! You know like on the outer side of the hand. 😍

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What if it's on the palms though? 👹

In the palms? You mean inside the hand? Haha it can't. But imagine being stroked by a hairy palm. Like being petted by your dog 😂

Haaaaaaaaaawt!!!!

I know, this is a real guys topic.

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Even we know that you don't actually hold to that rule. If she's your friend, she definitely knows. She probably followed you to try to smooth things over, and when you ignored her, she got mad and blocked you.

Hold to what rule?

I also thought, maybe she wanted to rekindle things, but then maybe she could text me something. Not just follow. Expecting me to do all the work again. Like accusing me of lying and then expecting me to apologize and make things right. If she wants to be friends, she could tell me that.

But honestly she loves to play games. She loves to push people away and pull them back in, and a lot of people have taken that behaviour from her. It's just not for me.

The cutting people off for good thing. You've told us about going back on that with the Cap guy and getting yourself all confused and angry.

Ah I see. Well that's not a rule I have. I actually don't have any rules for myself at all.
I have never done that with my friends, ever though. I did unfollow a guy but told him at the same, that I needed some space. 🤷🏼‍♀️

What can I say, I find it hilarious that I am now blocked on instagram. By someone I never look at anyway. That's ironic. Who would make the most sense to block me would be that guy, but not even he has done that.

This is what is so frustrating trying to talk to you about these things, how you refuse to admit your own feelings. You wouldn't know she did it if you didn't look, and you wouldn't post about it if you didn't care. I don't think any of this is going to start making sense to you until you start being honest about your own feelings and motive. Sometimes the motives that you assign to other people seem to me like your own motives, projected.

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I could just as easily say you are projecting on me. I honestly don't really care what you think with regards to me and my motives or whatever. It's none of my concern.

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Even we know that you don't actually hold to that rule. If she's your friend, she definitely knows. She probably followed you to try to smooth things over, and when you ignored her, she got mad and blocked you.

Hold to what rule?

I also thought, maybe she wanted to rekindle things, but then maybe she could text me something. Not just follow. Expecting me to do all the work again. Like accusing me of lying and then expecting me to apologize and make things right. If she wants to be friends, she could tell me that.

But honestly she loves to play games. She loves to push people away and pull them back in, and a lot of people have taken that behaviour from her. It's just not for me.

The cutting people off for good thing. You've told us about going back on that with the Cap guy and getting yourself all confused and angry.

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Ah I see. Well that's not a rule I have. I actually don't have any rules for myself at all.
I have never done that with my friends, ever though. I did unfollow a guy but told him at the same, that I needed some space. 🤷🏼‍♀️

What can I say, I find it hilarious that I am now blocked on instagram. By someone I never look at anyway. That's ironic. Who would make the most sense to block me would be that guy, but not even he has done that.

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She could follow you by accident but she was stalking you for sure 😂

She is just trying to get a reaction from me. Follow me. Which I thought was super weird, so I checked to see, if she watched my story, because if she did not, then maybe it wD a mistake she followed me. She watched them.

Then after a little while I discover today, that she has blocked me😂😂😂😂 I honestly never thought I would have stuff like that happen to me in my life😂

I see some unfinished buissnes here. She migh need a closure

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Actually I did offer her to have a talk earlier. She suggested one, and then I thought about it and said I didn't need to have one because determining things had already been said, but that if she wanted/needed to, we could have a chat. She then said no to that. So she already have the offer.
And actually thanks for reminding me of this indirectly, that I actually did offer to talk if she wanted to get things off her chest.

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Even we know that you don't actually hold to that rule. If she's your friend, she definitely knows. She probably followed you to try to smooth things over, and when you ignored her, she got mad and blocked you.

Hold to what rule?

I also thought, maybe she wanted to rekindle things, but then maybe she could text me something. Not just follow. Expecting me to do all the work again. Like accusing me of lying and then expecting me to apologize and make things right. If she wants to be friends, she could tell me that.

But honestly she loves to play games. She loves to push people away and pull them back in, and a lot of people have taken that behaviour from her. It's just not for me.

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Trying to figure out where my anger was coming from, it came down to the realization I wasn't angry at other person but myself for failing.

Once I learned to forgive myself for being foolish I was able to move forward. It would have been an endless cycle if I didn't figure it out.

I actually had a dream about being angry and then telling somebody, that I was just dissapointed in myself.

When I think about now in reality, what it is, I could be dissapointed about, it is not saying no thanks from the get go.
Have been in a long period of doubts about when to set a boundary or when I am judging people too hard. So it's difficult, but hopefully I will continue to learn.

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Why do you all act like anger is a bad thing ? Anger is what I need to get things done.

Some anger is good, and I definitely use it to move past things sometimes.

OP is obsessive about this situation, though.

Just want to make clear, it's more that I have an obsessive personality. For better and worse. It's not just this situation.
Like now I am really into the Twilight movies 😂😂 And so I can watch them over and over, like it ends and I'll just hit replay, and I watch a bunch of stuff on the actors and maybe other thibgs they have done. Because there is some vibe or mood that speaks to me right now.

If I like a song, I will listen to it on repeat over and over and over and over back to back. If I like food, I will go to great lengths to get exa tly the kind of food I want.
This is just how I am.
If something gets to me somehow, I let it fill me up sort of.

I know. And maybe that is all you really need to learn and accept...things stick on you, so when you feel slighted, it sticks on you for a while. You know what? You're not required to ever forgive him if you don't want to.

Maybe 🤷🏼‍♀️
Def. there is a part of this that is just about accepting who I am. That's also why I have no regrets as far as sending him a drunk text.

He was treetrunking with me mentally, so now I'm just doing it back to him. He doesn't know where to begin with me, because I am unstable around him, he never knows if it's safe to come over and say hi, or if I will talk butter about him to other people or cause a scene, and I think he deserves to feel like that. I know he think I'm stupid and annoying when I text him long paragraphs that he hardly reads, and that I just don't let it go (because that would make his life so much easier). And maybe also he will regret ever doing anything with me, like I do with him. This is probably selfdestruct one o one, but I am okay with having to destroy myself a little to take him down a little. Honestly that's how I feel. I realize just now. 😂

Oh noes! You're right. That's self-destruct 101.

Have you been introduced to this concept of Scorpios?
https://exemplore.com/astrology/Totems-of-A-Scorpio

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Oh didn't see this until now.
I do not know of this no.

I mean.... It sux to still be effected like this, but at the same time I really feel like now, that now he knows what it's like to deal with someone, who does not say how they really feel and act nice one moment, only to turn on you the next. Only without me also trying to use him for sex.

There would never be any good ending. As much as I wanted it to. Was just talking to somebody last night about keeping hpping for a sort of mending or reconsiliation, in this case not to be friends like that again, but to maybe once just air things out and understand each other. And I would much prefer that, and part of my anger is probably because I don't get to do that. When trying to have a conversation, I am made out to to be insane because I would like to have it face to face. And also for just expressibg how I feel. The guy is in denial, probably because it's too hard to face this part of himself, because honestly it must be sort of embarassing having to lie for months on to get sex.

I just don't have it in me to be cool about that and wait around for him to maybe mature. Because it is never going to happen. So I did mine to bug him.

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If you know this girl is prone to drama and does things for reaction, stop feeding her.

The moment you saw her following you on instagram, you should have blocked her.

I'd rather just do nothing. She has blocked me now, problem solved itself. Stupid to feed into the drama.

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She could follow you by accident but she was stalking you for sure 😂

She is just trying to get a reaction from me. Follow me. Which I thought was super weird, so I checked to see, if she watched my story, because if she did not, then maybe it wD a mistake she followed me. She watched them.

Then after a little while I discover today, that she has blocked me😂😂😂😂 I honestly never thought I would have stuff like that happen to me in my life😂

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My asshat sperm donor. I hope he dies soon so my mom will get her retirement and house sale money back and stop having to pay him $ 3000 a month.

treetrunker.

What? What happened? Sounds justified just by reading this.

My dad was always an abusive asshat and I do blame my mom for not divorcing him when I was 8.

But he stopped working 10 years ago and she funded his hobby farming the whole time while he complained about having to ask her for money.

So he turns 65 - the age to receive benefits - and then tell her the day after his birthday that he’s leaving her.

I found out through his Facebook that he was talking to multiple women - he took some trips and I found used condom wrappers in his suitcase and I hacked his email to find that he was sexting women as young as a few years older than me. AND sending them pictures of my daughter. And lying about me and my mom and his own accomplishments. He called himself my daughters mommy because he watched her while I was getting my degree for a few years.

So because she was his support in a no fault divorce state he got half of her retirement, alimony, and he got half of the sales from the house sale - which it was a farm with a fair amount of acreage and he left her and moved halfway across the country to figure out going through the barns and stables and getting the house ready to sell which was very extensive because he did a lot that needed to be fixed.

He still tries to send my daughter letters and presents but I trash the hell of them or donate them.

treetrunker.

Like I said.

Holy butter, at first I didn't even realize, that you were talking about your father. Like I thought it was a donor you had gotten sperm from that was causing some kind of trouble.
But this, from your own blood!!! Dead to me.

So sorry he is such a major piece of butter towards you guys. Have you tried to talk to him about your butter, or has that ship just sailed and then sunk in the ocean?
It must be super hard have this in your life for so long.

Yeah I was okay with him just being a treetrunked up mess but once I found out how much of a cold blooded creep he was what little empathy I had left went out the window. I call him my sperm donor now. Lol

The only time I got an apology it came with a “but I did it because I love you” or “but I did it because of my treetrunked up childhood”. Total bs.

I’m trying to let go and make peace with it. I feel much better these days but if I think of it too much then I get quite upset.

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Oh butter that's the words of a true narcissist. I only mistreat you, because I love you so much. So then you are supposed to actually cherish being mistreated.

I can relate to trying to not think about these things too much. It is really like that out of sight out of mind. But that can be dangerous, if you then run into him or hear about him. So at the same time it's things that sometimes need to be confronted, so they don't dweel in you nd destroy you more.

One thing that sounds truly hard about this is, that it seems you actually did try to talk to him, and then when that finally happens, he takes nothing on his shoulders. Then you tend to just want to keep things to yourself.

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I have never experienced that before really, but am now experiencing it - from a girl 😂😂🤦🏼‍♀️

We were friends, but she suddenly felt the need to create drama in her life or mine or whatever, I really don't know, so she accused me of lying - about something completely irrational.
Few words were exchanged and it became clear, that we could not be friends, and I declined to have a talk with her, because I know it would not go anywhere. After that I delete and unfriended and that, and she did the same.

Out of the blue she starts to follow me on instagram again and watch my stories. Then some days later she either blocked me or deleted her whole instagram, which I do not believe. 😂😂😂😂 I know this is what she does, but it's so ridicouless to be on the recieving end of it. I already told her, while we still friends, that if I cut someone off, it's probably for good. I think she wanted to test that and make herself feel really good because she would be the only one to be let back in.

Is she a cancer?

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Gemini. She does this with people. I just didn't think she would do it with me, because she knows how I am.
Why she blocked me is the most strange to me. I didn't look at her instagram, Facebook or nothing since I deleted. 😂 I mean even I didn't block the guy I am angry with or hurt by, I just made it so he doesn't follow me more, and I know he's not gonna look at my profile again. And even if he did, it wouldn't matter anything. Otherwise I'd just make everything private.

I could see from when she followed me, that she had anew profile pic with a guy om the back. I didn't bother to go look at it at her profile obvioisly, but from the quick glanze it could look like a guy that did me dirty, but she is friends with, and he sorta chose her over me (not romantically, at the time at least). She is def. the type to try and put up pics and stories to try and get reactions from it, so could be she started to follow me, because she had that photo with possible that guy and thought I would go look and react.

She does the whole 'on a new date' caption, don't show the guys face, and then act surprised when her ex gets jealous. As if that wasn't exactly the reaction she was looking for 😂😂😂 It's so silly. And too young for me.

I have never experienced that before really, but am now experiencing it - from a girl 😂😂🤦🏼‍♀️

We were friends, but she suddenly felt the need to create drama in her life or mine or whatever, I really don't know, so she accused me of lying - about something completely irrational.
Few words were exchanged and it became clear, that we could not be friends, and I declined to have a talk with her, because I know it would not go anywhere. After that I delete and unfriended and that, and she did the same.

Out of the blue she starts to follow me on instagram again and watch my stories. Then some days later she either blocked me or deleted her whole instagram, which I do not believe. 😂😂😂😂 I know this is what she does, but it's so ridicouless to be on the recieving end of it. I already told her, while we still friends, that if I cut someone off, it's probably for good. I think she wanted to test that and make herself feel really good because she would be the only one to be let back in.