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Posted by DeadInside
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it just mistake that u do when you are young
I never made that mistake when I was young. I wasn't really that sexually attracted to guys, when I was younger. I'm a very late bloomer I guess 🤷🏼♀️
i dont know i'm so lazy to date right now
Didn't you just make a topic about a libra? Yeah I'm watching you, 'cause you're a cap guy!!! 😂😂😂
Bro I'm not dating either, and would I really want to? Last dates I went on, they both told me I wasn't ready for a relationship. Well treetrunk me, maybe you just weren't the right guy for me Kevin and Jamaal!!!!
there is a libra girl kind of flirting with me, but i'm lazy idk if we could go to couple.
Well probably you have to get to know her a little to find out. Just saying. But if you're lazy, she's probably not right for you, 'cause if you wanted her, you would want to make the effort.
I would chase you down like a dog and wait for a command, we all know that, but hey that's just my style , and it turns out, not many guys are into that roll-over style 🤷🏼♀️
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
You do you!
no it's just i dont liking myself right now, like i'm not ready. there is period like this maybe like in 2 or 3 month when i'll get more stability i'll try.click to expand
I completely understand where you're coming from. I feel the same. But mine will take longer, I know. I need passion for something else.
But still I can't control being super attracted to someone. You can? -
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it just mistake that u do when you are young
I never made that mistake when I was young. I wasn't really that sexually attracted to guys, when I was younger. I'm a very late bloomer I guess 🤷🏼♀️
i dont know i'm so lazy to date right now
Didn't you just make a topic about a libra? Yeah I'm watching you, 'cause you're a cap guy!!! 😂😂😂
Bro I'm not dating either, and would I really want to? Last dates I went on, they both told me I wasn't ready for a relationship. Well treetrunk me, maybe you just weren't the right guy for me Kevin and Jamaal!!!!
there is a libra girl kind of flirting with me, but i'm lazy idk if we could go to couple.click to expand
Well probably you have to get to know her a little to find out. Just saying. But if you're lazy, she's probably not right for you, 'cause if you wanted her, you would want to make the effort.
I would chase you down like a dog and wait for a command, we all know that, but hey that's just my style , and it turns out, not many guys are into that roll-over style 🤷🏼♀️
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
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it just mistake that u do when you are young
I never made that mistake when I was young. I wasn't really that sexually attracted to guys, when I was younger. I'm a very late bloomer I guess 🤷🏼♀️
i dont know i'm so lazy to date right nowclick to expand
Didn't you just make a topic about a libra? Yeah I'm watching you, 'cause you're a cap guy!!! 😂😂😂
Bro I'm not dating either, and would I really want to? Last dates I went on, they both told me I wasn't ready for a relationship. Well treetrunk me, maybe you just weren't the right guy for me Kevin and Jamaal!!!! -
You think some people prefer this to actually getting into dating and a relationship?
I mean also for a longer period of time, not just 3 months in between relationships.
Chase you, love bomb you (maybe in a way that's just sliiiightly more than friendly, they don't have to go all out and tell you, they love you), to make you fall for them or be interested in them and then pursue something, so that they can get the satisfaction of tuning you down. 🤔🤔🤔🤔
I feel like this describes 80% of the dating/whatever it is scenarios here.
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it just mistake that u do when you are young
I never made that mistake when I was young. I wasn't really that sexually attracted to guys, when I was younger. I'm a very late bloomer I guess 🤷🏼♀️ -
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What's your moon sign?
Aries far as I know.
Peasant moon sign.. You can't DETACH like the elite psychotic gemini mooners.. I'm sorry.. I'm always here for ya.. 😔💔
Some of it is just who I am as a person. I've always obsessed over things, but once it was wayyyy more unrealistic, and that made it easy. Every time I got close to my object, I freaked out. 'Cause I don't feel good enough to finally get what I want.
But no, I'm def. not at detatching. With guys at least. Girl friends and family I can. 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Oh no, why do you feel that way? You're worth it, baby! I'm the opposite, I grab life by the dick and usually get what I want and when I don't just get ready for a terrible tantrum and a possible emotional spiral to hell, I honestly think it's a fire mars thing. 😂
I can never ever detach from a family member or the friends I consider family, men, however, just lol. I've only gave a butter about one guy and I'm still confused af about the whole situation.
It's weird how us people are so different. When family or friends act crazy with me, I detatch. When they make me feel nor. Good enough, I detatch. But guys!!!
I didn't feel good enough for my father and his side of the family, but now I've changed that around. So I'm not sure if I think I can do the same with guys, that don't like me, and that that is why I am not detatching. Even if it is just physical, that I feel attached now.
On some things I grab life by the dick, but I could DEF. do more, and not care so much about how I male other people feel. That's always on my mind: how do I make other people feel. And I act to please them, and not to please myself.
Awwww that's terrible for your health lol. I guess what helps me not give a treetrunk about what people think or feel is that I know for a fact people talk mad butter about me, even when I'm not doing anything wrong, even when I'm trying to help them, and the fact that I've been treetrunked over by my best friend of god knows how many years who enjoyed stabbing me in the back and sabotaging my life was kinda the last straw. No more seeking for people's acceptance for me, thankyouverymuch. 😂
I've always searched for that sense of community, 'cause I guess I have been feeling very lonely and like an outcast my entire life. So I would like to be accepted and to have people like me.
The world is not set up to provide these things reliably to anyone. There is no continuity or permanence in experiences or social conditions. Whether you’re accepted or people like you is out of your hands. The less validation, acceptance and love you require from others in order to feel good, the better you’ll feel; you’ll be free. This is part of developing your understanding.
If you keep wanting stuff—feelings, acceptance, self-concept—from something (life, the world) that has only a limited supply of these things, or which can provide them only unreliably, you’ll never be satisfied. You’ll always be searching. Even things that seem to stick around for a very long time (like certain people in your life) are still imbued with impermanence. At any point they could be gone. Feelings can change. Life-altering accidents can happen. This must be accepted.
Why not simply give the things you want, within reason, for their own sake and without expecting anything in return.
Instead of yearning for things from others, redirect all that energy into understanding the nature of these desires, whether you actually need them, and whether they’re real in the first place. See whether you can be free *from* these yearnings. If you remove the yearning by seeing it for what it is, then it’s as good as satisfying it.
Consider these things at some point.click to expand
All good points (and good to reread, so thanks😉). I am aware of this though. Like if the guy I crave sexually now or maybe the next guy that doesn't want to be in a relationship with me, or one from my past, if one came to me now and said he wanted to be with me, I would say no, because I know he would become my whole world and I would put wayyyy too much preassure on both him and me and the relationship.
... At the same time, maybe if I got that relationship thing "out of the way", if I got a boyfriend, maybe I would finally start focussing on other things and take the preassure off of it. That would probably maybe lead to me being bored. I wish one of these guys I pursued so hard would come for me and want to be with me, just to see, how I would really react and feel. Maybe I wouldn't want him anymore. Maybe I would and things would be great. Maybe something else entirely. I can't get to know that part of myself, before I am in the situation. -
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What's your moon sign?
Aries far as I know.
Peasant moon sign.. You can't DETACH like the elite psychotic gemini mooners.. I'm sorry.. I'm always here for ya.. 😔💔
Some of it is just who I am as a person. I've always obsessed over things, but once it was wayyyy more unrealistic, and that made it easy. Every time I got close to my object, I freaked out. 'Cause I don't feel good enough to finally get what I want.
But no, I'm def. not at detatching. With guys at least. Girl friends and family I can. 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Oh no, why do you feel that way? You're worth it, baby! I'm the opposite, I grab life by the dick and usually get what I want and when I don't just get ready for a terrible tantrum and a possible emotional spiral to hell, I honestly think it's a fire mars thing. 😂
I can never ever detach from a family member or the friends I consider family, men, however, just lol. I've only gave a butter about one guy and I'm still confused af about the whole situation.
It's weird how us people are so different. When family or friends act crazy with me, I detatch. When they make me feel nor. Good enough, I detatch. But guys!!!
I didn't feel good enough for my father and his side of the family, but now I've changed that around. So I'm not sure if I think I can do the same with guys, that don't like me, and that that is why I am not detatching. Even if it is just physical, that I feel attached now.
On some things I grab life by the dick, but I could DEF. do more, and not care so much about how I male other people feel. That's always on my mind: how do I make other people feel. And I act to please them, and not to please myself.
Awwww that's terrible for your health lol. I guess what helps me not give a treetrunk about what people think or feel is that I know for a fact people talk mad butter about me, even when I'm not doing anything wrong, even when I'm trying to help them, and the fact that I've been treetrunked over by my best friend of god knows how many years who enjoyed stabbing me in the back and sabotaging my life was kinda the last straw. No more seeking for people's acceptance for me, thankyouverymuch. 😂
I've always searched for that sense of community, 'cause I guess I have been feeling very lonely and like an outcast my entire life. So I would like to be accepted and to have people like me.
Awwwww, lol I'm the polar opposite, if I could avoid my community and everybody's bs and hypocrisy I would with great pleasure. Like, I could write paragraphs about the treetrunked up butter that happens in my community but I'll keep it to myself. 🤢
Honestly, the only creatures that I care to be accepted/loved by are children and animals, they never lie and certainly will never sabotage nor betray you. 🤷🏻♀️click to expand
Have you ever felt "betrayed" by an animal or kid though? I have, or something they did pushed some buttons. That can really sting!!! 😂😂😂😂😂 But they don't do it with bad intentions, and that's what's important. -
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What's your moon sign?
Aries far as I know.
Peasant moon sign.. You can't DETACH like the elite psychotic gemini mooners.. I'm sorry.. I'm always here for ya.. 😔💔
Some of it is just who I am as a person. I've always obsessed over things, but once it was wayyyy more unrealistic, and that made it easy. Every time I got close to my object, I freaked out. 'Cause I don't feel good enough to finally get what I want.
But no, I'm def. not at detatching. With guys at least. Girl friends and family I can. 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Oh no, why do you feel that way? You're worth it, baby! I'm the opposite, I grab life by the dick and usually get what I want and when I don't just get ready for a terrible tantrum and a possible emotional spiral to hell, I honestly think it's a fire mars thing. 😂
I can never ever detach from a family member or the friends I consider family, men, however, just lol. I've only gave a butter about one guy and I'm still confused af about the whole situation.
It's weird how us people are so different. When family or friends act crazy with me, I detatch. When they make me feel nor. Good enough, I detatch. But guys!!!
I didn't feel good enough for my father and his side of the family, but now I've changed that around. So I'm not sure if I think I can do the same with guys, that don't like me, and that that is why I am not detatching. Even if it is just physical, that I feel attached now.
On some things I grab life by the dick, but I could DEF. do more, and not care so much about how I male other people feel. That's always on my mind: how do I make other people feel. And I act to please them, and not to please myself.
Awwww that's terrible for your health lol. I guess what helps me not give a treetrunk about what people think or feel is that I know for a fact people talk mad butter about me, even when I'm not doing anything wrong, even when I'm trying to help them, and the fact that I've been treetrunked over by my best friend of god knows how many years who enjoyed stabbing me in the back and sabotaging my life was kinda the last straw. No more seeking for people's acceptance for me, thankyouverymuch. 😂
I've always searched for that sense of community, 'cause I guess I have been feeling very lonely and like an outcast my entire life. So I would like to be accepted and to have people like me.
Aww I feel bad hearing that *hugs*. I always feel that way too, it's hard for me to connect with people on a deep level. I don't really feel lonely though, but I always feel that people don't quite get me.click to expand
Hug right back at ya!!
The lonelyness gets less and less as I grow older and can chose more freely who I surround myself with.
But I guess I never really dealt with all the feelings from my childhood. I just pushed them to the back of my mind. So now I have to deal and remember and reboot. -
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What's your moon sign?
Aries far as I know.
Peasant moon sign.. You can't DETACH like the elite psychotic gemini mooners.. I'm sorry.. I'm always here for ya.. 😔💔
Some of it is just who I am as a person. I've always obsessed over things, but once it was wayyyy more unrealistic, and that made it easy. Every time I got close to my object, I freaked out. 'Cause I don't feel good enough to finally get what I want.
But no, I'm def. not at detatching. With guys at least. Girl friends and family I can. 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Oh no, why do you feel that way? You're worth it, baby! I'm the opposite, I grab life by the dick and usually get what I want and when I don't just get ready for a terrible tantrum and a possible emotional spiral to hell, I honestly think it's a fire mars thing. 😂
I can never ever detach from a family member or the friends I consider family, men, however, just lol. I've only gave a butter about one guy and I'm still confused af about the whole situation.
It's weird how us people are so different. When family or friends act crazy with me, I detatch. When they make me feel nor. Good enough, I detatch. But guys!!!
I didn't feel good enough for my father and his side of the family, but now I've changed that around. So I'm not sure if I think I can do the same with guys, that don't like me, and that that is why I am not detatching. Even if it is just physical, that I feel attached now.
On some things I grab life by the dick, but I could DEF. do more, and not care so much about how I male other people feel. That's always on my mind: how do I make other people feel. And I act to please them, and not to please myself.
Awwww that's terrible for your health lol. I guess what helps me not give a treetrunk about what people think or feel is that I know for a fact people talk mad butter about me, even when I'm not doing anything wrong, even when I'm trying to help them, and the fact that I've been treetrunked over by my best friend of god knows how many years who enjoyed stabbing me in the back and sabotaging my life was kinda the last straw. No more seeking for people's acceptance for me, thankyouverymuch. 😂click to expand
I've always searched for that sense of community, 'cause I guess I have been feeling very lonely and like an outcast my entire life. So I would like to be accepted and to have people like me. -
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How is it possible to be attracted to someone, that is an marker or stupid or mistreats you or other things, that are bad?
How can you still be turned in with that?
🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
Anyone know what I am talking about?
I think you mean 'turned on' . well the brain get flooded with the feel good chem when we meet someone for the first time and the right time. like when woman are making eggs. so the brain makes this strong connection to the guy near them at the and if he squirting male hormones, like a lot, it really get the girl body excite and the brain say yes open the flood gates to the feel good hormone now. so the brain then make this very very strong connection with little brain cell thingys so you are then hooked and screwed and a real pain in the ass to brake the connection. just saying
Yes!!!!!! Yes yes yes!!! Turned in is what I mean!!!!!
It happened the moment I saw him, so it was never about his personality from the get go. Then I got to know him and liked some things. Then I got to know him and dislike some things. But I'm still Walking around doing twitches, if you know what I mean. It's like the being turned on just refuse to switch to other guys. Even though I can tell some of them are beautiful guys or good guys.
it sounds like you got hooked big time. your switch is broke. so give it time to fix
Yup biiiiiigtime! And I thought I'd killed it, but treetrunker came back. As long as he is still not into me even physically, I'll be good. And trying to switch the focus to just me. But seriously, my vajayjay is like 'heeeeeeyyy giiiiirl remember that guy' all the time during the day!
there is this Aries guy i went to school with. long long time ago. i had a huge huge crush on him and my vajayjay so loved him. anytime i would hear him talk, or even smell him when he was close to me and didnt know he was there my vajayjay knew before me. so i think those were just stupid girl crush till after 30 years 'not seeing him or anything', well he friends me on facebook and my vajayjay never forgot him. i have never kissed this guy or anything. we had one dance in school together. out of 23 guys he is the only one who affected me this way. all i know is when i saw his name on facebook it hit me like a dam braking or ton of rocks out of nowhere. i didnt think i would have it that bad for him after all this time, all those years. and i till cant get sex from him, but he says he wants me. my thinking is if i have sex with him it will brake this spell i am in. I thought is was died for 30 years, no just sitting deep down inside me wait to bust out. gggrrrr. it hit me soo hard i drank myself into a stooper 3 times. i never do that and never have. its like i have no control over myself with him. even if it doesnt look i am in control of myself with other guys i am. but him i so cant get a handle on any part of me. vajayjay goes crazy and dont know why. lol
Woooooooooooooow 👀👀👀👀
Not proud to admit this, but so happy I'm not the only one with a crazy controlling vag!!!
Why can't you hook up with him?
If that was me, I would die. Like just roll over an die. Walking around feeling that desire all the time for no apparent reason and no way to do anything about it! Intolerable!!!
I recently saw a guy, I was mad crushing on as a teen. Initially without having ever talked to him.... I was NOT attracted now 😂😂😂😂 I have no one else in my past that could make me feel this way. I did have a thing with another guy though, that lasted for 5 years. I liked and disliked him at the same time. 🤷🏼♀️
one he married but he does cheat on his wife because she dont give him sex. so for bit there i thought we would get together so i could get him out of my system but he just didnt come over but talked a lot about how he wanted me. then things change, not sure what. he started to work on his married. he doesnt know why he wouldnt come see me. the whole thing was very weird. more to the story but thats the jest of it
Ah okay butter. Married. Wouldn't want to mess with a marriage.
I truly wish I weren't a possesive a jealous person, because I don't believe human beings are meant to be in these couples of two and two their entire lives. But there is a certain morality invested in me plus, yeah I'm possesive. But dang...
In all honesty I've always loathed cheaters. Untill I met this guy, and at certain times I found myself thinking, he could just get married and I could be free and we could have an affair on the side. I mean WHAT!!!! But I got over that. I would never be fulfilled like that.
yea emotions/ hormones can be soo crazy. i dont do married people because of the drama but him i was willing. i am sure its because of the crush i had for him when i was in school. from 6th grade all the way through high school.
way before he met his wife. but he acted different to me then the other women he was seeing that were not his wife. i didnt even get to be a booty call. i was willing to do that hoping to get past the first sex stuff. you know when your with a person a few times it starts to loose its hold. but who knows it might have made is worst. i dont know. click to expand
Maybe interacting with you somehow made him think of his wife and his relationship in a new way?! 🤷🏼♀️ -
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Unresolved childhood trauma or neglect. Neglect especially. You’re attracted to your triggers. Instead of shutting down or freaking out, you feel wanted and turned on when you receive toxic treatment.
It’s unfortunate, but a butter ton of people have kids they don’t care about and so there’s a lot running around out here.
That or sexual trauma from childhood thru adolescence. People are still forming their sexual concepts and identities. So if you abuse them while that’s developing then it completely changes their idea of reality when it comes to sex and attraction.
It's weird though, it's not his personality. I just saw him do some stuff, and have been thinking about it since. Like the physical aspect of it.
“OMG lookit! He’s doing stuff” *swoons*
😁
The Scorpio justification to worship a potential/hoped for/real partner knows no bounds lol. *counts on both hands times I’ve swooned over some useless butter*
and both feet, too.
Whaddyagonnado, it’s a thing until it isn’t any more. It’s our relationship with having vs. wanting. We often find that wanting is more exciting than having, no matter how little sense it makes.
I'm always trying to find that special someone where I have them and want them at the same time. So naturally it's guys that you can't have all the way.
But when I am in it, there is no stop sign for me. I have to humiliate myself, get extremely hurt, be so crazy and annoying that the guy ends it or get bored of living a fake life, before I stop. 100 % irrational and destructive. 🤦🏼♀️
I’ll direct this to both of your recent posts in response to mine.
“I’m always trying to find that special someone.”
That, to me, encapsulates the entire problem pretty neatly. I’m calling it a problem, but it’s just conditioning (i.e., the ideas we have about stuff that we didn’t have originally; we picked them up from somewhere and integrated them into what’s called “identity”, and we think they’re real.)
So you can have this search; this series of actions you perform and things you think about in order to make this search a reality for you. Just understand that it’s driven by the ideas you have about it. Is this not so? Your relationship to the act of trying to find that special someone.
I submit that isn’t the lack of that “special someone” that is causing you difficulty, but your ideas about it. And when you *think* you’ve found that special someone, it isn’t the state of finally having them that caused you satisfaction, but the *relief* of ending the search - of putting down the ideas you have about it that have been molesting your peace all that time. Now, if you remove the ideas you have about the search, that is, not by actually removing them but rather *understanding* them for what they are, then the search will over time lose its grip on you. It isn’t that you need deny yourself companionship, but that you need to understand what’s urging you to it. You don’t neutralize this problem by destroying it, you neutralize it with knowledge; looking at why you want what you want, courageously and dispassionately. Then you’re free to have it, or not. It’ll be a choice rather than an unexamined desire.
Some of the ideas you have (now) about this search include: “I’m not complete, I don’t feel whole, and external love will help me feel these things.” In fact, the opposite is true for all three parts of that statement. Look into that.
What can you do about all this? At this stage, nothing, really. Just do your best to develop your understanding. As you said, you’ll keep this thread handy. Refer to it now and then, and as long as it makes you think a bit, makes you question, inspires some new way of looking at the same old thing, then so much the better. 👍click to expand
😊😊Thank you.
"always looking" is just an expression, so don't worry I do have my eye on lots of other things. I just mean when I am looking or when I meet someone I am attracted to, this is how my thought proces is 😉
I saw another vid of a guy and a girl dancing and thought that was super hot as well, so maybe I'm just in an all out horny period 🤷🏼♀️
But I will reread this topic yes.
And I am thinking of good things about why I met the dude and what I am attracted to that I want for myself in my own life, you know what can I take and apply, 'cause that guy is out of my life in 2 secs anyways, 'cause I'm driving him off with my behaviour. But maybe that's the way to go... -
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This is something new, you are doing?
I think I can relate to how you feel and what you are doing. Only I have been doing it for almost half my life. My friends talk about working out is her room to breathe, where she just is and don't think about stuff, where she can escape everything. But me, I do that with alcohol and used to also be weed. I've never been addicted and used either everyday, but still to this day I drink 'till I throw up and can't remember anything. I wake up walking my hood no idea how I got there, I lose things all the time, talk to peole and say stuff I can't remember, miss entire shows because I'm busy being drunk off my face. It's not normal. Not at my age and not for that many years. At one point it just became habbit, but it becomes more and more clear that it is now preventing from being present in the moment and make use of the moment for my life further ahead. Do you have this top?
Escaping reality you only think in the moment, and not how destructive you are being to yourself and your future. I live too much in the moment, but am unable to feel the moment, 'cause I' m drunk.
Just saw the doc on Amy Winehouse..r.i.p. Several of her friends say, that she just wanted someone to tell her no, to tell her to stop and show her, they cared. Personally I could really relate to that. I go wild and crazy sometimes, but actually I just want someone to sit me down and tell me to stop. But the people to do that have to be strong too, 'cause I'll fight them to keep going.
what is your sun moon rising and mars ? i am trying to slap myself in the face very often because i really feel like if i let this go further it will be out of control i have been throwing up and drinking excessively but how do you hold up now ?click to expand
I got so drunk I threw up this friday, soo... And I don't even remember doing it. And I don't remember much of what I was doing. I was at an event I had been looking very much forward to going to, but next say I see a bunch of performances on instagram that I don't even remember. I sabotaged myself completely!!! And had a friend 10 years younger than me clean me of vomit. She said I almost cried when she helped me, and I almost do thinking about it, 'cause I have a very hard time accepting help and care, I guess. Atm I try to just focus on that whole experience and why I do it and what it gives me and ask myself : is that really how you want to live your life?!
I am very low key seing a professional, only 2 times now. But maybe that will have an impact on me too.
Oh and I am scorpio-sag cusp (reading on astrology paiges sometimes I'm one, sometimes the other, so it's right on the cusp), aries moon I believe, and I think scorpio rising. -
This is something new, you are doing?
I think I can relate to how you feel and what you are doing. Only I have been doing it for almost half my life. My friends talk about working out is her room to breathe, where she just is and don't think about stuff, where she can escape everything. But me, I do that with alcohol and used to also be weed. I've never been addicted and used either everyday, but still to this day I drink 'till I throw up and can't remember anything. I wake up walking my hood no idea how I got there, I lose things all the time, talk to peole and say stuff I can't remember, miss entire shows because I'm busy being drunk off my face. It's not normal. Not at my age and not for that many years. At one point it just became habbit, but it becomes more and more clear that it is now preventing from being present in the moment and make use of the moment for my life further ahead. Do you have this top?
Escaping reality you only think in the moment, and not how destructive you are being to yourself and your future. I live too much in the moment, but am unable to feel the moment, 'cause I' m drunk.
Just saw the doc on Amy Winehouse..r.i.p. Several of her friends say, that she just wanted someone to tell her no, to tell her to stop and show her, they cared. Personally I could really relate to that. I go wild and crazy sometimes, but actually I just want someone to sit me down and tell me to stop. But the people to do that have to be strong too, 'cause I'll fight them to keep going. -
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How is it possible to be attracted to someone, that is an marker or stupid or mistreats you or other things, that are bad?
How can you still be turned in with that?
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Anyone know what I am talking about?
I think you mean 'turned on' . well the brain get flooded with the feel good chem when we meet someone for the first time and the right time. like when woman are making eggs. so the brain makes this strong connection to the guy near them at the and if he squirting male hormones, like a lot, it really get the girl body excite and the brain say yes open the flood gates to the feel good hormone now. so the brain then make this very very strong connection with little brain cell thingys so you are then hooked and screwed and a real pain in the ass to brake the connection. just saying
Yes!!!!!! Yes yes yes!!! Turned in is what I mean!!!!!
It happened the moment I saw him, so it was never about his personality from the get go. Then I got to know him and liked some things. Then I got to know him and dislike some things. But I'm still Walking around doing twitches, if you know what I mean. It's like the being turned on just refuse to switch to other guys. Even though I can tell some of them are beautiful guys or good guys.
it sounds like you got hooked big time. your switch is broke. so give it time to fix
Yup biiiiiigtime! And I thought I'd killed it, but treetrunker came back. As long as he is still not into me even physically, I'll be good. And trying to switch the focus to just me. But seriously, my vajayjay is like 'heeeeeeyyy giiiiirl remember that guy' all the time during the day!there is this Aries guy i went to school with. long long time ago. i had a huge huge crush on him and my vajayjay so loved him. anytime i would hear him talk, or even smell him when he was close to me and didnt know he was there my vajayjay knew before me. so i think those were just stupid girl crush till after 30 years 'not seeing him or anything', well he friends me on facebook and my vajayjay never forgot him. i have never kissed this guy or anything. we had one dance in school together. out of 23 guys he is the only one who affected me this way. all i know is when i saw his name on facebook it hit me like a dam braking or ton of rocks out of nowhere. i didnt think i would have it that bad for him after all this time, all those years. and i till cant get sex from him, but he says he wants me. my thinking is if i have sex with him it will brake this spell i am in. I thought is was died for 30 years, no just sitting deep down inside me wait to bust out. gggrrrr. it hit me soo hard i drank myself into a stooper 3 times. i never do that and never have. its like i have no control over myself with him. even if it doesnt look i am in control of myself with other guys i am. but him i so cant get a handle on any part of me. vajayjay goes crazy and dont know why. lol
Woooooooooooooow 👀👀👀👀
Not proud to admit this, but so happy I'm not the only one with a crazy controlling vag!!!
Why can't you hook up with him?
If that was me, I would die. Like just roll over an die. Walking around feeling that desire all the time for no apparent reason and no way to do anything about it! Intolerable!!!
I recently saw a guy, I was mad crushing on as a teen. Initially without having ever talked to him.... I was NOT attracted now 😂😂😂😂 I have no one else in my past that could make me feel this way. I did have a thing with another guy though, that lasted for 5 years. I liked and disliked him at the same time. 🤷🏼♀️
one he married but he does cheat on his wife because she dont give him sex. so for bit there i thought we would get together so i could get him out of my system but he just didnt come over but talked a lot about how he wanted me. then things change, not sure what. he started to work on his married. he doesnt know why he wouldnt come see me. the whole thing was very weird. more to the story but thats the jest of itclick to expand
Ah okay butter. Married. Wouldn't want to mess with a marriage.
I truly wish I weren't a possesive a jealous person, because I don't believe human beings are meant to be in these couples of two and two their entire lives. But there is a certain morality invested in me plus, yeah I'm possesive. But dang...
In all honesty I've always loathed cheaters. Untill I met this guy, and at certain times I found myself thinking, he could just get married and I could be free and we could have an affair on the side. I mean WHAT!!!! But I got over that. I would never be fulfilled like that. -
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How is it possible to be attracted to someone, that is an marker or stupid or mistreats you or other things, that are bad?
How can you still be turned in with that?
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Anyone know what I am talking about?
In order to fully understand, you have to put all judgmental thinking aside and have a good understanding of how the human mind operates.
Mainly with people who have experienced past trauma and abuse.
The reason certain people stick around in abusive relationships varies among individuals, but overall it usually comes down to low self esteem, past (childhood) traumas, and good old-fashioned fear.
Most people aren't sticking around because it "turns them on" it's because they don't feel strong enough to leave (low self esteem) or they're afraid that something terrible will happen to them (or their children) if they do leave.
Also, people who grew up in abusive households are significantly more likely to remain in abusive relationships as adults because abuse was normalized for these people.
Their brains were conditioned to view abusive behavior as normal or not that big of a deal. They were taught that people who love you also hurt you because the people closest to them hurt them.
I always wonder how in 2019 there are still so many people out there who are ignorant to how abuse works and the damage it has on the psyche.click to expand
Hmm.. Physically it really does feel like I am turned on though. Like I saw a video of him dancing with a girl, and I had been fine before that, and then ziiiiiiiing hellooooo!! Those hands, the mouth, the everything...
I in no way undermine childhood and traumatic experiences. And I am looking for answers, and I do understand how putting up with bad behaviour and chosing it and thinking one is not better than that and worth more than that is can or are all outcomes of childhood. But it doesn't seem to connect with that instant attraction that makes me think "I just want you to eff me right now!!!!!". I felt like that before I even knew the guy, so that couldn't be anything based on him treating me bad.
But it should have ended now, after knowing him. Maybe it's just his confidence. He feels sexy and I think he is sexy. 🤷🏼♀️ -
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How is it possible to be attracted to someone, that is an marker or stupid or mistreats you or other things, that are bad?
How can you still be turned in with that?
🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
Anyone know what I am talking about?
I think you mean 'turned on' . well the brain get flooded with the feel good chem when we meet someone for the first time and the right time. like when woman are making eggs. so the brain makes this strong connection to the guy near them at the and if he squirting male hormones, like a lot, it really get the girl body excite and the brain say yes open the flood gates to the feel good hormone now. so the brain then make this very very strong connection with little brain cell thingys so you are then hooked and screwed and a real pain in the ass to brake the connection. just saying
Yes!!!!!! Yes yes yes!!! Turned in is what I mean!!!!!
It happened the moment I saw him, so it was never about his personality from the get go. Then I got to know him and liked some things. Then I got to know him and dislike some things. But I'm still Walking around doing twitches, if you know what I mean. It's like the being turned on just refuse to switch to other guys. Even though I can tell some of them are beautiful guys or good guys.
it sounds like you got hooked big time. your switch is broke. so give it time to fix
Yup biiiiiigtime! And I thought I'd killed it, but treetrunker came back. As long as he is still not into me even physically, I'll be good. And trying to switch the focus to just me. But seriously, my vajayjay is like 'heeeeeeyyy giiiiirl remember that guy' all the time during the day!there is this Aries guy i went to school with. long long time ago. i had a huge huge crush on him and my vajayjay so loved him. anytime i would hear him talk, or even smell him when he was close to me and didnt know he was there my vajayjay knew before me. so i think those were just stupid girl crush till after 30 years 'not seeing him or anything', well he friends me on facebook and my vajayjay never forgot him. i have never kissed this guy or anything. we had one dance in school together. out of 23 guys he is the only one who affected me this way. all i know is when i saw his name on facebook it hit me like a dam braking or ton of rocks out of nowhere. i didnt think i would have it that bad for him after all this time, all those years. and i till cant get sex from him, but he says he wants me. my thinking is if i have sex with him it will brake this spell i am in. I thought is was died for 30 years, no just sitting deep down inside me wait to bust out. gggrrrr. it hit me soo hard i drank myself into a stooper 3 times. i never do that and never have. its like i have no control over myself with him. even if it doesnt look i am in control of myself with other guys i am. but him i so cant get a handle on any part of me. vajayjay goes crazy and dont know why. lol click to expand
Woooooooooooooow 👀👀👀👀
Not proud to admit this, but so happy I'm not the only one with a crazy controlling vag!!!
Why can't you hook up with him?
If that was me, I would die. Like just roll over an die. Walking around feeling that desire all the time for no apparent reason and no way to do anything about it! Intolerable!!!
I recently saw a guy, I was mad crushing on as a teen. Initially without having ever talked to him.... I was NOT attracted now 😂😂😂😂 I have no one else in my past that could make me feel this way. I did have a thing with another guy though, that lasted for 5 years. I liked and disliked him at the same time. 🤷🏼♀️ -
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How is it possible to be attracted to someone, that is an marker or stupid or mistreats you or other things, that are bad?
How can you still be turned in with that?
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Anyone know what I am talking about?
Attraction is a subconscious thing,u have no choice
U can dont like someone and still be attracted to them😃
Well then you can dislike things about them!!! I know that!!!
I am drivning myself insaaaaaaaane!!! Dance all night with all these guys and nothing. Just one person, and that's a complet no go. Even if I wanted to, he doesn't. It's been a year. I don't get it anymore. I give up.
Unfortunately it works that way
That guy is attractive,alpha,u want him physically
Every woman needs an alpha guy to have sex with and a guy to provide everything else,these two things are rarely found in the same person
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Funny though, he wasn't alpha when I met him, it was his sweetness that made me really like him. But he's changed, and now I see things in him I really don't like. Not even with how he has been or is with me, but with others. But for some reason I just want him to stick it on me. But he'll be a dick afterwards, so can't go there.
I understand but u still want him😂
U screwed😂he got u
I wish!!! No screwing here!!! 😭😭
But yeah, he def. got under my scin!
Everything be fine😃go have sex,lots of it
With who though!!!! 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Attracted to one guy who is no longer attracted to me. All the others does nothing for me, so far.
Pay the guy attracted to👍
Pay?? What? 😂😂😂 Trying to push my friends to set me up.
Oh but hey, I forgot I was very attracted to this other guy. I went to speak to him om behalf of another girl, and he said he was more interested in me, but I backed out 'cause of her. But she didn't even care 🤦🏼♀️
I always rush when i write😂
I see u taking charge😃u must be the most attractive one of all your friendsclick to expand
You meant to write I should pay the guy to hook up with me?? So I'll give him both total pleasure AND money!!!!!! Noooooot gonna happen. 😂😂
Ha ha not at all! I had a total girl crush on that girl that night and wanted to make her happy 😂 sometimes i look reeeeally good, other times I'm charming, other times I'm just really ugly 😂 -
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Unresolved childhood trauma or neglect. Neglect especially. You’re attracted to your triggers. Instead of shutting down or freaking out, you feel wanted and turned on when you receive toxic treatment.
It’s unfortunate, but a butter ton of people have kids they don’t care about and so there’s a lot running around out here.
That or sexual trauma from childhood thru adolescence. People are still forming their sexual concepts and identities. So if you abuse them while that’s developing then it completely changes their idea of reality when it comes to sex and attraction.
It's weird though, it's not his personality. I just saw him do some stuff, and have been thinking about it since. Like the physical aspect of it.
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What's your moon sign?
Aries far as I know.
Peasant moon sign.. You can't DETACH like the elite psychotic gemini mooners.. I'm sorry.. I'm always here for ya.. 😔💔
Some of it is just who I am as a person. I've always obsessed over things, but once it was wayyyy more unrealistic, and that made it easy. Every time I got close to my object, I freaked out. 'Cause I don't feel good enough to finally get what I want.
But no, I'm def. not at detatching. With guys at least. Girl friends and family I can. 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Oh no, why do you feel that way? You're worth it, baby! I'm the opposite, I grab life by the dick and usually get what I want and when I don't just get ready for a terrible tantrum and a possible emotional spiral to hell, I honestly think it's a fire mars thing. 😂
I can never ever detach from a family member or the friends I consider family, men, however, just lol. I've only gave a butter about one guy and I'm still confused af about the whole situation.click to expand
It's weird how us people are so different. When family or friends act crazy with me, I detatch. When they make me feel nor. Good enough, I detatch. But guys!!!
I didn't feel good enough for my father and his side of the family, but now I've changed that around. So I'm not sure if I think I can do the same with guys, that don't like me, and that that is why I am not detatching. Even if it is just physical, that I feel attached now.
On some things I grab life by the dick, but I could DEF. do more, and not care so much about how I male other people feel. That's always on my mind: how do I make other people feel. And I act to please them, and not to please myself.