To the ones who said "let it go" you are of course right, and this is what my friends have been telling me.
Why can't I? Well that's basically summed up by Montgomery's post. He is the One That Got Away, the ONLY one.
I'm almost 30 years old. I thought I had met my match! I wanted there to be some meaning to the misery I've gone through. In reality I guess I'm just suffering from a bruised ego and heavy regret for acting the way I did that time and self-sabotaging. Also throw some disbelief in there that he could run away so easily, after one misstep. He did say he was afraid of being hurt and didn't want to get emotionally caught up, as his only longterm relationship ended badly. Maybe it wouldn't have been a good scenario in the end anyway.
Going to lay in the bed I made... and find some uncomplicated good-enough-for-now to have fun with until I feel that amazing type of chemistry again. Now that I know it exists, I will never settle for less.
Did you have sex? Yes (amazing). Were you just friends? No, it was clearly a dating situation Were you friends with benefits? No, we met and immediately went on a date Do you know what you were? I know it was intense but we hadn't discussed what we were and I guess that's what made me have a little insecure freak out Were you official? No
Sorry I don't know how to quote on here.
I guess my main thing is should I hold out hope for something so much better than everything else? Or should I just give up and go ahead with a relationship with a great person but feels mediocre in comparison to this guy.
Would a leo want to know that he's #1 above a bunch of contenders or does he want to be ignored?