How to deal with this?

Apologies for the other post, I accidentally clicked create topic without finishing what I wrote lol!

Anyway.......

There are times where I feel so alone and it really hurts deep inside. I have these phases where i get really upset and feel low but I just end up pushing it away to the side and carry on with my day. It makes me feel so lonely - even though I am in a relationship and I have people I trust - I don't want to talk to them about it, I'd rather deal with these emotions on my own. For example today, I just feel so drained, I want to be alone and not talk to anyone. But then later on, I will think wth am I doing, stop feeling so negative and just push it all to the side like it never happened.

To be fair, I'd rather help people with their issues and problems then to talk to anyone about mine.

I would like to know if any other aquas go through this and how do you deal with it....

Thanks AM for your reply. What you have said I totally relate to it as well. The last couple of days I have felt so drained and upset I can't seem to get my head around it. I wanted to be left alone so I literally went to the bathroom, locked the door and just sat there thinking. I just wanted peace and quiet but my mind was buzzing with thoughts.

I don't like going through solitude as it pushes people away like you mentioned. I want to cry but I try and stay strong, eventually sometimes it gets the better of me and I break down. When I have these moments I feel like I can't speak to anyone about it. It's almost like no one will understand so I guess thats why I try to deal on my own.

On the inside I feel down but on the outside I show the world I happy and smile. It's hard.

I also hate being forced to talk about how I feel, it really gets on my nerves.

I've noticed that when I get like this I end up buying things online. It seems to uplift my mood but not good on the bank account! I end up treating my self to things.

Also, I listen to music. It seems to calm me down. Especially songs with lyrics on how I'm feeling and about life generally. Music is like my best friend.

But still, it's all a cover up. The issue is not resolved until you face it.