Eternal_dreamer93
@Eternal_dreamer93
6 Years
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Posted by emeraldgem
NO ONE is gonna read all this! Try the cliff notes version and maybe you'll get a response.

Posted by Eternal_dreamer93
Hey guys 🙂 To all the people who answered, thanks, I made a profile just to ask, I didn't know the 'forum rules' about paragraphs and stuff, I found out about this yesterday, nor I didn't think about the fact that there is maybe a writing kind of a rule, I am new. So, to whoever it may concern, I think everyone who wrote something here wanted help, not sarcastic comments about their writing and stuff to make them feel bad maybe. People in general should learn to avoid negative unecessary comments 'cause you never know how someone is feeling, and if you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all. 🙂
Anyway, thanks to anyone who realises that I'm just not informed and wanted to help either way, 'cause this seemed like a place I could maybe learn something new. People's experiences are way more better than reading online articles about Aquarius sign in general. This is a long story, with a lot of details, I didn't know how to put it well in words, and I didn't mention a lot of things, maybe the structure is bad but it's just I tried to put a lot of informations in one piece.
So, once again, thanks to anyone who wants to say their opinion and try to help a bit. ☺
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I know him from high school, 25 kg plus, crazy style , hair, rebel, I thought he is insane. Actually a couple of years ago he added me on Facebook. He knew my younger sister and he told me he was just curious 'cause we all listen to electronic music and we go to the festivals and stuff. So we started talking later, but in the last 3 years we were in touch. Everything was friendly 'cause we were in the relationships. But never before have I meed this kind of an interesting, intellectual, yet stubborn individuality in a person, he was sooo amazing, I've could talk to him in days without stopping, and we did it. We talked for days, sometimes we stayed up very late until morning hours, and when someone falls asleep in the morning everything was continued normally with 'I'm sorry' words. So we both ended our relationships last year, he did that in May, and my bf left me in October. But we were contantly talking about how our relatioships are falling appart, he criticized me, I did it to him, but with time he was teasing me 'cause my ex was really humilliating me as a person but I was blind 'cause I loved him so much and was so insecure. So I realized that with time the strong sexual and intellectual connection exists between us. He even texted me while he visited his gf last time in other country, he told me he is bored and it won't work out anymore. I felt a bit bad 'cause I let myself getting a bit attached to this guy even I was totally disrespected and unloved, but I was still in a relationship. He was giving me the feeling I am worthy and pretty, he liked my personality and he reminded me of the fact that I am actually a female who can be attractive and appreciated, but my Aqua did it in a weird way. Well, he even was angry a bit 'cause there was a period when we lost contact for about 4 months 'cause of my bf's jealousy and I wanted so bad to save our relatioship. But never mind. When we both broke up things started to be more and more heated up. He really, really openly showed his sexual attraction and he even openly spoke about the fact that I'm driving him insane, but mostly 'cause I have a brain. But he also knew how to tease me that I don't have the balls to do anything in reality (he knew that I am so sexually attracted to him). So, we were in theory match from heaven. And he insisted on fact that we must see each other. He was contstantly asking when I am coming to my home town to see each other. When we finally did it, when I first hugged him, it was mindblowing, just the fact that I touched him has driven me nuts. Some kind of electricity all over my body, I can not put it into the right words. I forgot to mention that I was there supporting him while he was totally changing his life around, he started eating better, exercising, he lost 25kg, gained muscles, got in shape, and dear lord he looks good now. He always looked good, there was sth about him, but now, just daaamn. So that day we saw each other we were casualy walking and talking and we went to my apartment, and it was all normal, but slowly we started touching each other in a teasy way, he finished dentistry so we were joking about body parts and he was touching me and saying how it's called on Latin ( and damn I'm hell of a sapiosexual)and he never gave compliments in a normal way, but in a 'You're such an idiot' cute way, so it became very intense. In a moment we were up, looking into each other's eyes, so close and he touched me all over my body, and in a second he was shirtless, aware of the fact that he is so handsome and wanted me to touch him. I was totally shaking, it is terrible what this guy can do to me just by his presence. In a moment he was telling about how he wants me, in other moment he asked me " Do you know what are you doing? And "Do you hate me? I told him "No." And he said ' You will '. I didn't know what that means. In a minute my phone rang and we were supposed to go and the tension was broken but when we started walking to the door he was telling me(like he did it all that time in an apartment) that i dont have the balls to kiss him. And i did it, moment before we walked though the door, and i backed off. He wanted to kiss me once more, i didnt let him. And we went home by my car, my mom was also there 😂. It was like nothing happened, but the tension could be cut with a knife. Later that night I came home, my heart was beating like crazy the next three hours. We were talking about one weird song that day and i told him i didnt hear that, and he sent me only sond that night. We spoke a bit and then with days he became colder and colder and then he wanished. He reappeared a couple of times asking if i am going to this and that party and festival, and he was acting like nothing happened. We saw each other every time we went to the same event, and even in a crowd he was showing the will to meet with me, like it was the case at EXIT festival, every day of that 4 days he wanted to catch up, and we did. But then he acted strange, or like I'm not important. He goes, than comes back, he's there with other people, girls and stuff, he's just stopping by. The last day we argued somehow and he was passive agressive all these days, but when I think a bit, that day when he grabbed me agressively by the hand and told me "Are you coming or not to the other stage I'm not waiting for you!" I actually just by pure coincidence came here to meet some other friends, and than i wanted to text him, but je was there and he saw me with all of that guys. I didnt mention that i dont like that he's sometimes using some kind of drugs at parties, and that sometimes he is totally different kind of person. The last day he told me "Don't know what you were expecting" when somehow we argued about his strange behaviour. After that we saw each other once more at another festival, the same story. After that I travelled abroad (he was so cold when I told him that I am going for a two months) and came back about two weeks ago and while i was there he asked me if I will be back for a new festival. We saw each other for a minute, just said hi that day at a festival cause I didnt find a ticket so we just shortly hugged at entrance. A couple of days ago he also asked me if I am going to one more party and we talked casually but then he sent me some mixed signals and started flirting again, then run away.
I am so frustrated 'cause I think I'm starting to grow feelings for this guy and I think he is just backing off 'cause he realized how compatible we are. I don't know what to do. ANY KIND OF OPINION MATTERS! HELP! THANK YOU!