So what now? Do Aquas really care?

First of all, I posted some messages here about my relationship with Aqua man, and, after all, I was amazed with so great experience of love and friendship. Now, I am completely destroyed. After 5 months of our great relationship and after he returned from 10days trip, everything seems to disappear. He told me he loves me and care a lot, we exchanged few deep mails about love, fears and life and he said that this is finally first true step to build our relationship on good grounds and on confidence. Today he left me. Not saying that, but not showing me his love or anything. I was the fool who make conclusion. I said him that my heart will break apart and that I don't understand why. He said that he cannot understand how can I be happy and person with inner peace, that he don't understand me and cannot be with person who act this way. I left home, broken, in tears. He send me sms saying that he loves me and would like to have talk with me sometimes, not to lose me, that he never met a women I am,with so much love that could give. He apologize for hurts that may he made to me. So, what now? What should I think? Why he is not ready or what to be with me? Should he ever ask me to return and be with me again? Is it possible that an Aqua man shows any kind of true wish to be with me again? And after all, why he cannot accept the person for which he said that's the great he ever met? Or he is just saying that to make me less sad? I am completely broken. I just loved him, as I never love anyone before. I thought that is the right man who will make me happy, because he approached me this way. So, what should I think right now— I am sooo sad to losing him. Please help.