I'm depressed

Oh Aries,

I resent my Aries, my knight and warrior, for who he's turned out to be
I resent my Saturn for opposing him so hard, creating for fickle him, a stable me
I know he adores his Leonian godess, with intentions pure and true
But he is not to me what I am to him, thus I fear of that I should do

Leonian pride is demanding and high which entails a hard lion to please
But treat thy neighbor as you treat thyself is the motto of the life we lead
Aries is strong, courageous, never wrong and lives his life to the fullest
The Arian I speak to is a survivor at heart, but I question the terms of his fulfillment

Am I only here to provide you w/ hope, and have faith in our potential?
Do you understand that there's more to me than your average guidance counselor?
Do you get that I want be treated, in turn, with all that I have to offer?
Is that too much to ask? Am I a pain in the ass? Will we continue on towards disaster?

This is all my fault, not yours, but mine, cuz of what Saturn in Libra contends
It says I choose to date those I think I can help, then I'm disappointed in the end
But you don't need my help, your smart and wise, I admire and respect your strength
So why am I here? Are we living a lie? Do you believe Aries and Leo is best?

Truthseeker....what exactly are you looking for? How do you want him to treat you? What is really missing in your relationship? are you by chance expecting him to fill a void within yourself that you yourself can fill?

"I resent my Aries." uh-oh.....looks like trouble right there 😉

Until you change your thought about him my friend, you will continue to resent him (which will show in your actions)...and your relationship will not improve.

Best wishes.....truthseeker

In this relationship, I'm affectionate, I'm the initiator (you konw...to try new things), I'm someone he trusts and knows is loyal. I'm reliable. I'm steady. I'm courteous and considerate. I'm diplomatic, I'm full of energy and take risks, etc. Those are the qualities I look for, qualities that he lacks in some way or the other. He treats me very well, but for some reason, I feel like it's not enough. I'm tired of bitching about it because it's not him, it's me.

What's missing from this relationship is a spiritual and mental connection...that's where we seem to be opposite. The physical is fine, although i'm sure that it could improve. But our beliefs are different (i.e., regarding life, relationships, etc.). Our actions seem to be oppose one another. And I feel I don't get from him what he gets from me, and I'm not sure if that's the case vice versa.

It's weird FB...It's like I'm his shadow side and he's my shadow side. I can't tell if/when I'm projecting and if/when he's projecting...you know what I mean? I'm with someone who adores me, but I worry that he's with me because I'm a safety net. That's all fine and well...but it would be more tolerable if the feeling was mutual.