Motherfucking Mercury Retrograde

Fucking shit up already and it only fully goes retrograde on October 20!
What is it up to with you?

Me... mad conflict at work with Pisces chick I work with. She has resigned because of it! It wasn't even that bad! I feel like telling her to harden the fuck up! But I can't do that can I—? Being a manager and all....

Computer at work acting up, my car has broken down twice in the past two weeks....

Happy days!

Oh, is that what's up?

Two meetings of the If Not Attended Thou Shalt Be Drawn and Quartered!!!!! type. They were announced at very short notice. Cancelled on very short notice, hmmm..

A meeting to talk about things we really need to talk about at my work. Cancelled on very short notice. I actually showed up on a day off for that one, and that is when I learned it was cancelled.

Assorted other things that just have just been keeping me tripped up. And of course someone else had pronounced the last 3 months as a great time for Aries Romance. TTThhhhppppttthhhhttt on that one!!!!

I haven't talked to my Aries since Monday. I had to send him a funny pic today of a bulletin sign that said God listens to Slayer. He says he's super busy. So I'm not going to worry that he's lost interest now because of this stupid Mercury Retrograde. Why can't Mercury get it's act together?

Mercury Retrograde has been traumatic for me each time it has happened over the last 2 years. It's horrible! Yeah Dofacc! Well put... Shit keeps tripping me up too! And this aries has a very short fuse recently and I've been spewing slicing wrathfulness at those who are not able to shrug it off and move on at all, let alone as quickly as I can! Grudge much??

I feel like I'm losing my mind! I just want to go back to being chilled and mellow and not have anything phase me! At the moment EVERYTHING phases me and I have been creating drama like there's no tomorrow!

I'm ANGRY! SO angry! I'm angry at that chick at work for not being strong enough to handle me on my pms days. I'm angry that she messed it all up by not being able to move on from our squabbles. (obviously my higher self knows this is not the truth and my ego is angry at her for that stuff. My higher self told me to apologise over the catalyst to this entire shitstorm but my ego prevented me from doing that) I'm angry because I keep telling my boss I want her to stay because we have such a good team and dynamic with the current staff BUT A REALLY LARGE PART OF ME JUST WANTS HER TO FUCK OFF! Like.... don't go.... FUCK OFF!

I'm angry for this internal conflict going on inside myself!

Anyway.... my point is: I'm fucking angry at everything and everyone including myself! I hate it!

Posted by dofacc
TTThhhhppppttthhhhttt on that one!!!!

Yeah... a great time for romance—!!! What you said Dofacc! TTTTThhhhhhhpppppppptttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually LL, that is one of my "pet peeves." We work together. That means we have a "professional" relationship, it does not mean that I am, or want to be, your friend. We can have different ideas, we need have different ideas. There are times that we can/should go at it because of those ideas with the proverbial hammer and tong! I have to argue/defend my ideas, you have to argue/defend your. There is absolutely nothing personal about it, either. It is "business," and business only.

It has been my experience that to many people think that "friendship" is required in a business, professional sitting. In most cases, that is exactly what you don't want. So many people just don't seem to be able to wrap their hear around this concept, though. We need to stimulate each others professional growth with new ideas and insights, not provide one another with unquestioning support.

Posted by lotuslily

Posted by dofacc
TTThhhhppppttthhhhttt on that one!!!!

Yeah... a great time for romance—!!! What you said Dofacc! TTTTThhhhhhhpppppppptttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I third this. What a load of shit.

This answers my earlier dilemma hm.

Still having a shit time! Anyone else feel like hating on MR for what it's doing??

Posted by xMoonMan
I thought I might end up on the floor in the fetal pos??tion, twitching & sucking my thumb...

I feel like this now! Work pressure and I hate where I live pressure! I have nightmares revolving around my issues when I 'sleep'(which is only happening from about 2:30am now because I'm so traumatised) and I have little mini anxiety attacks lying in bed at night. I am doubting myseld with EVERYTHING! It sucks dinosaur balls!

I felt a bit better when I made the decision to move... I even told my landlord I am not happy where I am living -- I can't take care of myself like I deserve to -- and started looking for a new place to live. Then -- dumbest ides ever -- I decided to pull some cards from one of Doreen Virtue's Angel card collections and I was looking for advice to do with the moving situation. Guess which card I pulled! Stay. The message it came with was as follows:
"This card guides you not to run away from a troubling situation. Whatever it is that's going on or challenging you is something you need to experience and learn from in this lifetime. There's an aspect of this situation, however unpleasant, that's not yet complete. so the angels ask you not to make any extreme moves right now. While this may seem like the exact opposite of what you hoped you'd hear, please know that the tools and lessons you'll acquire by persevering will serve as priceless assets to you later in life. Someday you'll see the situation as clearly as the angels do now -- and you will know that when the time to make a change comes, the signs will be undeniable."

WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUCK! Now I am doubting and feeling lost again and even more traumatised. I don't know whether to listen (because it was pretty relevant, or not put up with being miserable in the one place I am meant to find sanctuary each night and find somewhere better to live! It's affecting my physical, mental and emotional wellbeing! Why must I let myself torture myself by continuing to live here? The energy is stuck here and I feel fear gripping me and terrifying me stiff!

Posted by starlover
It is a really shitty one

We lost a lovely musician in a car crash...32 he was 😢

The weather is shite

Things are breaking down (lap top i was using at my ex's house)

One of my cats is effing miaowing louder than ever

Could it get any worse??

Sorry for your loss Star xx I hope things start looking up soon -- for all of us. I really need help pulling myself out of this black hole! I am battling to stay positive! I am on the verge of hyperventilation at this point!

And I'm just not getting the time I need to get my stuff sorted out! Where the fuck is time flying to?? It's unbelievable and I feel deject each day because of yet another thing added to the list of to dos that I don't have time to do! I WANT LIFE TO BE EASY AGAIN PLEASE! I WANT JOY AGAIN PLEASE!

Posted by lotuslily

Posted by xMoonMan
I thought I might end up on the floor in the fetal pos??tion, twitching & sucking my thumb...

I feel like this now! Work pressure and I hate where I live pressure! I have nightmares revolving around my issues when I 'sleep'(which is only happening from about 2:30am now because I'm so traumatised) and I have little mini anxiety attacks lying in bed at night. I am doubting myseld with EVERYTHING! It sucks dinosaur balls!

I felt a bit better when I made the decision to move... I even told my landlord I am not happy where I am living -- I can't take care of myself like I deserve to -- and started looking for a new place to live. Then -- dumbest ides ever -- I decided to pull some cards from one of Doreen Virtue's Angel card collections and I was looking for advice to do with the moving situation. Guess which card I pulled! Stay. The message it came with was as follows:
"This card guides you not to run away from a troubling situation. Whatever it is that's going on or challenging you is something you need to experience and learn from in this lifetime. There's an aspect of this situation, however unpleasant, that's not yet complete. so the angels ask you not to make any extreme moves right now. While this may seem like the exact opposite of what you hoped you'd hear, please know that the tools and lessons you'll acquire by persevering will serve as priceless assets to you later in life. Someday you'll see the situation as clearly as the angels do now -- and you will know that when the time to make a change comes, the signs will be undeniable."

WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUCK! Now I am doubting and feeling lost again and even more traumatised. I don't know whether to listen (because it was pretty relevant, or not put up with being miserable in the one place I am meant to find sanctuary each night and find somewhere better to live! It's affecting my physical, mental and emotional wellbeing! Why must I let myself torture myself by continuing to live here? The energy is stuck here and I feel fear gripping me and terrifying me stiff!

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...You're leaving major life decisions to a card? Seriously?

Hahahaha! What a perfect response RR! I was thinking the same thing just now.
I just got off the phone with this woman who was advertising for a housemate. We clicked instantly and spoke about things that should never be spoken about in first convos/interviews... I'm going to go check the place out tomorrow hopefully. I felt really joyful and positive after the convo with her -- it lasted like 45 minutes! And so I figure, why the fark would I stay here and torture myself living in misery? I should follow my joy!

Regarding leaving major life decisions to a card... That's how much I have been doubting myself. I shouldn't. Our bodies are the most intuitive parts of us. My current living arrangement -- i feel horrible and it's fear based. I however feel better and excited about potential future living space.

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Posted by lotuslily
Regarding leaving major life decisions to a card... That's how much I have been doubting myself. I shouldn't. Our bodies are the most intuitive parts of us. My current living arrangement -- i feel horrible and it's fear based. I however feel better and excited about potential future living space.

Which deck do you use lotus?

🙂

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I've got the Indigo Angel cards. You?