
FireLion
@FireLion
8 Years
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So yeah, as you can probably tell, if somebody is still actually reading this, I'm simply and desperately so damn LOST & have no idea WHAT TO DO with myself or my life anymore- especially coping with the fact that I'll never be in the presence of my younger brother ever again and that is just too damn heart-wrenching. We were inseparable from the get go, just 3 years apart in age. We did everything together, countless memories...up until the past several years when he got extremely bad off suffering from the horribly destructive disease of hardcore drug addiction- that's what caused ALL of the huge problems/fights/arguments between he and I, especially the last time in particular where it nearly came to blows between us & there were so many mean and hateful things said- that happened only a few days before his accidental overdose and I'll never be able to forgive myself for letting his disease get the best of me that last time I saw him and because the content was so ANGRY & volatile(Mars in 3rd squares Saturn- ouch!). But we were eachorher's best friend and rock growing up while living in a traumatically violent-toned, traumatic & dysFUNctional family of 6 together...
So I'll shut up now, but if ANYONE can offer me ANY KIND OF ADVICE, KNOWLEDGE or WISDOM(or anything) as to what I should start doing as my life purpose or cause to conquer this intensely empty & very sad feeling that I now have when I used to be filled with nothing but joy, happiness, love & humor........
My email address is FireLions33@gmail.com, feel free to write anytime!
Thank you....☮??