Scorpio Ex

I am an Aries and my ex is a scorpio.. there is a very long story behind our relationship so I'll be brief. Our relationship was very toxic, alot of pushing, pulling, breaking and making up. We are both women. On her part there was alot of victim playing, manipulation and narcissism. On my end there was verbal abuse, erratic and impulsive behavior.. not only because I had a drinking problem but just because my nature is hot headed. I did alot of messed up things to her.. but not unwarranted. Her abuse was mental (alot of mind games, gas lighting and projecting). Leaving me stranded or upset and coming back whenever she was ready on her terms. When we finally ended things (with a bang of course) things got really bad, but of course she ran back to her family and pulled the victim card. She could/can do no wrong. I know that I was very wrong throught the relationship, I should not have allowed someone to control my emotions or sanity like that and reacted the way I did. I am very sorry. She has made it clear that she hates me. Whats funny is she never once showed me that she truly loved me. The entire relationship was a power struggle. I was very young, she is about 6 years older. She got her way in the end. Won the war, that is for certain. I left bruises on her the last night we were together and she went and got a protective order after I told her if she didn't bring me my brand new phone back I would start selling things out of the house. Since then, we have said very little. I apologized, wished her the best and turned my life around. I am sober now, rebuilt my life and moved on. It has been about ten months since the final fight. I have to live with what happened.. the guilt. She on the other hand, will never fess up to anything on her part. It's a big f*ck you parade as always. Her b estfriend watches my Instagram story religiously, so I know that she has to know some things about my new life. Two nights ago on Christmas I turned around in line at my job (which I just got promoted at) and standing in line trying her damnest to not make eye contact with me. I see her and walk away.. even go out back to smoke. Soon enough she comes roaring through the parking lot out the entrance. Last night she came in again. I sent someone else to ring her up. I removed myself from the situation. As you can imagine, the encounters brought up alot of old emotions and grief I have only tried to move away from. I logged into my old Facebook to message her because she has me blocked on my new one. I told her I didn't understand why she was coming in there, if she needed to reach me to message me through facebook, and not come in my job. I kindly asked her not to and wished her the best. She then responds that she didn't want me to message her, if she had something to say she would have said it in there. She comes in there all the time (lie) and she's just a paying customer. That if I have such an important position at my job I need to focus on that and not where she spends her money. Asked me not to message her again and sent some other emojis and smart was comments. Just all together nasty. I get my job is a public place but there's a wawa next door and she came in two nights in a row. I messaged her once more saying please stay out of my job, that I don't come in here. J was very nice. She then responds see you tomorrow with more happy emojis and blocked me again. I just want to move on with my life. She had a new car how bad could her life be? Why has she waited so long to start being petty.. why is she still stewing.. What can I do to make it stop. I still love her, all though I can't be with her. We both burnt bridges. She has up until a year to press charges on me for the bruises and I'm on probation. I am scared. I want to ban her from the store but I don't want her to retaliate and mess up my life even more. Advice—

I don't go in her job.. I was not rude. I have not bothered her. I heard she has moved on .. more messy relationships. She always seemed calculated but her head is on her shoulders. I don't understand why she is doing this to me still.. why can't I just move on. It's been almost a year! How sorry can I be—?!!!

If you hate someone or are so "scared" of them.. You don't come in to their job TWICE!!! Back to back. I wish she would call down. It hurts.. knowing she never really gave a shit. All that "understanding" she did about my issues.. She knew I had them.. even enabled me. I'm not that person anymore. I don't get it