CAUGHT OFF GUARD MIC (Moon in Cancer)

i just cant believe this young man i really dont fool with nemore (let me tell it) has just really gotten me on some kind of trip over him.. i mean not foolishly but as far as the pining thing..ohh like those steamy cheesy romance novels..lol but i cant seem to shake this..and its soo emotionally unnerving at times..cause im so open and hes so closed.. wen i come out with something i pour.. his is more of a trickle.. i might get a consistent one if im lucky..(for a few seconds, minutes at most) i dunno its so bizarre..never experienced this before..hes a Virg btw n to think he was the one that pursued me initially.. my scorp bro says im "slow" and "weak" (so brutal) its been almost 5 years of knowin him but my bro says im naive n i shood leave him alone.. i do but i dont.. like i said..NEVER have i experienced nething like this,feelings included..its soo mesmerizing

Am i being tragically whimsical or could there be something to this opposite of heartache??