It's my first time posting in here :-) Any advice would be much appreciated! Apologize it's long but wanted to provide details.
I grew up down the street from a Cancer male (Pisces Moon, Capricorn Mars, Leo Venus) and have had a crush on him since I was 4 (I'm 29 now).
(I'm an Aries/Taurus cusp, Capricorn Moon, Pisces Venus female).
I was always so shy around him but we shared groups of friends, rode the bus together every day grade school through high school, went to concerts together, etc.
In high school, he made out with me after an ex-boyfriend was a jerk to me at a party. He told me "Don't let anyone ever treat you that way." (Swoon). When I visited a mutual friend of ours when we were in college, he asked me out - but I was dating someone. He ended up dating someone for 7 years after that.
He recently became single last year. I had moved to the opposite coast. We still somehow managed to match on Tinder yet never spoke on it/about it.
This year I came back to my hometown (where he still lives) to be a bridesmaid in a wedding on Halloween that he ended up playing the music for. He texted my friend to find out where we were after the wedding and him and I ended up making out again and talking about childhood memories.
I wish I remembered everything we said but I had been drinking ? I sent him a FB message the next day to apologize for being so drunk but he said he had the spins as well and that I looked beautiful.
I came home for Xmas last week and sent him a FB message to ask him if he wanted to grab a beer. He said he would but had a show at the place I was staying and that it should be fun. When I showed up to check in (in the morning), he was there at the concierge desk buying a Xmas present for his aunt. I was so nervous I was shaking. He asked me to coffee. We drank coffees out by the ocean, chatting for an hour, and it was one of the most surreal moments of my life. I felt super connected.
Later that night, I went to his show and all of my hometown friends and family were there. It was beautiful and I feel like he was shy performing in front of me - but again I got drunk. (Haven't been drinking much since I moved). I don't remember hanging with him after the show ended but supposedly he was being caring towards me since it was obvious I was intoxicated (holding my purse, had his arm around me at some point, paid for my sister and mom's tab). I left without saying bye with my sister since I was unaware.
The next morning I was so embarrassed again I sent him a FB message thanking him for getting the tab- that it was very sweet of him- and that it was a great show. He said no problem and that he was glad I enjoyed it. We also talked about Xmas eve plans and he tried to see if I was going out again. I missed the message since I was asleep and he tried again Xmas night to see if I was going out. He then said "let me know if you want to grab a drink" and gave me his number. (Which I've never had my whole life).
I saw it an hour later then texted him saying "I'm laying low with family tonight but would be up to grab a drink before I leave on the 28th."
He never responded that night or the whole day of the 26th.
Any thoughts on why he would be ignoring me after asking me to drinks and telling me to text him? He's never ignored a message before.
This is the first time we've ever had real momentum and I care way too much about him to mess it up ? I also should mention he is the only person I ever feel nervous around but when we talk one on one I feel calm.