About six weeks ago, I posted about my crush...

on a Libran.

Some of you gave me great advice.

Well... I've been out of town for 6 weeks, and it's been wonderful for me. I'm coming home on the weekend, and will be seeing the Libran. I had a pretty major crush, and in the six weeks I've been gone, I'm pleased to say I've just enjoyed myself and not thought about him so much.

Anyway, now I'm heading home, and I'm panicking a little. I am interested to see how big my crush will be once I see him again. Right now I feel very calm and in control of my emotions, and I'm very accepting of the fact that we're JUST FRIENDS. Of course, I still want more, deep down, but I realise I deserve someone who wants to be with me and if doesn't, then I'm better off alone.

*Sigh* I'm so nervous, though... nervous about seeing him again, and nervous that I'll just fall in ...like... for him all over again.

Not posting this for any real advice (though advice is ALWAYS welcome!) just to keep you up to date, and I guess 'verbalise' my feelings.

I remember, Gemini16 .. and what stands out in my mind is that you two had a lot of concern for each other, and mainly, that he is mature enough to realize that a Real Man will wait for his divorce, or for resolution from one woman before leading another woman on (the hotel room thingy).

Also remember this phrase (had to go find it and pull it).. "I remember one day we did not fight, and I was amazed. I told him we hadn't fought, and then we fought about the fact that we did or didn't fight every day" .. which still has me laughing .. hilarious.

Anyway .. keep strong. You KNOW that you've grown away from feeling out of control with your emotions, while still holding him dear. If you let yourself falter, then you'll probably end up at the same place you were before ..

"deep down, but I realise I deserve someone who wants to be with me and if doesn't, then I'm better off alone."

Sometimes, women forget this because they so desperately want to be loved and adored .. and the only thing it accomplishes is becoming an emotional doormat and burden to the man. You ARE deserving, always remember you are better off alone, then settling against your pride and principals.

Good luck 🙂 on the homecoming and I'm hoping for him to have missed you so much that he realizes what he has before it's too late.

Thanks everyone for all your advice. I'm about to head home - a 13 hour drive with my sister - road trip yay! Lots of music and singing will be happening. I promise to come back and update once I see him....

I'm defiantely leaning towards just accepting that we're friends. I'm open to change, but I'm accepting that it probably won't happen. I've been doing internet dating, and been asked out on 2 dates when I get home, so that's something to look forward to (and help me keep my mind off the Libran!!)