So I've been seeing this gem girl for a little over 2 years and we were on and off, not until recently was it because of fighting or anything negative did we break up. I've fallen in love with her this year and its only made things harder. It was always me who just up and left, I took her virginity so she's had the ideology we'd be together forever, I didn't think at first but now I'm certain she's who I want to spend my life with. She left me this time for someone else whom she claims to love. She tells me to call every now and then to tell me she hates me yet she tells me she dreams about me all the time and that she thinks about me a lot too.. She knows I want to marry her. She has gained such animosity towards me it makes me sick. I've just gotten over the suicidal, extreme self hated/ pity stage (ya pathetic I already know). An example of where we stand would be the last time we hung out I took her to the El Monstero concert, afterwards we got a hotel and tripped acid for the first time together and had a good night overall.. We had sex all night and the next day she deleted my snapchat, didn't respond to my texts or calls but we've talked since just not the most pleasant conversations.. She tells me she wants me to sweep her off her feet somehow in the short future.. Gemini ladies, what should I do??
