gemini & geminis..sleep deprived rant.

So, (obviously) I'm a Gemini & I've been attracted to gemini men all my life (something I noticed when I started learning about astrology). I've been pretty flighty about most guys, not really caring.. usual detached thing, until I really started to like this guy -another Gemini.
Things started off in the usual way- although this summer I think I actually started to care for him. Usually we'd joke about what we got up to over the weekend/people we were seeing, but lately I've been getting jealous, obsessive even.
But in my own, private world ;]
We even talked about dating, seriously & maybe having a relationship. It seemed like it could work. We're both incredibly similiar and get each other - though he's much more sensitive than me (cancer moon & venus in cancer—)
But today I decided, no. It could be no more. Simply cos' I cared too much, I actually cared about him seeing other people and was terrified that he would get bored of me, eventually break my heart.
I feel terrible, but I know myself & I KNOW what geminis are like!
I think it's probably best to take a break & 'detach' a bit more.

I'm caught between two states of mind- one that has fallen for him and wants to be caught up in it all - the other is a neurotic, complex mess that has decided it's best to stay away.

Blaaaaah! Terrible. More insanely sleep deprived rants to come.